O.o what's this? Ems has a new story?
s'right bitches... this is what i've had in mind in a very long time and now i've finally gotten to the point where i've written.
anyway.. this story.. it's about Axel and Demyx and their lives. Demyx and Zexion has been a couple for nearly 2 years, but it's not really a "healthy" relationship. Axel's just living life. They are both 18 and then their roads cross.
Warning for some rather.. interesting contents... some violence.. and.. blood.. and stuff.. xD
Disclaimer: do not own kingdom hearts or any of the songs used...
hmm... what more.. for those of you who doesn't know, Fluoxetine is another name for Prozac, an anti-depressants, happy pills, whatever you wanna call. them.
This is what happens when you let me listen to Blue October's new album for 48 hours straight. and I also think that whatever sanity i still had, finally left while i wrote this.
Enjoy!
Fluoxetine
Chapter 1 Dirty Room
"Hey… Dem… Just listen to me, okay?"
"No, Zexion. I really don't want to talk to you right now."
"Demyx!"
"No." With that, Demyx ended the call and turned his phone off. This was their second fight this week, and it was only Wednesday. He and Zexion had been a couple for over two years now, and they really had a nice relationship… They were just in a slump. (Or at least, that's what he always told himself)
Plus; Zexion was a really hard person to be together with. It wasn't that Demyx didn't love him, oh no, he did. But Zexion was… special. He was depressed, and had been so for a long time. He didn't always say much, and he wasn't one for displaying emotions but he did sometimes. And Demyx cherished those moments.
Demyx turned on his computer. There he was safe, Zexion wasn't a computer person. He rarely had time to be online. To his surprise he noticed that someone had added him on messenger. He didn't recognize the name, but accepted anyway. It was probably some freak or another, but hey, they were always fun to mess with.
Slowly he scrolled through his online list when the new person wrote to him.
Flaming Fish – Rub Acid in his eyes, that'll freshen him up! says:
Yo Ri, 'sup? What's up with the screen name?
Flying Carpet ~ Remember Life's like a jump rope. Love says:
Uh? I'm not 'Ri' O.o
Flaming Fish – Rub Acid in his eyes, that'll freshen him up! says:
Oh? You're not Riku? I'm sorry… Who are you then? xD
Flying Carpet ~ Remember Life's like a jump rope. Love says:
I'm Dem… Who are you?
Demyx tilted his head to the side. Who was this person? Flaming Fish? What the hell…
Flaming Fish – Rub Acid in his eyes, that'll freshen him up! says:
Axel, you better remember it ;)
Flying Carpet ~ Remember Life's like a jump rope. Love says:
Uh.. Okay then…
Flaming Fish – Rub Acid in his eyes, that'll freshen him up! says:
But yeah.. gotta go now, my bro wants me out for a smoke. See you around
Flying Carpet ~ Remember Life's like a jump rope says:
A'ight, later.
Flaming Fish – Rub Acid in his eyes, that'll freshen him up! appears to be offline…
xXx
Axel sighed as he closed his computer before he dodged another flying sock.
"Reno! I'm on my way, stop throwing things on me." He sighed tiredly. His brother Reno just smirked at him.
"Yeah, I can see that. How did it go, did you get a hold of Riku?"
"No, I met some other dude instead… Obviously I got the wrong address." He shrugged before following Reno out on the balcony. Silently he watched the cars drive by as he exhaled a grey plume of smoke. Reno tilted his head to the side. Axel had been acting so weird lately, but he couldn't quite put his finger on what it was that had changed. It made the other redhead worried. Axel wasn't the one who acted strange. He was always mad.
xXx
Demyx fell backwards on the bed as Zexion walked closer to him. The slate haired boy had showed up out of nowhere and surprised Demyx. He leaned over the blond and pressed their lips together.
"I'm so sorry, Demyx, I really am." He whispered between the kisses. Demyx didn't have time to respond. This was what always happened. But right now he didn't care. His mind was too busy, trying to register the hands, the lips and the warm breath.
Before he knew it, Zexion had gotten both their shirts off and thrown them on the floor. His lips trailed down over Demyx's chest, making the blond gasp for air. Demyx's fingers whisked over Zexion's waist, making the slightly shorter boy shudder before he pinned Dem's hands to the bed, creating a hickey on his neck.
"Mine." He whispered silently into his ear and created goose bumps along his arms.
"I'll never hurt you again…" Zexion whispered and Demyx sealed the promise with a kiss, even though they both knew it wasn't true. It was just another one of those false pretences that Zexion lulled them into and Demyx so willingly believed.
Zexion took out the hand cuffs, the blindfold and the duct tape.
