You know when you look around at the world and sometimes it feels so big and wonder why its so hard to fit in. One would think it would be easy too, since the world is so big there would be plenty of opportunities to find a place. But in reality, its extremely hard to find people who you can be your true self around, especially when it comes to the opposite sex. Well, let me tell you, its really hard for someone as awkward as me to find that one person that I can let loose around and not be at all worried about what they think. My name is Bella swan, and this is my story about finding the one…
"Alright class, I shouldn't have to remind you that there will be a test on chapters one through five on Friday, but since I'm feeling nice today I figured I would would remind you of your impending doom coming up. Study hard, this test ain't gonna be easy. See you all soon" Mr. Stewart proclaimed in the same monotone voice he uses for the entire 50 min class.
"Please if he believes any of us would even bother looking over notes until Thursday night, then he needs to go to the doctor and get his brain examined" Rose, my best friend dramatically says.
"Well for those of you who don't mind squeaking by with a C in the class sure wouldn't but I've been keeping up with the reading as I actually have goals in life" Alice states.
Rose looks at Alice and rolls her striking baby blue eyes "Whatever's clever shorty" and pulls out her phone and smiles "Guys Em is playing at some bar on Monroe Ave, we gotta check it out".
Alice, who is now putting her pencil back in her pencil case, like who has those anymore, immediately beings to protest "didn't you just hear Mr. Stewart inform us about the test. I need all the time I can to prepare. You know Rose, you are not going to be able to memorize all the different equations for the test in one night. I'm sure your boyfriend would understand if you didn't make it just this one time."
"Ugh c'mon Alice, lighten up and have some fun. You have all Thursday and Friday morning to prepare. You need a little spice in your life. All you do is study. And what about you Bella? You game? "
I zip up my back pack and wait while these two slow pokes finish whatever the hell they are doing. Alice is actually paper clipping our handouts from class. Who the heck is that organized? I shift my attention back to Rose and think of an excuse to get out of this situation.
"ummmmmmm I have a huge presentation that I am super nervous about tomorrow so I better stay in for the night to prepare for it" I mutter and start walking to the door.
Rose throws her hands up and sighs hysterically "Why are you guys so lame? You know what, I am not taking NO for an answer. You both are coming with me and we will be back before midnight" She texts something and practically runs out of the room before Alice can strangle her. "See you bitches later" leaving Alice and I and several other boys simply just staring at her graceful self.
Alice looks at me "Why the hell does she do that? This is a free country and I am free will to say NO. She is NOT going to do this to me. I have too much at stake. I need an A in this class to make my 4.0. If I don't, my parents will have my head" I simply star at the sky and ask God why he stuck me with these two girls that have totally different personalities as my best friends.
You see, Alice and Rosalie are my two roomies. At Clarkson University, there are triple rooms, and those questions they ask you so they can stick you with someone similar to you are complete bushtit. We all couldn't be more different if we tried.
Rosalie is the typical blond hair blue eyed, rockin bod, beauty queen, badass party girl that all the girls wanna be. She has the mouth of a sailor, can hold he liquor like my father and goes through guys like chocolate chip cookies.
Alice on the other hand, is barley 5 feet tall, short dark hair and is your typical book worm, devoted student and goes to bed at 8:00 on a Saturday night kinda girl. She's never dated anyone and ignores any man that tries to even approach her.
As for me , I guess I am a little bit of both. I care about school and like to make good grades, but hey I don't mind going out every once in a while for a drink and even enjoy some male company now and then. I guess you could say I am the mediator for a lot of things that go on.
Needless to say, somehow we all make it work and are as thick as thieves. We have been roomies for the past four years. It's now our last semester as undergrads and I still can't wrap my head around the fact that we haven't ripped each others heads off yet.
