Hey guys this is my new story based on the song by you me at six called always attract. The song is amazing with the story I want to keep a music diary so look out for them in my A/N.

Always Attract

Therapy

Bella

I was sitting on my bed all wrapped into the life of Elizabeth Bennett and . I loved the book pride and prejudice my perfect first edition that was sent from my best friend and ex boyfriend Edward Cullen. He knew me so well and that was part of the reason why we were still close.

I lived with his sister Alice Cullen who was my short pixie best friend and her southern boyfriend Jasper Hale.

Life was good to me as I had a collection of close friends that I cherished very much Rosalie Hale was a bitch but was the nicest girl I knew. I know that didn't make sense to people, but it made perfect sense to me. Her off the wall husband Emmett Cullen amazed me he was so funny and was like my replacement brother. He was massive and muscularly and looked great next to his blonde Lolita of a girlfriend.

I smiled thinking about my group of friends and how they made my transition for my father's small town Forks Washington to the big bright lights of New York City. The city amazed me it had so much to offer and I loved to watch a good musical my favourite being Wicked.

I was pulled from my dream world when a lanky lean body landed on my stomach.

"Oft" I groaned and ran my hand through the unique bronze hair that belonged to the one and only Edward Cullen. "Hey Edward"

He leaned up from my stomach and kissed my chin "honey I'm home"

I giggled at him, even though are relationship ended a year ago we managed to fall back into the same routine. We didn't seem to want to date anyone else and we still are occupying our time around each other.

"How was work?" I asked undoing his tie, Edward was a CEO of a big design company. His work building was one of the biggest in New York and I loved to visit it sometimes. He was so smart and had big bright ideas that brought the company forward. And for that he earned a very heavy pay load. Not to mention that the company was owned by his billionaire father Carlisle Cullen.

"Same old you know I have a work position that you might like much better pay than your job now" Edward offered his eyes looking hopeful.

"Hmm I don't think so you know I love my work Eddie and I know you would love to see my beautiful face everyday." I giggled at him and tapped on his nose.

"You know it babe" he mumbled my finger descended down his nose to his lips where he bit down softly. My breath hitched and his forwardness. You still got it Cullen, you can make my panties wet.

"You should consider it though the position would be with Esme and you wouldn't see me much"

"Are you hungry?" I asked him moving away from that conversation but I knew I would come back to the decision sooner or later.

"Very" his eyes were dark and I saw the double meaning and smirked at him.

Edward followed me into the modern kitchen which Alice designed. I whipped up a simple pasta tomato sauce and cheese for Edward. I grabbed his wrist and pulled him down on the stool, taking a seat next to him. I grabbed a fork and started to feed him the pasta slowly.

"Your such a toddler" I teased him.

"Thank you so much Bella" he said playfully.

"Well your very welcome Eddie" I giggled like a five year old at the end.

"I wish you weren't so importunate to call me that"

"Well Alice introduced my to the nickname and it kind of stuck so deal with it Cullen"

He sighed heavily and hit his arm playfully.

I sat and made sure that Edward finished his food, we then moved on to sharing a chocolate cake and watch Con Air on the big flat screen Emmett brought me and Alice last year. When I first moved in with Alice and Jasper.

We heard the door open and close and the raising bubble of voices float to us. The guys had returned from the movie earlier than expected.

"Oh god" I heard Rose groan, grabbing a can of coke from the fridge "I can feel the sexual tense jeez"

"Ditto Rose would you two just fuck again cause I am sick of feeling the sexual tension all the time" Alice whined.

Emmett shook his head "I never understood why you two broke up"

"For once I agree with Emmett" Jasper laughed.

Me and Edward didn't discuss the reasons why we broke up. It was just between us, but I remembered the fights late at night. And the rough sex we would have afterwards. I remember feeling on top of the world and then being knocked down. Also, not thinking I was mature enough to think of committing to anyone. I remembered feeling anxious all the time because Edward was so handsome. I remembered what Tanya did to us, to me, to our relationship. And I will always hate myself and Edward for letting her in.

But today in our new reality all I can remember is the way Edward touched me still sent me into agitation and now more than ever I felt like I did a year ago. He touched me it burned in a good way he played me it tingled and when he kissed me I couldn't feel or observe anything else in the world. I needed him and we both knew it, I could have chosen to walk away all those months ago when Edward called me again but I couldn't.

All the thinking sent me in a semi conscious sleep. I was partly aware that my body was being carried and I was being set on the soft mound of pillows. There was the godly scent being breathed all over me. I clutched onto the freshly pressed shirt in front of me.

"Bella" Edward tickled my wrist "do you want to go ice skating tomorrow? It's nearly Christmas so the big ice skating rink will be up"

"Mmm…yeah" my voice thick with sleep.

"I'll pick you up at four then" he said then left the room so I could fall into a deep sleep.