"No one will hear your screams…" He whispered. "No one, but me."
xXx
All too used to this, Demyx let him tie him up before Zexion touched him, from his toes, to his knees, his most secret place before drawing a thin blade across his stomach. Demyx whined a bit behind the duct tape but Zexion hushed him, stroking his cheek.
"I love you, Demyx…" He whispered before licking up the blood spilling from the thin, long wound.
xXx
Demyx awoke the next morning and rose, wanting a shower desperately. Everywhere ached, he had several bites, long, thin cuts with crusted blood. His back and lips felt tender, for different reasons. Lips from the glue of the duct tape, and his back from the roughness of the night.
He stumbled towards the bathroom for a shower. The warm water made his wounds and cuts burn and he gasped. But it also felt good, the pain eased a bit and it made him relax.
Once he got back to his room, Zexion was dressing before dry-swallowing a brightly colored pill and nodded.
"You want some breakfast?" Demyx nodded.
"I'm just gonna get dressed…" he mumbled before walking into the room. Hands wrapped around his waist, drying away the excess water from his wet skin. Zexion's breath tickled the back of his neck and he shivered.
"I'm sorry about yesterday… I kinda… lost control… But I do love you." Demyx looked down with a small smile.
"I love you too..." Zexion smiled and left the room. Voices from the kitchen told Demyx that his mom was home and awake, happily greeting his boyfriend. She had always liked Zexion. He was such a nice boy.
xXx
Axel felt like hitting his head against the table top. He hadn't slept at all that night. Thoughts were spinning around in his head like a fucking merry-go-round. His whole world was torn, confused. Walls crumbling and rebuilding, only to crumble once more.
Reno entered the kitchen and came to a stop.
"Woah… You look like shit."
"Jeez, thanks. Just what I needed to hear."
"… Take a nap, take a shower and then go to school. I'll call you and wake you up around 10."
"Nah.. I don't think I'll be able to sleep…"
"Wanna talk about it, yo?"
"No. I'm taking a shower." He rose from the table before entering the bathroom and dropped his clothes to the floor.
Water sloshed over him, making his crimson hair cling to his shoulders and he closed his eyes against the even stream of hot water.
Sleepiness hung over him like a thick veil and his eyes felt dry. Ignoring it, he stepped out from beneath the water and dried himself off before wrapping the towel around his waist and walked to his room to find clothes.
Deciding on a wine red hoodie and a pair of dark jeans with holes here and there, he then fixed his hair, put on socks and tugged on his dark green chucks.
Slowly he walked into the kitchen, chugged down a cup of coffee with a lot of milk. Usually he had it black, but he always had a lot of milk in the morning so he could drink it quickly before leaving. Reno had, like always, prepared it for him. They worked like that. When Axel was in a rush, Reno fixed little things to makes his morning go quicker and easier and vice versa.
xXx
Zexion had gone home to his own place after school and Demyx was currently lounging on his bed, playing with his Nintendo DS. After another hour, he grew sick of it and turned it off before turning on his computer. Once online on messenger he changed his name to 'Retarded Disfigured Clown.'
He hadn't even been online for a second before a familiar name wrote to him.
Flaming Fish says:
Y'helo thar. Clown eh? May I join the clown-club?
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
Sure, if it makes you feel better.
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Oh yes. Much. Haha, 'sup anyway?
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
Oh not much.. you know.. the usual.. collecting dust in front of the screen. You?
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Lol, pretty much the same. Not to sound creepy, but how old are you?
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
Wouldn't you just love to know? xD Nah, J/K. 18. you?
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Same.
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
cool.
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Totally
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
How come you added me anyway?
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Oh you know.. I like stalking you, hah
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
YES! Finally my life is complete! I have an instant messenger stalker! SUCCESS!
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Hahaha, yeah. Glad to be able to make your day with my stalker tendencies.
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
Baby, you could make my day with more than just that xD
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Oh is that so? ;) is that a promise?
dude, I realized I have something I gotta take care off. Be back later.
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
awww.. allright.. what cha gonna do? Molest the ten year old boy next door?
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
DAMN IT. you caught me.. but he's actually 8.
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Retarded Disfigured Clown says:
but allright. See you around. Good luck,
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) says:
Haha thanks. See you around.
Flaming Fish (Harlequin) appears to be offline…
Demyx leaned back in his seat, snickering to himself. This guy was so weird, but totally funny.
xXx
Axel hurried over to Riku's place. They had planned a while ago that they were going to hang out today, but Axel had totally forgot about it in his lack of sleep and talking to this guy.
He got on his bike and sped towards Riku's home. Riku was his best friend, two years older than the redhead, gay as a rainbow and had his own place. But only because his parents threw him out because of his sexuality at the age of 16.
The wind rustled through red spikes and clothes as Axel made a left turn, music playing in his ears from his headphones that he'd thrown on before getting on his bike.