"Alice" I say as we make our way back to the dorms "it's our last semester together before we are all separated. Why don't we just go for a bit. We probably won't leave till eight and Rose said we would be back before Midnight. You can still get plenty of studying done before then. I say we give it a chance. Besides, Rose's flavor of the week is pretty cool. You said you even liked Emmett"
Alice seems to be struggling with an internal battle but finally caves. "I guess your right Bells. And yea Em is pretty cool, but if we aren't home by midnight, I am cutting all of Rose's hair off when she goes to sleep" I pull my key out and unlock our door "Yea and I know you mean that" I laugh and plop my back pack on my bed "But let's just try and make the most of it alright?" Alice sits down on her perfectly made bed and eyes the few candy wrappers and soda cans I have laying around by my bed and hesitantly nods her head "Alright Bella" she says. I sit on my unmade bed and turn on my computer and smile. Mission accomplished.
2 hours later, I am ready to squirt pepper spray in both Rose and Alice's eyes to make them stop bickering.
"If you think I am going to run around in a dress that is barely long enough to cover my ass then you are out of your mind" shouts Alice
Rose towers over her as she is about 6'2 in her stilettos and gives her the look. When Rosalie gives you the bitch face, you have two choices: to a. run like racehorse or b. just give in to whatever she says.
Alice quickly hits Rosalie's boob and bolts for the door. Rose screams and grabs her boob while I quickly block the door and wrestle Alice into a choke hold.
"Holy shit you are both worse that the triplets I babysat it high school when I told them they couldn't have any chocolate. Both of you just shut the fuck up and get ready. Alice, I have a dress you can borrow, and Rose, you should call Emmett to get directions.
Alice and Rose have this intense stare down and Alice finally breaks the silence "Bella you need to let me go so I can breath."
"Whoops, sorry girl" I mutter and let go of her.
Alice marches up to Rose and gives her a hug. "Sorry I slapped your boob, but if you ever force me to wear a whore dress again, I'll pin you to the ground and wax off both your eyebrows"
Rose smirks and hugs her back "You fight dirty. Now go put on a fucking dress that makes you look like the little nun that you are and fucking get me you fucker"
They both release each other and go their separate ways.
I breathe a sight of relief and finish braiding my hair. Once everything is finished, I take a good hard look at my self. You know how everyone has that one thing that makes them stand out. Like Rose with her beautiful body or Alice with her amazing skin that's never had a pimple a day in her life. I try to find something striking or beautiful but I got nothing. Sure my hair is nice. It's just a regular brown that goes down to my breasts. I have normal brown eyes and an average body. I do have nice legs, since I run almost every day, but I've seen nicer. To be completely honest, I believe that everything about me is pretty ordinary. I see my friends get checked out by guys all the time. I feel as though I am invisible sometimes compared to them and it defiantly sucks.
Rosalie has a different boyfriend every week and has guys chasing after her all the time. Alice, while refuses to give in to any attention she receives, the cute little figure and pixie hair cut attracts men all the time. Me however, I am lucky to have a guy even look at me, and even that happens few and far in between
"Quit sulking like a little bitch and continue to get the fuck ready. Em says they play in 20 min and it takes a good ten to drive there"
I smile and roll my eyes and fish for my lip gloss. "Yes princess" I reply and quickly slab some on and spray my hair one more time.
I go back to the room and find my wallet and quickly dash out the door, lock it and catch up with the girls who are now bickering about drinking
"All I am saying Rose, is that if you drink too much and throw up on me again, I will cut you and post that super embarrassing picture to facebook for the whole world to see.
"Oh you wouldn't dare, you conniving little cu-"
"Alright enough with the bickering my old married couple" I say and slap my hand over Rose's mouth to prevent her from using hurtful words. "Lets go have some fun" and remove my hand from Rose's mouth before she does something weird.
We make our way to my cute red 1950s pick up truck. We all gather in and buckle up. I start the ignition and my truck rubles to life making the sound of a snoring old man and zoom the fuck outta there leaving two girls in the parking lot stunned from the noise.
"Alright my dirty whores, let ourselves have a good night. Shots as soon as we enter the bar" Rose screams and pumps her fist while Alice mutters under her breath and stares out the window.
I turn on some country music and blare that shit up. If we're gonna go out, we mind as well go all out. A couple of right turns, two honks at really stupid drivers, and Rose flipping off a truck driver, we make it to the to bar alive.
We enter the bar and Rose immediately scans the room for her man of the week. Emmett is hard to miss since he is literally almost 7 feet tall. He seriously could be a body builder with his bulging muscles and tall stature.
