AN Hello folks, some warnings with this little one shot that I decided to start my fanficing career with… angst, cutting, slight insanity, and seppuku of a form (ie. suicide) You have been warned!!
Other
"Demon"
"Beast"
These follow me wherever I go, that and the eyes,
Those ice cold, soulless eyes
If they speak or not, these voices follow me
Ever since that day, the bridge, when I first felt him
Me
The other
The dark, twisted soul that craved for blood and pain
Chaos and destruction
Death
He wanted to kill that man, the one that "killed" Sasuke
I wanted to kill him, to feel his life blood in my mouth
To tare and devour his heart
During the days following the release of myself, my other I began to fear it
Fear ME!
And what I had become
I know rationally that I am not that other, that THING that told me to kill
That gave me pleasure in the feeling of hatred
But it still frightens me
For it IS me
Nothing but the pure, darkness of myself manifested as the being in my soul
I stare at the gleaming razors edge of the kunai,
My kunai
Pointed at myself
Cutting, tearing, and granting me control and the fear of the other
Of myself
I feel the liquid heat of my blood
Our blood
As it collects along the thin, almost paper like cuts across my arms and up into my shoulders, across my legs and up my stomach.
There, the stomach
I feel the other shift and rage
Scream and beg me to stop this
Stop US from killing me
Killing us
I wanted to defend my loved ones,
My precious people
The darkness inside myself
The other
It could and would and WILL destroy
Destroy and rape all that I hold dear
There was only one way
One way out
One way to stop the other, stop myself
From killing, rapeing the village that I loved
The kunai found its way deeper and deeper into my cage
My other
Myself
The long gash that WE put across the gateway
The gateway to HIM to the other
The darker me
Myself
I felt it weeping
Weeping out all the darkness just as it wept out myself
I felt… weightless, happy
Happier then I had ever had the right to before
I felt FREE
Free from the other
The other that was myself
As the darkness closed over me
Over US
I let a small smile
A TRUE smile sweep over my face
I had done it
I had killed the other
Killed me
Gave peace to the village that I love and hate
The village that loves and hates me
AN: Right o folks, this is my first stab at some good ol' angsty Naruto stuff, and yes I know that its horrible, it popped into my head fully formed randomly one day.
Please r and r, even if it is to say how badly my work sucks. It will let me know what the hell to do to change it… -DarkKyubi