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This is my fist attempt at a fic, so sue me if it sucks P If you haven't seen the last evangelion movie (which I don't own either) then this fic may or may not make a whole lot of sense. READ THIS FIC AT YOUR OWN RISK, I WILL NOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR DISGUST. P If it turns out that this fic sucks, please tell me the problem in a review so that future chapters will turn out better. By the way, this story may tend to switch from POV's in between chapters.
'…' thoughts
"…" talking
THE DAY THE WORLD TURNED RED
Chapter 1: Reminiscing
A boy lay in the soft, staring out into the night sky at the ominous red gash in its center. He stared at it seemingly for hours. He then turned his head to what he thought was the blue haired girl rei ayanami, but as quickly as it came, the image vanished.
The boy named shinji ikari slowly managed to move his weakened body to a sitting position. He then gazed toward the reddened sea of LCL stretching out over the horizon and the pale figure of rei ayanami's head staring back at him with her massive red eyes.
All around him he sees devastation. Buildings reduced to rubble, streets ripped out of the ground like tissue paper. Then his gaze turns to the petrified remains of the mass production evangelions protruding out from the red sea, the sight if these 'things' twisted his stomach in a knot.
He tried to remember what might have caused this destruction. For some reason he couldn't get his thoughts straight. It was no more than a minute before his mind was filled with the vivid images of the end of the world, the day the world was bathed in the blood of humanity.
His mind wondered to the images of explosions in the corridors of NERV, the images of corpses of people he had known all around him, their blood staining the walls as he walked past them, being pulled along by misato. 'MISATO!' he thought to himself, his mind filled with memories of his last meeting with his guardian.
Last he had seen of her, she was gravely injured, and he knew now that her survival of the destruction of NERV was near impossible. 'I wish she was here right now' he thought. It was strange, no more than a few hours had past when misato was alive, but now she was gone, like she never even existed. 'And it's all my fault' he thought to himself, 'I couldn't save her, now I have her blood on my hands.'
He then remembered the giant ghostly white mass of rei ayanami's body lifting out of the clouds to great him, along with kaworu as the mass production evas held him in place. But his temporary lapse in sanity prevented him from really acknowledging his reunion with his friend.
As he scanned the beach he was on, his eyes came open the reason of his momentary insanity. His mind remembering the images of asuka's eva being ripped apart, piece by piece, limb by limb, the red of its blood and flesh covering the earth for miles. Surely she could not have survived, but yet here she was, the selfish, egocentric, hot-headed girl he had lived with, was sitting right next to him dressed in her red plug suit and wearing bandages on her eye and arm.
'Perhaps she had survived somehow, climbed out her eva and tried to nurse her own wounds, or maybe she had the will to come back to life like me' he thought to himself.
But try as he might, his mind refused to accept those possibilities. 'No… this might be a hallucination, my mind playing tricks on me, brought on by the traumatic events. I'm not going to let this place, this hell, take hold of my sanity. This girl can't be asuka, it's just not possible.' And nothing was going to change his mind.
He gathered enough strength to pull himself on top of her. Then he wrapped his shaking hands around her neck and began to squeeze. He thought 'This must be a hallucination; she isn't even looking at me, or even acknowledging I'm here at all.' This only motivated him to squeeze harder. Then all of a sudden, he felt it…
A hand came up and softly came upon his cheek. He stopped his strangling almost immediately. This feeling was all too real for him. This simple touch was proof enough that this was real, all of this was real.
He then realized that he had just almost killed one of his friends… a tear ran down his cheek as he came upon this realization, the first of many tears that day. He cried there for along time, he whispered the first words he had spoken all day… "I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm sorry…I'm so sorry…" hearing his words, Asuka began to stir beneath him.
He looked up to see that asuka was starring right back at him with her blue eyes.
As she came too, she felt like she was going to be sick, very sick. So sick that only the words "How disgusting" were able to describe it. Misunderstanding her words, shinji was shocked back to full reality and fell off her and back onto the sand, where he almost immediately fell asleep exhausted, asuka, feeling ill, soon followed.
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Hours passed…, the third child awoke to the light of the rising sun, turned red by the red gash in the sky, but for some reason, the red had faded a little since he last saw it. He rubbed his eyes to try to get used to the light. Recollecting the events of the day prior, he turned to see if asuka was ok. As expected, she looked fine, aside from the fact that she looked like she hadn't slept well at all.
Content with her condition for the time being, shinji started to think 'She came back… it wasn't a dream after all. She looks so peaceful, but when she sees me, will she still hate me? Will she remember that I tried to kill her? I don't want her to leave… I don't want to be alone, but all I seem to give her is more pain, maybe I shouldn't stay here, or have even come back at all.'