He seems us first, and barrels his way through the crowd of other college students and lifts Rose up and twirls her around
"RRROOOSSSSIIIEEEEEEEE" her screams "so glad you could make it BABY"
Rose looks extremely pissed off, but if you take a close look at her eyes, they are lit up and filled with happiness. Its a look I don't see too often from Rose. She's had a rough life with her mother being married five times and always moving around.
"Emmett I spent a good hour getting ready so if you continue to harass and grope me and ruin all the effort I have put in to look this hot then you are gonna fucking hurt until next week"
Emmett just laughs, gives her one more twirl and carefully sets her down.
"Em you remember Bella and Alice, my two lame ass roomies" Rosalie says in a bored tone and scans the room. Her wall is back up
"Hey Emmett" I say and give a small wave. Alice just looks up at him in amazement.
"Now that just won't do" Emmett practically yells and pulls both Alice and I for a hug.
"Emmet quit behaving like a monkey and put them down" possessive Rose says
"Opps sorry girls, sometimes I forget my own strength" Em rumbles
Alice is still quite and just looks at him. "How the hell did you get so big?" she asks with a voice filled with wonder
Emmett looks down and her "How they hell did you say so small? I was your size when I was about three months old"
Rose rolls her eyes. if she keeps doing that, her eyes are going to be permanently damaged.
"Alright guys, I don't know about you, but I could use a shot of tequila" I say and march over the bar.
Eventually, we all have a nice buzz, even Alice has finally stopped fidgeting and looking very much relaxed when Emmett's band is called.
"Beaver Boners may please arrive on the stage" the announcer says and Emmett jumps to his feet. "Ahhh shit, where the fuck are the boys?" he questions as he scans the room.
Just then two fuckhot guys enter the bar.
One of them has blond hair that is formed into a mow hulk and is spiked. He is wearing a black tank top that shows off all his muscles and tattoos and a pair of skinny jeans with chains on the side of them. As he comes closer, I notice he has his eyebrow pierced along with several piercings on his ears. Normally guys like this turn me off, but this guy has the whole punk rocker look going his way. So while I am eyeing him I almost miss the odd color of hair that immediately diverts my attention to the other guy.
And all I have to say is
OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYY
GGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWDDDDDDDDD
The most beautiful man I have ever laid eyes on was just a few feet away. I might have been drooling or crying, I wasn't sure. All I knew was that the boy with the penny colored hair was my dream boy. He was wearing jeans and a plaid shirt, but was tight enough to know he was a frequent member of the gym. His hair was all over the place but looked like it was supposed to be styled that way and had a little scruff that made me want to rub my face on his.
I was just about to run up to him and be all smooth and do my impression of Joey in F.R.I.E.N.D.S. when he goes how you doin? To any cute girl he sees when Alice grabs my arm
"Bella I've told you 10 times that you need to come to the bathroom with me. What the hell are you looking at?" Alice frantically asks while trying to decipher why my eyes were glazed over and had a sappy looking face. Romeo and his friend were getting closer and closer and closer…. And just right when he was close enough for me to give him a wink or something, suddenly Emmett speaks up.
"EDDIKINS AND JAAZZ YOU FINALLY MADE IT! THEY JUST CALLED US UP. WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU BALLSACKS ANYWAYS?" Well, if it was anyone to break me out of my love struck trance, it would be Emmett.
The punk rocker looked over and lover boy followed. "Yo Em" blondie spoke up in a southern twang which so did not fit is appearance "Sorry man, Eddie here had a run in with Tanya. Not my fault man. Now what do we have here" as he gave Alice the elevator eyes. Rose looked put out that he didn't check her out first. That was her thing. Alice, however, didn't even notice his roaming eyes, instead jabbing me in the side.
"Bella" she said exasperating "can we please go to the ladies room? This is getting ridiculous" and gave my arm another tug.
Just as I was about to tell her to chill the blond man named Jasper spoke "I would gladly escort you to the ladies room shortcake. Hell, I'll even give you the grand tour" in his southern drawl and grabs her hand.
Alice took her hand back aggressively and with a voice filled with venom replied "You haven't even properly introduced yourself to me and are already hitting on me. Don't you dare put your grimy hands on me ever again you perv" and stormed off to the bathroom. Jasper just stood with his mouth hung open. "I think I just met my future wife" he said to himself and quickly followed after her.
