I will always wonder what you would have been,
my child.
I so wanted to keep you,
but my boyfriend wouldn't let me.
It didn't help that my family and his backed him up.
So I did it.
And I still regret it.
24 years later.
I will always wonder what you would have looked like
what you would have done,
what careers and hobbies you would have had,
what friends and boyfriends you would have made.
I'm so certain that you were a girl when I had it
at 11 weeks.
Did you have eyes,
or legs,
or arms,
at that time?
Would you have my green eyes
or my boyfriend's blue?
Would you have blond
or black hair?
Would your face be round,
or angular?
I tried to resist,
but I gave in.
Now there is a hole in my heart
that can never be filled on this Earth.
Though I've had 4 children since
and I'm kept busy,
I constantly think of you.
You will always have a special place in my heart,
my little Chava.
Abortion hurts women. There are those who do not regret it, but for every one who is happy, there are 15 who live in grief. They may feel relieved at first, but the guilt catches up to them eventually, and when it does it often buries them. They sometimes suffer for decades until they find healing.
I did my research. Around 64% of women who had abortions in the US are coerced or even forced. Women who had abortions are more likely to commit suicide or abuse drugs to escape the pain compared to those who chose to give birth. They try to find healing and comfort in all the wrong places.
If you or a loved one regret their abortion(s), go to Rachel's Vineyard or Silent No More. If someone you know is facing a crisis pregnancy, I recommend Online for Life for help. Help stop this and keep babies and mothers safe!
PS: Fetus is Latin for ''offspring'', ''fruitful'', ''bringing forth'', or ''hatching of young.''