ok so this thought just came to my mind and i had to write it. for those who were reading The last Something That Meant Anything i'm working on an update but im not sure yet. So Sorry bout that. Anyways I dont own one tree hill

I hope you give my story a shot I'll update as frequent as possible

If It Wasn't Meant To Be

Broken Dreams

"Haley, I know I want to be there too. Believe me I miss James more then you know but I can't go back there. Why don't you fly up here?" Brooke Said in too the phone as she looked through a stack of huge papers on her desk.

Haley on the other end was washing dishes, "Brooke you know that we cant afford that, and don't offer to pay because you know that Nathan is too proud to accept that, beside we already got everything for his party it's going to be awesome with the exception of you not being here." She told her best friend.

Brooke put the paper she was looking at down, "Haley, I love you tutor mom and I love your tutor son but, going back means I have to see him. It means I have to face him, Face them, both of them while its just me all by myself lonely and depressed and they are together and happy. I don't think I can put myself through that" She rubbed her temples as she began to feel a migrane forming.

"Brooke, your not lonely you have a beautiful child, and a gorgeous boyfriend. Bring him if you want." Haley suggested trying anything she could think of to get her best friend and the godmother to her only son down to Tree Hill for his sixth birthday party.

"That is something I can definitely not do. Tom can't take time off, he's a football player what is he going to say to his coach? 'oh hey um I need to miss the next game because my girlfriends' godson's birthday is on Saturday' That's not going to happen. Besides I don't want them to meet. Do you know how awkward that would be?"

Haley stopped washing the dishes and turned around to find Nathan in the kitchen sitting down at the island she held up her hand telling him to hold on, "Brooke, you and Tom have been dating for two years now eventually they are going to have to meet, you know that and besides you and Luke broke up way back in your senior year of high school I think that both of you should have moved on by now. I know he has." The line remained silent as Brooke turned and looked out the window not really looking at anything just staring as tears formed in her eyes, "Brooke, I'm sorry. But you can't keep fooling yourself."

Brooke choked back the tears that were threatening to fall, "Your right, your absolutely right I just-"

"Excuse me Ms. Davis, Tom and Ian are here." Brooke's assistant said poking her head in the door.

"Ok thank you Danielle. Hey Haley I'm gonna have to let you go ok? Tom and the kiddo are here. But we'll continue this conversation later, let me just figure things out in my head and then I'll see what happens."

"Ok, tell my godson I say hi and that I love him, and I miss him." Haley tells her as she starts to dry the dishes.

"I will and tell Jaime the same thing. Tell Nate hi for me too." Brooke said as she motioned for Tom to come in.

"I will, Bye Tigger. I love you."

"Bye Tutor-Mom and I love you too. Talk to you soon." She said hanging up the phone. She got up and walked over to her boyfriend of almost two years who was holding their son Ian who was fast asleep. Brooke who was wearing heels still had to tippy toe to kiss him. "Hi baby," she moves Ian's hair from his face, "Hi my other baby."

"He fell asleep on the car ride over here. I'll take him back to the loft and then I have to get ready, my plane leaves at 9:30 in the morning tomorrow." Tom said as one hand cupped Brookes face. Tom Brady was the quarterback for the New England Patriots, he met Brooke at a friends wedding, she had designed the dress of course, and since then they've been inseparable. "I'll see you tonight beautiful."

"Well I can go with you if you want? I'll take my work home, so that maybe we could spend sometime together before you leave." She suggested.

"Are you sure? Fashion week is in two months aren't you really busy?" He asked.

"Yeah, I am. But that's ok. I'll get Rachel to cover for me. Besides I have a really bad headache and I just really want to lie down right now and my feet are killing me." She said as she went to her computer and turned it off grabbing her jacket and purse as she made her way back to her boyfriend. "Lets go babe."

"Aren't you forgetting something?" Tom asked.

Brooke confused by what he meant looked at him with furrowed brows then it hit her, "Right," She walked back to her desk and picked up her iPhone and her Blackberry, "You're a life saver." He chuckled a bit and proceeded to open the door for her as she exited her office. She stopped by the front desk and told Danielle to call Rachel and tell her that she was leaving early and that she had left some papers on her desk for her.

Tree Hill

"Hey Baby," Luke said walking into the kitchen placing a soft kiss on Peyton's lips, "How was your day today? Did you get a lot done?"

"I should be asking you that question, What chapter are you on?" Peyton asked holding on to his tie.

Lucas scratched his head not wanting to lie, "Well I wrote a couple of pages, but I didn't get that far. Your turn."

"Well I painted two paintings and they are awesome, so fiancé, I think I win." She said playfully.

"Yeah well painting is a little easier then writing." Lucas said removing his tie from her hands and walking over to the refrigerator.

"Really Mr. Backspace, I only have one shot. You have a little button that makes everything easy, and if I recall correctly you also have this thing called a spell check."

"Touché."

She smirked, "Did you go get Jaime's gift?"

