Author's Note: This is my story Charmed Love in the perspective of James Potter. But please note that this is not by any means a diary. I never have pictured James as the type of person to keep a diary, and if he did if fact write in one he would not write faithfully enough to keep the story pot going equal to Lily's. This story's purpose is to give you reader's extra information and insight into the inner workings of the mind of James Potter as best that I could do through 3rd person.

Disclaimer: I am only going to do this periodically throughout this story. I do not own James Potter, Sirius, Remus, Peter, or Lily. Those characters belong to J.K. Rowling, and no matter how much I wish, alas, I still do not own them, but if I did… James Potter would be MINE!

Now on with the first chapter…

Charming Lily

Chapter 1

There are certain things in a person's life and about their character that never change. Sometimes it is simply how they look or maybe how they brush their teeth in the morning. It could be small things like how they slant their letters to the left when they write. Yet it could possibly be the fact that they are the youngest of nine siblings or maybe that they are an orphan.

In his life, James Potter had things about him that stayed the same. Things about him that seemed so permanent that they could be filed into that selective category that we call facts. Facts that everyone seemed to know about, or found out about shortly after meeting him.
James Potter was the only child to Simon and Julianne Potter the wealthy, respected, pure-blood family. Where ever James went people recognized him immediately because he looked so much like his father. Most of the time James enjoyed such attention, he liked that people paid attention to him.

However, there were times when James wished that one would recognize or remember him. It was on those occasions that he would have been pulling some badly-thought-out prank that Sirius had concocted. Only to find that as he was hiding or sneaking off that someone would see him and then the element of surprise would be ruined.

He was a Maurder. He broke the rules, received more detentions than he cared to remember. He hexed people when they were bothering him or simply because they were there, especially Snape. Snape just irritated James to no end. He was not entirely sure why he hated him so much. It just happened as soon as they first laid eyes on each other. They decided to loathe each other till the end of time.

He was friends with a werewolf. Admittedly not many people knew about that one, actually only his friends knew about it. It took him three years to find out that Remus Lupin was a werewolf. That was actually when the Maurders really started their group. They decided that they wanted to be able to help their friend through his transformations. So Sirius, Peter, and James decided to become Animagi. And that was how they each got their nicknames…Peter- Wormtail, Sirius- Padfoot, Remus- Moony, and James- Prongs. This was probably the best kept secret that James had. Sure everyone knew about the nicknames, they just didn't know what they meant. James found that he liked that he had something that he kept to himself. Well, he would not mind telling one person.

There was one person in the world that James would not care if they knew his every secret. Because when that happened he knew that this person in question would undoubtedly return the favor and James would give everything that he owned or could borrow to know those thoughts.

This was the one thing that everyone in Hogwarts knew, but no one openly talked about. James Potter was hopelessly and madly in love with Lily Evans, and had been since he had first met her on the train in first year.

It was just something that happened, something that he had no control over. He knew that she was going to be different. She seemed to already be close friends with Snape, so he knew that she must not judge people too harshly. So, it really surprised him when she took a strong dislike for him.

And even though it seemed like she hated him, he still found that he was in love with her. It wasn't until third year that everyone started to talk about it. It seemed like that was the only thing that people could talk about. The fact that James Potter fancied the only girl that outwardly detested him.

However, it was not until their fourth year that he actually asked her to go on a date with him. And every single time he asked she just said "no" and turned on her heel to walk away. But it wasn't until their 5th year that she actually got angry that he had asked her out. And unfortunately it was in the same moment that she broke her friendship with Snape. Personally, James didn't see it as much of a loss, but he could tell that she was hurt by Snape calling her a mudblood. He had tried to help, but Lily didn't want help from anyone just then, and most especially not from him. All this didn't change his feeling towards her. He still considered her to be the most wonderful female in existence. Everything about her was just, perfect. He still persisted in asking her out, but he tried to lessen the frequency to being once every other day or so, whereas it used to be daily.

Now this did not mean that James had not dated other girls at Hogwarts. He was too much of a guy not to notice other attractive women. And when he did date them, he like them well enough, but it was just mere lust. It just was not like it was with Lily.

When Lily was around his throat felt tight and his mind went temporarily blank. When she walked past him, his heart sped up and his palms started to sweat. It she smiled he couldn't help but smile back foolishly. With other girls it just was not, could not, ever be the same.

So when his owl came at the end of summer break he was surprised and nervous to see that he was Head Boy. Partly he could not even believe that he had gotten the position in the first place. He was just sure that Remus or someone else was going to get it. He had been in too many detentions to have and serious hopes at getting it. He was at the top of his classes, but he didn't think that they merely chose Head Boy on their marks. It came with no shock though that Head Girl was no other than Lily Evans. He knew that that was going to happen as sure as if it had been written in the stars.

Sometimes it seemed that the job description was written with her in mind. She paid attention in class and received excellent marks. She followed the rules and is something of a goody-goody-two-shoe, but she still would stand up for you if you were being treated unfairly. She was just a good person. Okay, maybe he was a little bit biased, but she must at least come pretty close to that mark.

