Author's Note: Er...whoa. My first fanfiction on this site...ahem. I hope I don't royally mess up. xX Please be supportive, it's been two years since I wrote fanfiction of any sort.
Warning: This contains Yaoi/Shonen-ai. Don't know what that means? It means it contains Male on Male content. Still don't understand? Let me make it as clear as I can. This story contains gay men. I hope that was clear enough.
Disclaimer: I do not own Tales of Symphonia, or any of the characters, though I have my dreams.
Thoughts
"Speaking"
Scene change
This is a Kratos x Yuan story, and it will be written in Yuan's point of view. Hope I don't make him too OOC. x.X
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
At the risk of sounding blunt...it was dark. Terribly dark on this winter night as I sat up in my bed, unable to sleep. The cold bitterness of the wind nipped at my exposed flesh, and I shivered slightly, glaring at the open window.
It must have been around midnight, which meant it had been two years exactly. Two years since Mithos Yggdrasil was defeated. Two years since Kratos had left. Two years since I had cut myself off completely from Lloyd and his group, and even the Renegades, whom were no longer needed.
I had since then settled into a cabin my men had built for me on a secluded little island in Sylvarant, somewhere around Palmacosta. I was glad there was no real need to leave my home any longer, with the exception of purchasing food and other daily needs.
But I have strayed off topic...as I was saying, it has been two years exactly. Which meant Derris Kharlan was coming back into orbit, and I had no doubt that it meant Kratos would be returning for a few days to pay his son a visit as he had last year.
However the previous year, I had seen him for only a moment. I was in Palmacosta picking up supplies, and he was headed there with his son for a Palma Potion. In the small moment, we had exchanged hellos, and how-are-you's.
And then...he smiled. This took me by surprise. A true smile from him is rare. What had I done to earn a smile from him? A real smile? But one thing was certain...the moment he smiled at me, the spell was cast.
I felt like breaking down when I realized, all because of that smile... he really is all I have left. I've lost Botta, Martel, Mithos...everyone but him. It was strange how in that little moment of time, I became so attached to him. So attached to someone I could only see for a moment every year, if even that long. So attached to someone I hadn't really considered a friend.
And all too soon, he and Lloyd had continued on, and I was left alone again. Since I had gotten over Martel, the loneliness hadn't bothered me. But now it positively ate at me again. And what frusterated me even more, was I couldn't seem to figure out why I longed to see him so much.
My gaze fell upon the window again, but no longer because I inwardly wished it would close itself- nay, now I was expecting something. I was expecting a set of shimmering blue wings to appear in the night sky, but I knew they'd not appear. It was more likely the seraph would go straight to Iselia.
However, this did not discourage me. By now, I was determined to see him, and even more importantly, find out why I was driven to do so. I ran my fingers through the blue hair that fell accross my shoulders, and allowed a sigh to pass over my lips.
With a final glare at the window and the moon shining just outside of it, I forced myself out of bed, and headed to bathe. I'd beat Kratos there. That's it. I'd find an excuse to be that far away from home, and then I'd try to discover just...what exactly it was about him.
As I sank into the warm waters of the bath, a smile tugged at my lips, and a new determination burned inside me. As soon as this was done, I'd be on my way. I had five days exactly to figure out what I needed to know, and not a second would be wasted.
----------------------------------------------------------------
Author's note: ...well, I'm ashamed. xD I hoped for this to come out far better than it did...sigh Anyhow, please be so kind as to leave comments, suggestions, anything. I even welcome flames, though I don't enjoy them. Next chapter will be up soon. Perhaps even tonight, if I find myself bored.