Songfic; dying Nakago is bringing back all his memory about Soi and her death. Song by The Rasmus; title: "Funeral Song."

Fatal Desire

I dumped you again

Don't understand

It's happened before

Can't take it no more

She was always beside me. I know that she loved me but I didn't loved her. I wouldn't, I couldn't. I was cold and distant for everybody, so why not for her? I knew that she's crushed inside because of her feelings but on her own wish. Then why that day, when she left my tent with sadness at her face I felt pain?

These foolish games

Always end up in confusion

I'll take you back

Just to leave you once again

Love. There's no one that I could love. It's just stupid emotion that makes you weak and confused. Game for fools. Sweet words whispered to the ears of beloved. Sweet nothings. Soi knew that I used her and when she did her job I'll left her. And still, she held so much love for me. So much, that she wasn't hesitant to gave her life away in order to protect mine.

I died in my dreams

What's that supposed to mean?

Got lost in the fire

I died in my dreams

Reaching out for your hand

My fatal desire

That day when she died. It was haunting me every night. Crimson blood mixed with her beautiful hair. Her peaceful smile that was reassuring me that she's okay. But her eyes were different – filled with sadness and fear. She wanted to live but she loved me too much to let me get wounded. Even in her last words, her sweet mind was focused on me. "Nakago-sama" was echoing through the many nights without her. Her lovingly voice was haunting me. That day, when Soi died – part of me died with her.

I failed you again

Cause I let you stay

I used to pretend

That I felt ok

Just one big lie

Such a perfect illusion

I made you mine

Just to hurt you once again

I was assuming that I'm ok. I had to – Lady Yui needed me more than dead Soi. But it was just acting. Deep inside I was still thinking about my crimson-haired lightning-bearer and with every day I was hating myself more for everything that I did to her.

I died in my dreams

What's that supposed to mean?

Got lost in the fire

I died in my dreams

Reaching out for your hand

My fatal desire

And now I'm here – dying. My life is running away with every drop of blood. My vision is blurry but I'm not scared. I know that Soi, my beloved Soi is waiting for me and finally I could reward her for her undying love.

Author's note's

I was just listening The Rasmus Funeral song and this idea popped in my mind. Hope you like it.