Emmett groaned "Edward we gotta get the fuck up there and play man". Edward, gosh that goes awfully well with Bella. Edward and Bella. Bella and Edward. Yes father, this is my boyfriend Edward. What a beautiful name. Luckily Rose snapped me out of it.
"Well aren't you going to introduce your friends to us" Rose asked, seeming a little annoyed.
Emmett looked over, forgetting about our existence and ran his fingers through his hair.
"Oh sorry babe. Ed, this is my girl Rosie and her friend Bella" he boomed "they are here to watch us rock this joint to the ground". Edward looked at Rose and me and gave us a crooked smirk. I think I just melted a little "Nice to meet you ladies" god even his voice was hot. Was he the singer in the group? If he is, I might not be able to take this. I already need a cold show just from him speaking a simple sentence.
"Nice to meet you too. Now you can scoot" she gave Emmett a quick kiss on the cheek and pulled me over to a table that had just become free. We sat on opposite sides. Rose observed me while I frantically looked for Edward, who was now out of my sight.
"What the fuck has you worked up like a man who has been deprived of sex for a year?" she asked.
I tried to play cool as I focused all of my attention on her and shrugged, but that obviously didn't work as she gave me a knowing smile. "Honestly Bella, do you think I was fucking born yesterday? Do you think I suffered from short term memory loss to be able to forget you goo goo goo ga ga over Edward. I saw you stare at him like he was the last piece of cake on earth. God, I am pretty sure you were drooling all over that fucking tool"
I decided to take a deep breath and count to ten so I didn't slap her. "Rose, you need to stop hallucinating. I think he's cute. So what?. You do this all the time"
"Sure I check out guys all the time. I man hunt. But I never get too carried away or make it obvious like the stunt you pulled just of couple fucking minutes ago you dirty slut! But hey, whatever. You should go for it. You never do anything"
And I really didn't. I have never really dated too much. No one has really asked me. Which makes me feel like an ugly loser. And the guys that do give me the time of day turn out to be ass holes and I get shit on. Men suck
"Oh my god, what the hell is wrong with that Jasper guy. He won't stop following me around. He was waiting for me outside the ladies room like a total creep. Ugghhh this is not what I need right now" Alice moaned and slipped into the chair next to me.
"I need another drink. Do we have to stay the whole time? I don't wanna have to deal with him again" she whined. Rosalie looked astonished that she would say such a thing.
"Alice, have you SEEN Jasper. Like REALLY seen him. Take a GOOD HARD look at him. He's fucking edible. You should go for him. He'd crack your shell really good. Make you live a little" Rosalie ranted. Alice glared at her.
"GOOD EVENING everyone. We are the BEAVER BONERS" Emmett was up on stage while Jasper and Edward were getting into position to play. Edward bent down to plug something in, and holy crap that view was mighty fine. I might need a fan. Maybe I should get a glass of water to cool down. Across from me, Rosalie kicked me under the table and smirked. I just glared back at her. Alice watched us curiously, trying to figure out what was happening
"Hope you guys enjoy the show tonight. Jazz right here will be playing the guitar" he says and points to Jasper. Jasper looks up from his guitar and gives a big smile and wave "and Eddie here is our singer and this pool of sexy right here plays the drums. Hope you all enjoy!". Emmett then handed the microphone to Edward and walked towards the drums. He then sat, picked up him sticks and looked our way. Rosalie blushed and smiled when Emmett blew her a kiss. Now it was my turn to kick her under the table and smirk. Alice made a gagging sound. Rosalie just shrugged and continued to soak up all the attention. Lucky bitch.
Just then the lights dimmer, and Jasper started to strum his guitar. Emmett began to bang away on the drums, but I was only vaguely aware of them. It was Edward that held my attention. He ran his fingers through his hair and tapped his foot lightly with the beat. His head was facing down as he focused his attention on the beat and got lost in another world that I wish I knew. Then he looked straight ahead and began to sing.
