I won't say goodbye

The last few weeks have been weird for the new Alexandria's citizen. They were hard, actually. It took to each one being integrated to the closest thing to the civilization since the prison felt. But they made it; they found their roles in the new society.

Rick and Michonne were cops, not the official ones, but cops in the end, Carl had gotten new friends, Carol had been involved in social activities and Maggie, in an extraordinary way, was being trained as the Alexandria's leader by Deanna.

And Beth… was a double-edged sword after leaving alive of Grady Memorial Hospital. When the days were quiet, she take care of Judith and the other kids, whose parents were outside looking for supplies or checking the perimeter; and when the days were unquiet, she was on the walls, protecting to the city.

The half of the walkers, or that was what Rick said, surrounding Alexandria, and Beth just waited the twenty-four hours of the day for Daryl to come. She could still remember the look that he sent to her when she offered to help. After the little discussion they had, Beth had to resign to stay in the city.

"Beth, he'll come back." Maggie had said to her that night over dinner in the house that everyone shared. They didn't want to split up and they're not going to.

The blonde pushed her plate away and nodded, looking for her gun which Daryl had given to her— to go to stand guard, until Carol spoke.

"Don't even bother. Rosita is covering your turn. It's your rest day."

Beth frowned and looked at her, angry. For a second she paid attention to every present that was eating in silence. That has been that way since the plan failed. Not wanting to interrupt the only calm she had seen since the walkers surrounded the city, she only nodded and went upstairs, hearing the sound of crackling wood under her.

In her room, she pulled a knife that she had hidden in her left boot and played with it, laid in her bed, in which she hasn't been since a few days ago with Daryl, recovering the lost time.

They have been laid in that bed since midnight, maybe, and five hours later, both of them had been waked up. They look each other for a few seconds, Beth's head on his chest, enjoying the warmth that the scene emanated.

"I think I'll accept the job that Aaron has got for me."

At those words, Beth rests on her elbow to looking at him better and to realizing he's not joking. "Will you? After all we went through you'll accept a job that takes you away from me?"

"Beth, you said I had to integrate to this. That's what I'm doin'"

"Yes, but not like this!" She screamed before collapsing again in her lover's naked chest. After a few seconds, Beth sighs and closes her eyes, swallowing strongly. "Promise me I won't say goodbye. I won't have the need to say it."

Daryl's eyes dropped down to the blonde hair that adorned her part of the pillow and the mattress. For a minute he questioned himself about the promise, but as soon as Beth's blue eyes scanned all his face he couldn't help but say it. He was screwed. "I promise."

And now about two days have passed without knowing something of him. Although this was not Aaron's fault, he didn't have to accept the job that Rick gave to him with Sasha and Abraham.

If she is much focused, she can still feel his smell impregnated in the sheets. It was like the forest, fresh and natural. It's not like Daryl would bother in Daryl did not bother to wear some perfume.

Finally, she could fall asleep and sleep more than an hour, like she always did before Daryl left. Upon awakening, nausea made her run to the bathroom, which for her bad luck, was far from her bedroom. After vomiting the pasta that she ate last night, she ran a hand through her hair.

She thought it was weird not find someone at home when she went downstairs, because everyone was at the dining room in the mornings. It wouldn't surprise her that a reunion would be made and she didn't notice.

A few seconds after, everything had sense. Upon leaving to the porch, she could see the church's tower had collapse and it had destroyed one of the walls, letting the walkers pass. Now, everybody was trying to survive.

As Beth was looking for a known face, she stabbed her knife in the skulls of two walkers that were heading towards her. Walking away from the city's entrance, she ran until she found Eugene, who was protected by Tara and Rosita.

"Beth!" He screamed. Afterwards, Tara realized about her presence and she kept shooting some walkers as they were getting close to her.

"We are going to leave by the town's back. We'll climb" She informed. The blonde nodded and the four ran for their lives, as they open a gap to come safe to the back wall.

The first to climb was Eugene, but he was so slow that the walkers began to corner them already. As Beth keeps the zone where they were, safe, Tara was helping to the fake scientist to climb the wall. There was not much time left.

"Eugene!" Rosita screamed, saving her gun to start climbing the wall. "Move your damn ass if you don't want me to use you as a walker's bait!"

"I'm trying it!" He answered, with the same tone voice. Beth saved her knife and followed to the others, passing Rosita. Tara landed first, and she helped Eugene to come down.

