Erasing You

Entry # One 9/23/12

I noticed you from afar everyday. The joyous smile upon your face as you scored a touch down in football. Every Game. You were there. Little did you know I was there too. Supporting you without you're consent. I loved that face that you make when you hear something amusing. I love your dark eyes. Brown like mahogany . I could stare at them everyday. I count the dimples on your cheeks. So far there's 5 on your fair golden brown skin. I just really want to cup your cheek. I bet your skin is soft like a newborn baby.
Black gold. You're hair is the color of black gold, I consider it valuable like gold. Rubbing my fingers threw it would be a privilege to the gods.
Your smile, those pearly whites. Brighten my day. making me forget how lonely my life is. I just wish you would flash it at me for once. Those bright pink lips of yours. They're precious. I just wish you wouldn't kiss those tramps that call you their "boyfriend". I desire to make contact with them with my own lips. To taste you would complete me. I see you apply cherry Chapstick on at your locker in the mirror. I wouldn't mind savoring it. To feel you make sparks with me. To transfer your love into me.

I wish we could be friends at least. Your house is right across the street from me. Just 17 steps away from mine. How would I know exactly? I've tried making attempts to talk to you, the coward in me screams louder than my confidence. It's funny. As I write this I can see you playing catch with your dad. It must be fun bonding with your father. Mine barely gets me. Considering that I'm gay. You're little sister seems like an angel. Your family seems perfect. You're perfect. Flawless like a diamond. I wish I could just steal you like one. Having you all to myself

It burns my soul knowing I can't have you. I can't touch your tender yet muscular skin. I just wish I could embrace you. You're arms wrapping around me. Making me feel secure. Hidden from the adversity I face. I can not stop thinking about you. You're racing in my head. Literally racing. I have an image if you from football running from the opposite team.

One Day I hope our paths can cross
Carlos.

~Logon