I loved ice skating I wasn't the most graceful person in the world, so the ice was a escape and my clumsily self was left and the side of the rink. I became a graceful swan and I always had so much fun ice skating. But then most things I did with my best friend were fun. Even if it was sitting inside a boring bookshop reading, I was still having the time of my life.

I woke up around eleven in the morning Jasper and Alice had left me a lovely breakfast before they headed off for the Saturday morning walk around central park. I decide to finish off a few designs for the new for the new range Alice and Rose was looking to start.

I didn't really have a proper job and did work that was around anything to do with art, fashion or photography. I should consider Edward's job offer more closely, I couldn't keep working like this forever.

I stood in the hallway of the apartment; it could really do with a tidy. So I pulled back my hair into a high bun and set my iPod to play out my favourite playlist before starting work.

I listened to A Rocket To The Moon, Mayday Parade, My Chemical Romance and All Time Low. My favourite All Time Low song Lost In Stereo came up, I couldn't help I but start dancing crazy. This song always reminded me of the crazy time we all had at the All Time Low concert. It was Alice's big surprise for me and I couldn't that her enough, I have to find the perfect Christmas present to thank her with.

An arm grabbed my waist a pull me back to their body, I laughed loudly feeling the heat radiate off. I knew who it was, Edward. "Hey dude your early which means you can help me clean up and dance"

"Sure why not" he shrugged I turned to look at Edward fully he looked cute with his grey fitting top, wash out jeans and black jacket.

Swan stop ogling your ex, he's your ex for a reason.

But what if I didn't want him to be my ex anymore.

Shut up Swan.

I decided to listen to my to my thought and shut the hell up because I know that my mind and voice didn't seem to work in the same way. I handed him a cloth so he could get to work and carried on dancing around the apartment, I knew Edward was watching me. He always found something erotic about my dancing even though I didn't think it was very sexy.

"Bella come dance with me" Edward said stretching out his hand so I could accept his offer. I smiled and danced around him, then he pulled me closer in which my body decided to grind on Edward a little. I gave him a playful smile and a little giggle.

Wrong move Bella.

For once I didn't really care what I was doing to him. I needed him to feel the way I was feeling at this moment in time. All I could ever think about doing was ripping his clothes off. I shook my head and moved away from him and carried on cleaning.

After are cleaning adventure we gazed around the room to admire our work.

"Good work Cullen now let me get dressed" I pushed him to the sofa and headed to my room.

"Are you sure you wouldn't want some help Swan" he smirked at me.

"Maybe Cullen" I teased him before going in the room and putting on my over sized one shoulder baseball top and skinny washed out jeans.

I grabbed my pink neon socks and black converses before skidding into the living to plunk my self down next to Edward.

"Tie my up Cullen" I lifted my converse covered feet and pointed to them.

"Well Isabella I think we would need a bed for that" he poked me in the rib.

"Must you always be so sexually?" I asked.

"You know you like it" he teased me I just laughed swatting his arm.

Ice skating was so much fun I loved to watch the little children run laps around Edward as he struggled to stay up right on the ice. I couldn't stop laughing as he nearly fell over on the ice. I had to hold his arm as we went around the ice rink together. I did jumps and tricks while Edward holds the railings trying to manage. It was such a sweet gesture of him to take me skating even though he couldn't skate.

I took Edward to the middle of the rink and left him there. He gave me a shocked look while I just laughed, I did jumps around him. I liked the fact that he was suffering it was really funny.

After the skating Edward told me to get dinner in a small restaurant. The design was intimate and romantic, lots of vibrant red. I loved the look of it was French décor and that was something I had a big love for. I smiled up at Edward as he pulled out my chair for me to sit in; he remembered the French décor book I was talking about.

"Do you like it here?" Edward asked me nervously.

"Of course I love it, don't look so nervous" I reached out and touched his arm.

The meal was quite, I was liked silence it was the time where you tried to work out what the other person was thinking. I liked peoples face when they headed into silence because no one really knew how to handle it except from me. I would sit and wrack my brain coming up with situations that could happen after the silence. I was weird like that but I just didn't care, being weird was normal with my friends.

"Bella" Edward sighed putting down his knife and forks "we never did talk about what happened last year"

"Edward I know and I just can't talk about it know because I feel stupid" I frowned at my pasta.

"It wasn't your fault it was hers" he sneered the last word, I knew he hated her and so did I.

"It is I didn't trust you like I should have" I sighed.

After our little conversation we decide that it would be safer to have the rest of them meal in silence.

We walked back to the apartment and I could see the stress on Edward's face, so I reached out and grabbed his hand. I held it so tightly in mine and looked up and smiled at him. I couldn't be upset with him it wasn't his fault I felt so insecure.

We reached at the front door and I leaned against it, breathing out and seeing the white cloud in the air. Edward kissed my hands repeating that he was sorry over and over again.