"The city is at war,
play time for the young and rich
Ignore me if you see me
'cause I just don't give a shit
The city is at war, bless the young and rich"
Once he finally reached the apartment complex he locked the bike and went up the stairs to the fourth floor. When he knocked on the door there was barking heard inside and Riku's voice telling the dog to be quiet. The door was opened and Riku grinned.
"Hey, come in. I'm just gonna put Dakota in the bedroom." Axel nodded, a bit pale. He hated dogs. Or not hated, but he was really afraid of them because when he was younger, he and his family had a dog, but it had attacked him when he played with it and they had to take it away. But the scars still remained. And he was still terribly afraid of dogs.
Once the dog was locked in, they walked into the living room and sat down on the big grey couch. They talked for a bit and Axel told him about the guy he had met online and Riku told him some anecdotes from his day, what he and Roxas, his boyfriend, had been up to during the day.
After a while of chit chat and two cups of coffee later, Riku tilted his head to the side.
"What's wrong Ax..? You seem so.. different.. weird…" Axel sighed and laid down on the couch. Riku moved closer and Axel placed his head in the silver haired boy's lap.
"I.. I'm just so confused…" Riku played with the red hair spilling over his legs.
"How so?"
"I.. I've just had my whole world thrown over… I've always been so sure I've been straight… Watching you and Roxas I knew that that was something I didn't want. I liked girls… And now… I'm not sure of anything anymore…" he sighed and rubbed his face. Riku stroked his cheek.
"Tell me…" Axel swallowed and looked out over the room.
"So… A few days ago… I saw this guy in school.. never noticed him before. And… he just… made the world brighter with his smile… he made my breath get caught in my throat… No girl has ever done that to me before…" Riku just smiled.
"What does he look like…?"
"Blond… Really pretty smile…tall and on the slim side…" Riku nodded with a small smile.
"I hope things go your way… But you have to show him to me one day…"
"Yeah... sure. It's just to come by... Roxas is enrolled in the same school anyway, so it'll be two birds in one stone." Riku nodded with a smile.
"Sounds like a plan then."
"Yeah…" Riku smiled and poured some more coffee before they continued to talk and things went back to normal. Or at least as close to normal as they could come. Axel still felt rather confused but within time it hopefully would pass.
It had helped talking to Riku. Riku always knew the answer to everything, he had yet to fail him, and the day he did, hell would freeze over.
Axel closed his eyes and just enjoyed the hand in his hair, dreaming away into another universe, a sweeter one, where everything was much simpler. Easier to handle and knowing how to act.
For a moment or two, he was asleep there, before he woke up again.
"Sorry…" he mumbled. "I'm just dead beat… Haven't slept tonight…"
Riku smiled softly.
"No worries… you wanna go home, or you too tired and just wanna crash here on the couch?"
"Couch…" Axel mumbled, half in sleep again. The silver haired one carefully rose, putting a pillow under his head and placed a blanket over him before starting to pick away the dishes.
xXx
"Want food!" Demanded Tidus and Demyx sighed.
"Alright, alright, I'm working on it…" He hated baby-sitting and especially this spoiled 4 year old. Tidus' parents were out on some dinner party since his dad was some big CEO of some company or another so they rarely had time for the kid. Demyx felt bad for him, but once he received a kick to the shin, he didn't feel so bad anymore.
Finally he had gotten some spaghetti and meat sauce done and set the table for the little brat. Tidus grinned happily and jumped up on his seat. He was just about to eat when he started at this.
"This is not my spoon." He held out said silverware and glared.
"I want MY spoon." Demyx held back a sigh of annoyance and looked around in the drawer, finding the right one.
"There you go." He switched the spoons and the kid nodded before pouting.
"Can you cut my spafeffi?" the older blond tightened his fists before taking out a fork and a knife and cut the spaghetti.
"All done. Bon appetite." He muttered and went to fill a glass with juice and handed it to the kid before he even had a chance to whine about it.
A few hours and three bed time stories later, Tidus was finally asleep, safe and sound in his bed and Demyx was saying goodbye to his parents before stumbling home. He was so tired he could probably fall asleep standing on the spot but it was raining and he was soaked down to the bone. Stumbling forward, he nearly tripped over a slippery rock and instead put down his foot into a deep puddle. His once navy blue Converse were now even more soaked, his socks too and he whished deeply that he'd thought of bringing an umbrella.
Finally home he just undressed in his room, dried himself off and then fell down on the bed, crashing like a light flicked out and even forgot to turn the lights off.
An hour later his one year younger sister, Naminé, came by to say good night. She smiled at the sight and pulled up the cover over her brother, turned off the lights and closed the door behind her.
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