"Wow they are actually pretty good" Alice whispered. I looked over and noticed her eyeing Jasper. I elbowed her "See something you like girl?" She immediately blushed and looked the other way. "I think I am gonna drink, you weirdos need anything?"
Rosalie finally tore her eyes of Emmett who was having a great time bashing those drums like no tomorrow and smiled "Yea get us a round of screaming orgasms. Lord knows we could all use a few" and then started to laugh hysterically.
Alice looked at her like she had lost her mind and looks at me. "You know, that actually that sounds pretty good to me" I say. Rosalie really starts to loose it and I join in with her laughter.
Alice just shook her head. "Why do I even bother? You two are psycho" and walked away leaving a couple guys in her way look at her wishfully. I sigh and turn my attention back to Edward and get lost in the words he is singing.
I'd like to say that he noticed me. That he pointed and sang right too me, but that is far from the truth. In reality, he just looked straight ahead. Like he was in his own little world. He didn't give me or any other girl in the room any attention. He was just focused on the music.
I just enjoyed the view. Eventually Alice came back with the drinks, and us girls just sat back and enjoyed the songs. It felt great.
But all good things must come to an end. "And I'll end with this song" Edwards angelic voice slurred. I soaked up every word and when the song was over, I jumped out of my chair and clapped frantically. Alice just starred up at me in shock and Rosalie ran up to the stage and Emmett pulled her up and gave her a huge kiss in front of everyone. Some girls in the front gave Rose death glares. Rose just smiled smugly and dragged him to the bar.
Alice groaned. "Great those two are going to be making out for the rest of the time" and got out of her chair to join them at the bar.
I look up at the stage and see Edward alone unplugging something. I see a couple girls congratulate him, and he smiles but doesn't engage too much with them. They eventually gave up and went back to wherever they were hanging out. I look the other way and see Emmett and Rosalie at the bar messing around and Alice look at Jasper in disgust as he chugged a glass of beer. I decide to make a move on Edward. The alcohol was giving me some confidence and I strutt over to him
"Hello Edward" I attempted to purr and make my voice low and sexy. He looked up from whatever he was doing and raised one eyebrow. Holly shit that was hot. Would it be weird to lick him? Or maybe just pet his hair. God I have problems.
"Heyyy you're one of Rosalie's friends right?" he asked "sorry I forgot your name" he looked back down at the cords and started to fittle with them.
"Yes, I am. My name is Bella. I just wanted to say you guys were amazing. Fucking rocked my panties off. Oh shit I mean socks. Sorry a little drunk is all. Is your hair really that color? Can I touch it?" and then to end my embarrassing rant, I burped probably the biggest burp a girl can muster. My hands flew to my face to cover up my blush and just laughed.
Edward looked at me and then just started to laugh too. He had a beautiful laugh. I wanted to record it and listen to it every day. He stood up and pried my hands from my face. Oh god, his skin was so soft. Like a blanket. I wanted his hands to stay there forever "Bella it's a pleasure to meet you. Glad you enjoyed the show. Now where did our friends run off too?" and looked around. Probably trying to escape me and my drunkenness.
I looked around and saw our friends at the edge of the bar.
"They are right there" I pointed. Edward narrowed his eyes and looked "Oh I see them. It looks really busy. Where was that table you girls were sitting at? Is it still open?"
I looked at him in surprise. I had no idea that he had even noticed were we were sitting. This is huge. Does this mean he noticed us notice him? I pried my eyes off him and look around. Sure enough our table was occupied by another group and didn't look like they were leaving anytime soon.
"Yea" I pointed to our table "that's our table and its occupied". Edward glanced and sighed "Figures" he said. "Do you wanna maybe go outside? I saw a couple of tables out there. And it's a pretty nice night. What do you say?" and looked at me with those piercing green eyes. Holy shit. How could I say no? I didn't want to say no. If he asked me to go watch paint dry, I wouldn't say no.
I gave him a smile and said "I would love that. You lead the way"
He smiled at me and grabbed my hand and pulled me through the crowd. Was I dreaming? Was this for real? This might be the best night of my existence. I couldn't wait for what was about to unfold
And that's that! Please leave reviews! This is my first fanction! I know I want there to be a little drama, but nothing huge! Any recommendations you have for me would be great! Thank you so much!