"Um no, I completely forgot, luckily the party isn't for another week and a half so I still have time." He said sitting down. Peyton came up behing him and started to rub his shoulders "Thanks."

She nodded her head knowing he couldn't see her but knowing that he knew she did, "You think she's coming?"

Lucas dropped his head back to look up at her, "Who?"

Peyton looked away then back at him, "Brooke Penelope Davis, The fashion designer."

Lucas dropped his head as she started to massage his kneck, "Well she's Jaime's godmother, but like you said she's also a fashion designer and I think Haley said something about Fashion week being in a couple of months so she's probably really busy. That or her quarterback boyfriend will probably have a game that weekend so she wont be able to make it."

Peyton stopped massaging and walked back over to the counter, "I just wish that she'd call more. Or visit. I mean I haven't seen her in over five years."

Lucas felt a slight sting in his heart as he had seen Brooke at his New York book signing almost three years ago but never said anything to Peyton not wanting to start a fight. He got up and pulled her in for a hug, "I know. You must miss her, Hell even I miss her, but Brooke is," He paused trying to think of the right word, "Well, she's Brooke, nothings going to change that. She has her life, a good one at that, what does she need us for?"

Peyton didn't say a word, but again nodded her head. She kissed Lucas lightly on the cheek and left the room. Lucas threw his head back feeling another knot starting to form in his shoulders, "I miss her more then she cares to know." He whispered to himself.

New York

Brooke, Tom, and Ian arrived at Brooke's downtown loft an hour after they left her office. Ian was still asleep and Tom placed him in his bed without waking him and stayed for a couple of minutes just staring at him. Brooke came in and wrapped her arms around him from behind, "Your so good to him. I couldn't ask for a better father." She said as Tom continued to stare at the boy. She finally let go of Tom and he turned around so he was facing her. He placed a light kiss on her forehead and walked out of the room without saying a word. Brooke sat at the edge of her son's bed and placed her hand on his cheek, "I'm sorry for everything baby." Is all she said before she got up, covered him with a blanket and left the room.

She found Tom in her room, well their room when he was in town, wearing shorts and a Patriots shirt , laying down on the bed watching tv. She went to her closet and pulled out some clothes for her to change into. After changing she walked over to the bed and sat at the edge that Tom was at, "What's wrong?"

He looked at her with a blank expression that she couldn't read, "Nothing I'm just tired." She climbed into bed with him and curled up on his chest, "And I don't want to miss this." He said as he protectively wrapped his arm around her.

"Hey the season will be over in three months, I'll be done with Fashion Week by then and me, you and Ian can take a vacation together." She told him.

He hugged her tighter, and kissed the top of her head, "Ok."

After a couple moments of silence she finally broke it, "Haley wants me to go back to Tree Hill."

He remained silent for a minute, "Are you going to go?"

"I don't know, It's Jaime's birthday and I haven't seen him since they came up here five months ago. I want to go, but at the same time I don't want to be around him." Brooke said trying her hardest not to cry.

Tom knew everything that went on with Brooke and Lucas back in high school he knew her pain and new asked any questions when he found her crying by herself in the dark. He never judged Brooke about her past and never would. He truly cared for her but understood that she had some skeletons in her closet that she'd rather not visit. "Well what ever you decide, it's your choice. Just let me know if you need me there for moral support."

Brooke chuckled a little to herself, "You know if Haley wasn't married, I think she'd try and take you from me, my best friends have a knack for doing that you know." She joked.

"No one could ever take me from you pretty girl." Tom said as he held her tighter and kissed the top of her head again.

Just as she was about to say something she heard a faint cry of the word 'mommy', realizing that it was her son she got up and left the room quickly removing the tear from her face that just fell. She walked into Ian's room and sat down on his bed with him, "Whats wrong baby?" Ian was barely two years old, he had the his mothers eyes, his mothers dimples, and his fathers hair. Ian stood up on his bed so that he could hug Brooke. She moved him so that he was sitting on her lap facing her, she hugged him back tightly to let him know she was there. "Di you have another nightmare hun?" He nodded his head. Brooke couldnt help but feel helpless, Ian who was crying started to calm down as Brooke rubbed his back. "You wanna go lay down with me and daddy?" Brooke asked. He shook his head no. "No? What do you want then huh baby?" She asked nestling her head onto the top of his.

"You lay down wif me pwes." He said in between sniffles.

Brooke couldnt help but smile, "Ok honey, I'll lay with you. But first why don't we put your pajama's on and take your jeans off. ok?" The little boy just nodded his head. "Ok." Brooke was a good mother, although there were some things she regretted in her life but at the same time she knew she couldnt chase the past. She stayed with her son for an hour or so before Tom came in to tell her that he had cooked dinner and that it was on the table when she was ready. She had everything she thought she could want, but everytime she looked at her son or she looked at her boyfriend she felt a pain in her heart, a pain she was tired of feeling, apain that she knew she'd have to face eventually.

A/N: Ok I hope you liked it! Please Read And Review!! please!!