A/N- Hey everyone! This is my attempt at a VA fanfic. Just a warning, this is a Harry Potter and Vampire Academy crossover so as a disclaimer, I DON'T OWN ANYTHING. A few things you should know before you read this story.

I am a terribly lazy person with a crapload of work even on summer vacation. My updates will not be regular but I will attempt to keep a steady pace. I never claimed to be perfect and I will never say anything that suggests that so don't hound me about updates. I will do the best I can to keep this story going. Bad reviews for me are serious downers. If you don't have anything nice to say, figure out a better way to say it. I'm not asking you to read this story. The last story I wrote, somebody accused me of plagiarism which I didn't do. If they just looked at the publish date they would have seen that mine was published first. I don't care if you use my ideas, I only care if you plagiarise. Finally, as you may have noted, I have a penchant for word vomit so my author's notes will be very long and wordy, like this one!

Each chapter is named after the song I thought fit it best. If you want to get in the mood, listen to the song. Well, that's it. Enjoy the story!

Summary: After Dimitri's betrayal, Rose disappears. Almost six months later, they reunite. However, Rose is different. Destroyed by heartache and loss, Rose is running from her problems. But how do you save someone who doesn't want to be saved?

I want you to know

We couldn't have left it better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Already Gone-Kelly Clarkson

To Everyone:

By the time you find this I will be gone. Don't try looking for me. I need to do this, need this separation. If I'm alive by the end of this, I swear I'll try to find you guys. I 'm not denying that what I'm doing is dangerous but it has to be done. Liss, Eddie, Christian: Please don't try to find me; I don't want you getting hurt.

TO LISSA: I know you're mad. Hell, you're probably cussing me out in your head with words I never knew you knew existed. I'm really sorry for leaving you like this, and even more so for not telling you anything; but trust me; one day you'll understand. I'd say more but I know you too well to think you'd actually care. So I guess this is goodbye. Stay safe for me okay? Goodbye Lissa. You're the best sister anyone could ask for…I love you.

TO EDDIE: I think I can safely say that you are beyond pissed at me. Maybe you think I'm a coward, running away from my problems but that isn't what this is about. You've been the best brother a girl could wish for. Do me a favor and take care of Lissa. Make sure she doesn't fall into another depression again. I'm counting on you…Goodbye Eddie.

TO CHRISTIAN: Take care of Lissa for me pyro...you're all she has now.

TO ADRIAN: Some people say that opposites attract. Those people are idiots. The day we met, I thought you were a stupid drunk stuck up Moroi player. Then you became a dream-stalking smoking drunkard. And when Dimitri was turned, you became my plane ticket to Russia, on the conditions that I give you a chance and date you. And so I did. But as I opened up, I saw a side of you, you rarely let anyone see, even Lissa, who saw the good in everyone, failed to notice. But we were never meant to be. You've always seen yourself as a victim…and I guess that in a way you are. But the two of us existed in completely different spheres that were never meant to touch. Both of had opinions but I was the one who voiced them. Both of us were survivors of completely different kinds. I went down fighting and emerged victorious as the morning sun rose. You were the guy who preferred to stand on the sidelines and out of people's way, staying a survivor because no one thought you important enough to kill. But you've always been important to me Adrian, and you always will be. But I am the sun with its blazing hot fire and dazzling beauty while you are the moon with its subtle glow and command of the night sky and the stars. We coexist together but never fully touch. I love you Adrian. Always have, always will. But I just can't like you anymore. This isn't working so I'm leaving.

TO DIMITRI: All good things must come to an end. It's a fact of life. And I guess you decided that it was time for us to end too. I've tried, but even I know when to take a hint. So here are my last words to you…

You made your opinions clear so it's time for me to move on. I love you Dimitri, regardless of what you think you did, I just wish you could see it. Then again you probably can, considering you no longer love me. But don't think you drove me off. I want to go for reasons that have nothing to do with you. The least you can do is make sure Lissa is safe. Of course, that shouldn't be a problem considering that she's your world now. Goodbye Dimitri.

I love you.

Rose POV

The darkness suddenly took form as a shape stepped out from the shadows.

"Ready to go?" He asked. I swung my backpack over my shoulder and stood up off the ground.

"Never been more ready in my life," I said as we turned away from the court. Already I could hear the frantic shouts calling my name, Lissa's metal pleading, begging me to return.

I didn't look back.

They say when life gives you lemons you make lemonade. But if life gives you nothing what do you do? So I'll keep running till I find that lemon tree.

For those of you who are confused, the above is a letter to Rose's friends as her goodbye. Looks like Rose is on her way to the rest of this story. The next chapter will start six months later so the pace will speed up but Rose just needed to get this out even if it was in a letter. Please read and review, I want to know what you think!