i am scrolling down the list of contacts i have so i can text Hanna back... i accidentally keep scrolling after the H's... and then i see his name. Toby's.

We've only been broken up for like a week. He doesn't think i trust him. It's not me who doesn't trust him. It's me who doesn't deserve to be trusted. i kissed Wren by accident, and he still doesn't know. I didn't want to tell him, so I just ended things. He doesn't deserve a cheater like me. Wren had recently saved my sister Melissa's life, and i kissed him out of happiness. I don't love Wren, though. I love Toby, more than anything. I just don't deserve him.

I hear a knock at my door. Oh god, is it Toby? I know it's him. He comes over almost everyday to try to talk, but i just shut him out more. I don't want him to know that I accidentally kissed someone else while i was dating him!

I open the door, knowing it's Toby. And it is.

"Hi," i mutter out. "You're back... again."

He rolls his eyes. "Cut the crap. I want to talk."

Maybe I need to stop doing this to him. Shutting him out is killing me, and it's killing him, too. He deserves to know the truth. He deserves to be happy, and making him think that I don't care about him just makes him unhappy. I'm so cruel... How could I do this to the person I'm in love with?

It's time he knows. If he walks away, well, I've gotten what I deserve.

"I can't talk about this," I shake my head. "We can't talk. You need to forget about me. We're over, okay!?"

"You don't trust me?" He frowns. "What have I ever done to be labeled as untrustworthy? I'd never lie to you."

"You haven't done anything wrong," I say. "We just can't be together."

"Why not?" He demands.

"Because Toby!" I feel like crying now. I feel like a slutty-ass bitch! "Because I kissed Wren, and I don't deserve you! You're amazing, andd you deserve to be with someone who can make me happy."

"You love Wren?" Toby asks, eyes widening.

"No! I accidentally kissed him after he saved Melissa's life," I sigh. "I love you, but now that you know the truth, you can't love me back."

"Of course i love you back." Toby says. "One kiss with Wren doesn't change anything. I trust you. Just promise me all your feelings for him are gone."

"They are. I was just so happy about Melissa." I promise. It's true. I don't love Wren. There's nothing romantic between us anymore.

"Then I want you to know that i love you more than anything in the world," Toby says in his low and charming voice. "You are all i care about."

Toby pulls me closer and kisses me. I love him. I want to be with him for the rest of my life. I think I'm ready to show him how much he means to me.

Yes, tonight... I'm ready for Toby Cavanaugh to make love to me.