"Edward it isn't your fault" I grabbed his cheek.

"It is because I lost you" he replied.

"We will work this out in time" I gave him a weak smile

"I know Bella, I know" he kissed my forehead softly.

I returned this by kissing his cheek and biding him goodnight, before heading into the apartment.

I walked into the living room to see Alice and Jasper curled up together. They looked so cute and I smiled at them.

"Hello Bella how was your night?" Alice asked me.

I sat down on the single chair "yeah it was fun" I smiled at her.

"So any signs of you and Edward getting back together?" Jasper joked.

I knew he was joking but it still hurt a little bit, "no we are just friends"

"Yes but that was the thing I don't get if you broke up how comes after a few months you can fall back into the same routine again" Alice questioned the situation.

I huffed "look I really don't want to talk about it so leave me alone."

I grabbed my converses and ran into my bedroom slamming the door behind me. I instantly felt sorry for snapping at Alice, she was only trying to understand. Who did I get to this point that I was sitting on my bed crying.

If I had trusted Edward I could imagine where we would be right now. We could be married, have children and living together. I could be working with Esme; we could have a white picket fence house, with a cute little dog.

I cried for all those things I didn't have now and all the things I wouldn't have now.

Now more than ever did I think I need therapy, because life just didn't seem normal?

I hated Tanya, she ruined my life and everything I could have had.

The next morning I walked into the kitchen to see Alice sitting there on her own. She was staring into her coffee mug and I wasn't in the mood to say sorry to her. I grabbed a cereal bar and started to eat staring at the patterns on the kitchen tiles.

It was quite relaxing following the swirls with my eyes and then moving onto the next one.

Alice sighed and continued to ignore her; I heard her chair creak and her light footsteps as she left the room. In her place Jasper came in sitting in Alice's chair, I groaned and ran my hair through my hair.

"Bella please" Jasper begged I knew he wanted me to talk to Alice. But right now I just wanted to be the bitch could no one allow me that.

"I'm sorry Jazz but I can't I don't want to explain it, me and Edward haven't even talked about it so why should I tell her?" I asked him ranting.

"Because she is your best friend and she loves you" he answered. It was a bloody good answer as well but I just wanted to keep this to myself.

"I want to keep this to myself for now"

"Bella it isn't good to keep the pain to yourself"

I knew this but then now a days I was quite addicted to pain. It was the only thing telling me that I wasn't dreaming and this was reality.

I gave Jasper one last look before announcing that I had a meeting to go to about some work. I indeed had a meeting with Esme who called me earlier to talk about the work offer.

I dressed in a black tight skirt that came up above my knees. I pulled on an over sized top and a black belt, applying little make up to my face.

I ran down to the apartment building car park, I saw my baby shining in all its glory. I saved long and hard to get this car, the Audi R8 costing a pretty penny I must admit. The Cullen's did help pay for the car but I paid the most of it. I loved it so much it was my pride and joy, and now the sun in my cloudy sky.

I meet Esme in her office which was two floors below Edward's. Esme and Carlisle didn't work very often but came in once or twice a month to see how Edward was holding up. They were a lovely couple and cared very much for their children. Esme acted like my second mother and rapidly took me her care.

Jessica introduces me and let me into Esme's office.

"Hey Esme" I said walking into her room. Her office was so nice it had big glass windows and had a great view of New York's skyline. I would love to have an office like this one day it would be great and make me feel like a millionaire.

"Bella" she rushed and gave me a hug "oh dear I heard you and Edward have been spending time together"

"Yes Esme I just want to be partly happy now" I sighed.

"I understand honey, but you two will find each other trust me mother's instinct"

I laughed at that it was funny, I hoped she was right.

Next we sat and talked about the job offer. It was a very interesting job of looking over all the designs for various design branches we owned. They pay was amazing and I could defiantly use all the money. It was just seemed all perfect, it was nice to see something put into place.

"You know what Esme give me a few days to think about it some more and I'll get back to you" I said.

"Have all the time you want, the job offer will be hear for as long as you need it" Esme beamed at me.

After the meeting I decided to go explore the workplace I did love this place so much the people were so friendly. Every person I walked past greeted me so well and offered me things.

I walked up to Edward's floor which was busy, I spotted Angela at her desk and ran up and hugged her.

"Bella" she beamed.

"Angela" I squealed "how is life?"

"Good I'm expecting" rubbing her now visible baby bump.

"Oh congratulations" I squealed hugging her.

"So how are things with you and Edward?" she asked.

I sighed and looked around the floor to see the god himself step out of his office. I couldn't stop staring at him and his green eyes locked on to mine.

Crap!

Well that's it for the first chapter I hope you like it. Comment if you have any questions or want some song suggestions or just want to know something, I'll answer them in the A/N's.

Love Rayann xx