Disclaimer: I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura. Yeah.
Alone.
The girl sitting by the window knew what alone was. Her long black hair hid her face as she stared out into thedark nightsky. Yes, she knew what it was like to be lonely, to feel that there was no soul on the earth that loved her. Of course she knew she was wrong, there were plenty of people who cared about her! Or were there? She had bodyguards, servants, a huge house, but none of those people really cared about her; they definitely did not love her.
And now Sakura had Syaoran...
No! She knew she shouldn't feel this way. She was so happy for Sakura and Syaoran, truly she was! Sakura cared about her, and always would. And there was nobody in the world that she cared more about. Sakura's happiness made her happy; nothing gave her more joy than seeing her friend so blissful around Syaoran. But still...she wanted someone who she could be that way with...so open...so..in love...
But it was better this way. Better to live a live of loneliness than to fall in love and have her heart broken...again. She was glad Eriol was gone. Nobody had noticed how she had fallen for him when he was there; she was much more secretive about those kinds of things that Sakura. But she had. She had even gone so far as to dare to hope that maybe something would come of it, maybe this would be different from all the other times she had liked somebody. That maybe this time she would be loved back, instead of loving someone who did not share the same feelings at all for her.
And then the day had come when their teacher had announced he was going back to England...
She saw him that one last time, and then he was gone. She hoped he would never come back. But then again, she did...
No, she never wanted to hear from him again, ever. Better to erase his memory from her heart forever than to live with the pain and sorrow of it all. It was better to be lonely, than to love and not be loved back. She did not want to love. Only pain could come from it.
With these thoughts in her head, Tomoyo went to bed and fell asleep. She did not cry. She never cried over things like this.