Disclaimer: Nothing is mine.
This one is another ficlet I´d like to dedicate to Nina! Thanks to Fiondil for correcting my mistakes!
Summary: Legolas´mother had died to protect him. A short ficlet about his thoughts dealing with his father´s rejection.
Elvish translation: Gohena nîn – Forgive me
Le melin, Ion-nîn – I love you, my son
Gohena nîn!
I survived
Gohena nîn!
She died. Protecting me.
Gohena nîn!
She choose to sacrifice her life to save mine.
Gohena nîn!
You came to save us. The moment you hugged me tightly in your strong arms had been the last time I saw love in your eyes when you looked at me.
Gohena nîn!
Something broke, deep inside you, when the healers told you Nana was not going to survive. My place in your heart, your love to me, died along with her.
Gohena nîn!
I feel so scared. lonely. lost. angry. confused. My inner turmoil is suffocating me. A frightened elfling I had been. Nana was gone and so was your love.
Gohena nîn!
An adult, a strong warrior, that is what I am supposed to be, defending our home against the evil. But no one has ever taught me how to fight back the demons in my heart, to cope with this confusing blackness that threatens to overwhelm me.
Gohena nîn!
Another emotion is creeping slowly into my heart. Hatred! For the orcs who had killed her. Hatred! For myself, because I have been the reason for her death. Hatred! For the silent condemnation in your eyes, whenever you look at me.
Gohena nîn!
I am so scared. Will this hate pull my heart into darkness? Changing me into a cold stone? The protective walls of coldness, I am gathering around me, makes me seem strong. Keeps away everyone from coming close to the pain deep inside me.
Gohena nîn!
Do you even see what I am becomming, Ada?
Gohena nîn!
A few words from you could cure my hurting heart, could ease my pain. The words I have been longing for so long: Le melin, ion nîn!
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