Bukiyou na Futari

Disclaimer: I do not own Gintama.

Rated 'T' … for now. (Actually, it's probably between T – M so if you're not used to this, get out of here. Now. I don't want to be responsible for brain damage / trauma XD)

WARNING: BOY LOVE.

[SOUGO]

We both know what's going on here. Well at least, I do. I'm not that dense. And neither is he. This isn't a romance novel or a fluffy shoujo manga. There isn't any guarantee that this will end smoothly.

It seems simple doesn't it?

"Two people of the same gender in love".

It's not rare, nor is it all too common.

But no matter what you hear about love having no boundaries or gender meaning nothing in true romantic relationships, it's just bull from people who don't understand.

To a person who just observes, it probably seems like nothing. Just a different taste. Not a big deal.

Yeah right.

It's not right. It's not allowed. He knows it too. It's an unspoken rule between us. It's unspoken, but it's there. I have to stop before it goes into dangerous territory.

…What am I saying? We're already neck deep in it. There's no going back.

When? When did all of this start? Since when did I begin to feel this much longing to be close to him? I don't know. But by the time I noticed it was already too late. It's all his fault.

Damn.

Sougo crawled out of his futon and tore off his signature eye mask in silent annoyance as he fell onto the wall behind him.

He was tired. Seven hours in bed and none of it spent sleeping. He sighed heavily and buried his head in his hands.

Suddenly he heard footsteps and scrambled up to a standing position. He cursed as he felt his legs turn to jelly and slumped against the wall for support. He cursed again as he saw the unmistakable silhouette of the figure standing outside his room through the silm paper doors.

"Are you awake?" Hijikata asked. His voice was deeper than usual.

"What do you think?" Sougo retorted.

"…I'm coming in."

Surely enough Hijikata pulled back the door in one swift motion and stepped into the room. He blinked when he set his eyes on the younger boy and an unreadable expression flashed across his face.

Sougo twitched and looked away. "I'm awake."

He then reached down to pull back the sleeve which had slipped down his shoulder during the night that he hadn't even noticed before, covering previously visible skin.

"I'm awake." He repeated.

"…I can see that." Hijikata turned away and began to walk out of the room. "Get ready for your duties. Everyone else is already starting to warm up."

Sougo watched him leave and when he was out of sight, slammed his fist against the wall. "Damn it."

[HIJIKATA]

Shit.

What the hell am I doing? I wish I knew. I can't even restrain myself anymore.

Shit.

How many times have I warned myself to stay away? How many times have I begged, begged myself to look away? It doesn't matter. Whenever I think of him I start feeling irritated. It's different from before though. This time I'm irritated at myself for wanting to hold him.

This is bad. Very bad. And it's been going on for sometime now. It was discreet at first. But now it's become something neither of us can ignore.

Shit.

I can't look away. I can't avoid him. It just makes me want him more. God. What is wrong with me? I've known him since he was a brat! He still is. What would Kondo-san say?

He would probably say what I scream to myself every moment I think of him. Not that he would ever know. No. This is between us. It's unspoken and will stay that way. Nothing will happen. This is just a momentary period of drama that's going on in my head.

…who am I trying to kid?

I know very well what's going on here.

And it's not going away anytime soon.

TBC...

(I know. OOC much? XD)

But remember ;) fangirls have the power to create BL from thin air.