Asuka was thinking too, or rather dreaming. She seemed ok on the outside, but in reality she was reliving her own personal hell.
In her dream…
A small girl ran as hard as she could, calling out to a figure of a woman just out of her reach "Momma! Please don't leave me!"
"Please stay with me, stay with me momma!"
The figure continued to drift away from her, a little further away with each passing moment.
"PLEASE MOMMA! DON'T LEAVE ME AGAIN."
Then without warning the figure vanished. The little girl was not about to lose her mother again. She started searching desperately.
"MOMMA" she called out, but received no answer.
She tried again "MOMMA, WHERE ARE YOU?"
Still no answer. Which meant she was alone again.
Just as she was about to give up her frantic search, a figure appeared again. The girl immediately ran up to and hugged the figure she recognized as her mother.
"Momma… I'm so happy your back." To her horror, the figure clasped its hands around her neck and squeezed painfully.
"Why……" she barely managed to gasp out. "Die with me asuka…" said the figure in a menacing tone, "Die with me…" then the figure changed from the figure of her mother, to the form of shinji ikari! She tried to call out for help, but she couldn't due to her assailants hold on her, but even if she was able to call for help, she knew no one would come, no one ever came.
The figure of shinji ikari tightened its grip on her with every moment that passed, she could barely see, her vision becoming blurry.
With all her strength, she barely managed to whisper out "get away…..get away… get away…"
"GET AWAY FROM ME!"
Asuka's body shot up from the sand, wide awake, the look of pure fear and torment etched on her face. Shinji fell back at asuka's sudden outburst. He looked at her with a confused look to see asuka, now holding herself with her knees at her chest, mumbling something incoherent in a mix of Japanese and German. It was hard to make out but shinji could make out something along the lines of "get away" and other words, over and over again.
"Asuka, its all right, I'm here." Shinji brought his hand to her shoulder to try and sooth her, but the second he touched her, she jumped out of his reach, startled by the unwelcome contact. She starred at her attacker from her nightmare, with pain and hatred in her eyes.
Shinji, wanting nothing more than to help her, reached for her again saying "Its all right, I wont hurt you." As he approached, asuka's anger flared, and her fist made contact with his face, which she almost immediately regretted due to the immense pain now shooting through her arm.
Clutching her arm, she screams out "DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME! IF YOU EVER COME NEAR ME AGAIN I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL KILL YOU! DO YOU HEAR ME! I HATE YOU!"
A long silence passes and neither of them move. Deciding she has calmed down a little, shinji says "Asuka, I won't leave you here by yourself in your state. At least let me get you someplace warm and…" but before he could finish, a hunched over asuka, facing the ground and holding her arm, whispers out "Didn't you hear me? I said leave me ALONE."
She turns her head to face him, and continuing to raise her voice with each word, she says "I never want to see you again, I hate you and I hate the time we were forced to be together!" Now almost screaming "I NEVER liked you! Nobody ever liked you. Even your own father hated and abandoned you…" she looks him dead in the eye and says "I'll bet even your own mother hated you."
Shinji is now visibly shaking with his head facing the sand; he looks up at her with pain and tears in his eyes.
He walks right up to her, raises his hand and…
SLAP
The stunned asuka just sits there holding here cheek. The enraged shinji raises his hand again.
Asuka sees this coming and closes her eyes in preparation for the impending blow. But it never comes, instead she feels warmth. She opens her eyes to see shinji hugging her! And he's crying on her! 'Pathetic' she thinks, a little uncomfortable in her current position.
'No wait; he's not the one crying. It's ME!'
She struggles to break his hold and screams "PERVERT! Let me go. Damn it, I said let go!" Using her good arm, she begins hitting his back as best she can, but shinji doesn't let her go. Her hits begin to slow, "Let go… Let go… " she says, using less volume in her voice each time she says it.
Eventually she stops hitting him entirely. Exhaustion takes over as she gives in and lets her head fall on his shoulder and lets the tears come like streams of sorrow. "Why…" she says while crying, "Why did she have to go? Why did momma have to go, when I finally found her?"
"Why are you still here? Even after all the things I said to you? Why…?" He doesn't answer her; he just continues to hold her close.
They sit there on the beach, under the red sun, seemingly for hours; Shinji holding asuka as she cries on his shoulder. Shinji smiles a little as she mumbles something about baka and making her cry. Eventually exhaustion causes her to fall asleep in his arms.
To be continued…
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A/N: and that's chapter 1, there WILL be more, but you may have to wait, but not for long I hope, I am looking forward to see what will happen next. I'm sorry if this fic isn't very good, and if it's not very good, review this fic and tell me what's wrong so I can fix it.
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