Author: Nagikins
Title: I Love You
Pairings: Ran(Aya)/Ken and Ken/?
Warnings: Yaoi, OOC (I write then like I see them in my head, not how they were in the anime) Ran's POV he may seem too stiff here I'm not sure,
Spoilers: None so far
Disclaimer: I own nothing; I only borrow and return nicely
My first WK fic, so please be nice.
Prologue
I say to you "I love you," but I know I do not. How can I look into your sweet blue eyes and say anything differently. I know I do not love you, because I do not know what love is…. I am dead inside. How can something dead feel love? It cannot. You look up at me the moonlight glinting off of your face illuminating your eyes and the crinkles you get by your eyes when you smile. You believe my lie again, because you want to believe that you can change me, that you can make me alive inside again. I wish you could, but you cannot. I sold my life for revenge and revenge ate my soul. Your arms, strong from using your weapon of choice, wrap around my torso pulling me close to you. Your warm breath fans across my face. I bend closer to you hoping to…I don't know…suck some of your life into me. I am so dead, why can't you help me. You close your eyes, as I get closer to you, your lips parting in anticipation. I close the space between us ravishing your lips. I feel a spark; perhaps I can feel alive in your arms. The spark fizzles and fades in my icy cold heart. I am dead….I am ice…but I cannot hurt you. I cannot make you like me. I pull back from our kiss, staring at your lips bruised from my attentions. I am at an impasse. I cannot hurt you and yet I can do nothing but hurt you. The lie falls so easily from my lips because I cannot crush your nativity, your innocence. I cannot love you, please save yourself and leave me. Let me go back behind my mask. Abandon me and find another, someone who is not dead, not committed to his revenge, who is able to return the love you give so freely. But I know now, now is the time to end this. I have to turn from you and push you towards another, who will return your love. Someone who is as alive inside as you are.