Bad idea. "Are you ready to attack?" Rosita asked, watching the horde of walkers coming to them. They were less than the ones, who were entering, but still, they were many for four people… I mean three.

Tara reached to handle of the one that were in her part in a few seconds, she had been training a lot in her stay in the city. Rosita had to handle of Eugene's part too, because he only screamed as a little girl.

Beth had finished with her part, cleaning her knife in her t-shirt.

"We have to save Denise!" Tara screamed, looking with concern the wall that they had crossed.

"There's no time" Rosita answered, searching the help that she needed in Beth. "We can't go back there, who knows if we'll go out again."

Reluctantly, Tara started to run, leading to the others, killing the walkers that came closer. A few hours later, when there were no walkers in sight and all they could do was walking, Beth vomited in the path, getting the look of everyone.

"I shouldn't have eaten what Maggie prepared; she was never good in…" Her voice tone dropped when her name's sister came out of her mouth. As if she just remembered her, she bit her lower lip and her eyes adopted the sadness that she hadn't had the time to feel.

Rosita came close to her, with a hand placed on her gun and the other placed on the blonde's back, who was starting to cry. "I'm sure everyone is safe, they're strong, and they'll know how to survive."

"And what if they are not? And what if they already were bitten by some walker?"

"You must stay positive" She explained, before some walkers sounds were heard on the distance. Rosita snorted and she stands straight. "We've got to keep walking and find a safe place before night falls."

Beth dried the tears that were starting to appear and she returned the path, because, what could she do? Thinking in the worst of the cases and get depressed until some walker decides to eat her? No, she refused to end this way!

With her blonde hair covering her shoulders, she followed Tara, who was so concentrated in her work of leading them to a safe place. Beth was going to let her to do that, because she didn't have necessary strength to take the leadership right now.

She was going behind, holding her belly which squirmed with every step she made. Once in a while, she noticed Eugene was slowing step to keeping her company of an indirect way. She had to have chosen the worse day to get a stomachache.

A few hours later, when the sun was hidden, everybody stopped for resting a little. The four were exhausted, sweaty, angry and nostalgic about Alexandria.

"What are we going to do now?" Beth asked, sitting in the floor for one minute. "We still have about an hour of sun and we didn't find anything yet."

"If only Tara were leading us to somewhere" Eugene lamented, sitting to her side. The look he got from Tara wasn't pretty.

"I swear if you don't shut up, I'm going to tie you in the road and you're going to have to wait to the walkers to help you."

For a few seconds, they thought in how and where they'd find a place until Rosita spoke. "Look!" She pointed a finger at the top of a mountain, where you could see a little cottage.

"Do you want us to climb over there?" Eugene asked, looking the entire path that they'd have to travel.

Quickly, Eugene got up, dusted off his pants, and followed the three women that have saved his ass. As Rosita and Tara kept an eye on everything and spoke softly, Beth, that was by their side, just listened and nodded in multiple times.

When the four were on the top of the mountain, the sun has gone of the sky. Rosita approached stealthily to the cottage's door and she was about to knock but she was stopped by Beth.

"What are you doing?"

"Knocking?"

"Probably there's no one there."

She shrugged and opened the door quickly, being surprised it's not closed. Tara followed her, showing her knife before any alert and Beth was the last to enter without taking into account Eugene, who stayed at the door "on guard".

And that meant scream when danger stalks.

The three girls started to check in the place
in search of food, medicine… or walkers. The little food they found was expired. There was no sign of medicine in that small cottage. And the walkers… well, there was one at the bathroom, but Beth got to finish her.

"Clear!" Rosita screamed to Eugene, who as entering closed the door behind him.

"Poor little girl… For how long she had been here, waiting for anybody?" Tara asked, bending down to check her. She was a redhead with —previously— gorgeous green eyes.

"Not much" Rosita pointed her wrists with the gun she had in her left hand. "She cut her wrists, she wasn't bit. Maybe her parents didn't come back yet."

Uncomfortable, Beth she left that scene, remembering when she tried to do the same at the farm, after her mother died.

Lying in one of the two mattresses that the small room had, Eugene, Tara and Rosita were arguing about who was going to sleep and where.

"I don't know, but I'm not going to sleep with him" Tara said, heading where Beth was resting. Rosita gave him a look that'd kill him if she'd want to.

"You touch me and I kill you. Got it?"

A few minutes later, when everybody was accommodated in their respective "beds"; though they were only mattresses, but it was more than anything, Beth looked the faces of every present. She could only think in one.

