Passionate Affections
Chapter I
Author's Note: This is a love story about Squall and Seifer's relationship, and how Squall faces up to Rinoa to tell the truth about them. *YAOI* If you don't like the pairing or yaoi, DO NOT read it. You have been warned, so don't flame me. Also, don't flame if I write something that doesn't apply to the story -- I haven't finished the game yet.
~(Squall's POV)~
Love. Ah, yes, that special feeling you have towards someone. But ... is it? I know the one I love, but I have just been fooling myself since Rinoa Heartilly came into my world. I don't know how it happened or why -- I just know she's not the one for me. I have deep feelings for another. And that, was none other than Seifer Almasy. We grew up togeter, basically shared our life together like brothers. Or more than just brothers. More like, soulmates.
I wanted to express my feelings for him, but the words didn't come out. This rivalry thing has gotten between us, that has left us ignoring each other for the past few years. I just have to stand up to him and tell him how I really feel. But then again, there's Rinoa. It would break her heart dearily if she knew. I love her, but only as a friend. I didn't want to see her all heart-broken. She trusts me; loves me for all her life, but I feel this isn't right. She thinks it's all perfect to live together like this, like some sappy T.V. show. She thinks we can share our perfect so-called world of love. Not through my eyes.
I always wondered if Seifer liked me. Even loved me the way I love him. Maybe he's just jealous of me being with Rinoa, that he doesn't care about me anymore. Hell, even hate me. I don't want Seifer to care about another person other than myself. I want Seifer for me.
The questions are rising in my head: How will I face up to Seifer? What will I tell Rinoa? What happens if Seifer doesn't feel the same way? I hate being in this constant paradox, and with all these indecisions and not knowing. I feel like I don't know which road to take. Each will have its disadvantages and obstacles we all have to go through. But in the end, will it matter? Is it worth it?
Well, if you ask me, I think it does matter. I think it's worth coming out of the closet than staying unhappy inside. I think all people have a right to be with the one they love. Rinoa will just have to understand that, whether she likes it or not. I'm very sorry if it breaks her heart, but I think it's the right thing to do. After all, it's best to find out know, than at a critical moment. The problem is: Will I have the balls to do it?
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Comments: Well, so much for the first chapter. I never imagined Squall so poetic and stuff. I'm thinking of making the rest of this story in Squall's POV. I like to write Squall's mind, but there's going to be a lot of narration. Third POV is just too boring sometimes, but it's more complete. I'm also thinking of doing a chapter with Rinoa's POV later in the story. Should I include lemons? I mean, I would, but I don't want to make this NC- 17, but a lower rating, so everyone can read. Not PG, though. It's PG-13 for the moment, and I'd like to keep it that way or R, when the time comes.
Anyways, read & send those reviews for a happy fangirl. ^_^
Chapter I
Author's Note: This is a love story about Squall and Seifer's relationship, and how Squall faces up to Rinoa to tell the truth about them. *YAOI* If you don't like the pairing or yaoi, DO NOT read it. You have been warned, so don't flame me. Also, don't flame if I write something that doesn't apply to the story -- I haven't finished the game yet.
~(Squall's POV)~
Love. Ah, yes, that special feeling you have towards someone. But ... is it? I know the one I love, but I have just been fooling myself since Rinoa Heartilly came into my world. I don't know how it happened or why -- I just know she's not the one for me. I have deep feelings for another. And that, was none other than Seifer Almasy. We grew up togeter, basically shared our life together like brothers. Or more than just brothers. More like, soulmates.
I wanted to express my feelings for him, but the words didn't come out. This rivalry thing has gotten between us, that has left us ignoring each other for the past few years. I just have to stand up to him and tell him how I really feel. But then again, there's Rinoa. It would break her heart dearily if she knew. I love her, but only as a friend. I didn't want to see her all heart-broken. She trusts me; loves me for all her life, but I feel this isn't right. She thinks it's all perfect to live together like this, like some sappy T.V. show. She thinks we can share our perfect so-called world of love. Not through my eyes.
I always wondered if Seifer liked me. Even loved me the way I love him. Maybe he's just jealous of me being with Rinoa, that he doesn't care about me anymore. Hell, even hate me. I don't want Seifer to care about another person other than myself. I want Seifer for me.
The questions are rising in my head: How will I face up to Seifer? What will I tell Rinoa? What happens if Seifer doesn't feel the same way? I hate being in this constant paradox, and with all these indecisions and not knowing. I feel like I don't know which road to take. Each will have its disadvantages and obstacles we all have to go through. But in the end, will it matter? Is it worth it?
Well, if you ask me, I think it does matter. I think it's worth coming out of the closet than staying unhappy inside. I think all people have a right to be with the one they love. Rinoa will just have to understand that, whether she likes it or not. I'm very sorry if it breaks her heart, but I think it's the right thing to do. After all, it's best to find out know, than at a critical moment. The problem is: Will I have the balls to do it?
______________________________________
Comments: Well, so much for the first chapter. I never imagined Squall so poetic and stuff. I'm thinking of making the rest of this story in Squall's POV. I like to write Squall's mind, but there's going to be a lot of narration. Third POV is just too boring sometimes, but it's more complete. I'm also thinking of doing a chapter with Rinoa's POV later in the story. Should I include lemons? I mean, I would, but I don't want to make this NC- 17, but a lower rating, so everyone can read. Not PG, though. It's PG-13 for the moment, and I'd like to keep it that way or R, when the time comes.
Anyways, read & send those reviews for a happy fangirl. ^_^