Where would be he? What if Daryl come back and sees that she had gone? Unable to sleep, it doesn't matter how tired she was, Beth walked into the bathroom where the little girl was before and she vomited until half an hour after the nausea ceased.

She still felt dizzy when she returns to the mattress, and looking at the roof, she could fall asleep.

The next day consisted in waking up, go back to throw up, go back to receive weird looks from the others, until Rosita suggest to follow the path.

"And what if we don't find anything? I mean, we haven't seen anything like this in… miles" Tara said, pointed a finger to the little structure that surrounded them. The sun seeped in through the windows, and the place stank as horse shit.

"We must to take a risk" Beth answered, feeling even worse than the day before.

"We can't move with you being like that, we've got to wait" Eugene seemed to be happy with this place, for being a smart person; he didn't know that everyone must to keep in constant movement.

"Don't worry" The blond made a sign with her hand, looking for her knife with the other. "I'll be fine. When do we leave?"

Rosita groped her gun in her shorts and snorted. "As soon as possible."

As soon as Beth found the knife, the four persons went downhill, in search of something better than that. Something was telling them that that was the best they were going to get at least in a while.

Ten vomits and a few hours later, Beth started to worry about herself. Maggie cooked badly, but she couldn't be that bad. The others just walked and stopped when she had nausea.

"Are you hearing that?" Eugene asked, making everyone to keep quiet. The steps' sound scared him so much he had to run to Tara to protect him. However, she tried not to punch him, because she was more susceptible since they left Denise behind.

"It sounds like… walkers"

Beth took a step back and raised her knife, grabbing a long branch that was on the floor to defending herself if the occasion required it. And as Rosita had said, a huge horde of walkers came out of the forest.

Tara managed to handle the half of them, but Beth had problems because of her shortly equilibrium and the nausea she had. Now Rosita took care of Eugene, protecting him. Suddenly, Beth was about to get bitten from behind, but Tara managed to save her. And there they realized they were being cornered.

"I'm out of ammo!" Rosita screamed while she hit a walker and destroy its skull.

"I've only got two!" Tara said.

Beth fought against two walkers that threatened with bite her. She was being sufficiently agile in those conditions, but the panorama didn't seem to get better at all.

Suddenly, something big and strong mowed down them, moving them away, but leaving Rosita and Beth unconscious, broking Eugene's leg and Tara's left arm, who after that, fainted meanwhile some men jumped from the vehicle that had mowed down them to kill the walkers with their guns.

When Beth woke up, the whole room was spinning and her vision was blurred. There was no light besides the lamp that was in a corner. When her eyes got used to the light, she shifted in the bed but her muscles didn't respond. Beside her, in another bed, Rosita was sleeping or was probably unconscious.

The walls were dirty as the floor; a smelly pile of clothes was on a small table that looked like it was going to fall at any moment.

Beth stopped concentrating in the putrid smell of the environment and stretched her left hand in Rosita's direction, though she was far. She looked like a delicate porcelain doll with her hair untied, being quiet.

At that moment, a doctor —or at least someone that looked like one— came into the room and smile at realizing one of his patients was conscious.

"Hi." He said, in a calm voice to approach to her. All of his moves were short and paused, like he would be approaching to the cougar. "Can you give me your name to give you a diagnostic?" Upon seeing that she didn't respond, he continued. "It's obligatory here, darling."

"What for do I need a diagnostic?" Her voice came out in a weak whisper, with an obvious hatred to that doctor.

"Because we've got a recovery plan and the first step is the diagnostic. After that, you can choose between go or stay. But, believe me, girl, there's nothing better than this out there."

In that case… "Beth."

"Perfect. Now… well, our men's truck has been mowed down you four, and I apologize for that."

"Are the others ok?"

"They didn't wake up yet. The man has a broken leg; the girl who was with him presents mild vital signs, besides she has a broken arm."

"Will they be ok?"

"We hope that. While you…" He looked at the medical chart and made an indecipherable face. "The hit and the lack of food made you to pass out, but don't worry." He said with a smile, passing his hand for his whole white coat; like if he were cleaning them. "Your baby is fine after all. He's a fighter."

Everything turned almost black but Beth kept herself conscious to digest the words. Oh, shit. No. No and no. She looked at the doctor's eyes just to realize he wasn't joking. She took courage to speak, finally. "A baby?"

"Yes. You're pregnant, Beth.

And now, everything turned black.

So, this is my first fanfic and I hope you like it because English is not my first language, so if there's a mistake, let me know it :)

Agus xoxo

See ya!