"This job means a lot to Lily. If I am ever going to stand any chance with her I can't screw up this year." James mumbled to himself as he boarded the Hogwarts Express and began looking for Remus. Sirius was a bit ahead of him, even though they arrived at the same time, since he was in a bit of a daze.

He found the Maurders with no trouble at all. They were in the same compartment every year because it was the farthest from the prefect compartment. Sirius was lounging around trying to engage Remus in conversation. Remus was already reading another book trying his best to give Sirius short answers without seeming rude. Finally Peter was fidgeting in his seat looking at the two of them with fascination and awe.

"Oh, look, James is here." It was Remus who noticed him first having looked up over the top of his book to answer one of Sirius's questions about his summer. "Now you can talk with James instead of bothering me while I am trying to catch up with this reading."

"I don't want to talk to Prongs right now; I have seen him every Sunday this summer." Sirius said straightening up to make room for James next to him. "And what could you possibly be behind in reading, we have not even gotten to school yet, Moony?"

"You would not understand if I tried to explain it to you." Remus said as he turned to another page in his book.

James listened to their exchange with a wry smile on his face. They always did this, but this was probably the earliest that it had ever started. They would get engaged with something like this and then completely forget about the other people with them. This in his present state of mind suited him just fine. He had to think of a way to convince Lily that he was going to take his job seriously.

Maybe he should start by being responsible. He could start by showing up for the meeting on time, taking the time to make sure that they covered all of the important topics. Also, he should try to follow the rules himself. It would probably not look to good if the Head Boy was constantly in trouble.

"James. Oh, God, he is not listening. I don't think that his brain is even attached to the rest of him right now, and that really just means one thing. He must be thinking about Lily Evans again." Sirius said waving his hand in front of James's face.

"How did you know?" He knew it was pointless to try to deny it; Sirius knew him inside and out.

"Prongs, you always wear this deep-in-my-thoughts expression when you are thinking about Lily. It is really not that difficult to recognize, and you do it quite a lot to tell you the truth, mate." Sirius said as he rolled his eyes.

"Well. Of course I am thinking about her. This is my last year with her; I just have to convince her that we are meant to be." He knew that it sounded like a bad romance song, but he had said the words to her so many times that he actually had begun to believe them as the truth.

"Yeah, James time is running low." Peter squeaked out. James's head snapped around to look at peter. Sometimes they forgot about him because he just never spoke up. He just observed them, seeming content to just be with his friends.

"Peter is right. I have nine months left with her before I might not see her again. I can't not convince her that she is in love with me. I have to be able to accomplish that." James explained urgently looking at his friends hoping against hope that they night move on to another conversation. He really just wanted to think about it and not listen to what they had to say on the subject.

But, alas. James thought. Things never work out like they do in one's mind.

"Prongs, all you have to do is kiss her breathless. You just have to grab her by the arm, drag her into a broom closet, and kiss her until she can't even remember her own name. It is actually quite simple, mate. I have done the same thing myself on many an occasion." Sirius said straightening up in his seat while talking animatedly with his hands.

"I will take that into consideration if I get really desperate." He personally liked the idea, his imagination getting away from him for a moment. He could picture pulling her into a corner, his arms slipping around her waist to hold her against him. He would bend down so that his lips could touch hers… James Blinked a few times to clear his mind and bring it back to reality. Something told him that however much he might love the thought; he knew that Lily would probably not share those feelings.

"Well, I think that that plan will work just as good, if not better, as any you can come up with." Sirius said in a slightly defensive tone. However, sensing that he was going to get nowhere with that idea, he decided to change the topic. "So James, have you told Moony and Wormtail the big mistake that Dumbledore made?"

"I thought that Professor Dumbledore was as close to being infallible as one could get." Peter said looking between Sirius and James for an answer.

"Well, maybe he had his reasons, but I sure as hell can't see them." Sirius muttered, then cleared his throat and announced in a big voice. "In all of his infinite wisdom Dumbledore has made our Prongs, here, Head Boy." He finished with a big flourish of his hands in James's direction.

"I think that that is very good, for James. He needs something to give him a better sense of responsibility." Remus said finally taking part in the conversation as he marked his spot and closed his book. "He is growing up, and that is a good thing. You, Sirius, could stand to mature some, too.

"I am as mature as I need to be. I just don't want to be a figure head of good behavior." Sirius said quickly looking at Remus with an offended look on his face.

"Thanks, Remus." James muttered. "At least one of my friends thinks that I can manage the job. I plan to take the responsibilities very seriously." He added knowing that that was only part of the truth. He wanted to do all of that because he wanted to show Lily that he had grown up. And then hopefully convince her that she was in love with him.

"Well, mister-responsibility, do you know what time it is? It would not look very good if you are late for the first meeting." Sirius said casually looking out of the window.

"Oh, crap. I have to go." See Lily, my love. He added in his mind. "Tell you how it goes later." James said pinning on his badge before hurrying from the cabin.

But before he left Remus whispered to him. "You know, James, Maybe you should try to be friends with Lily before you do anything else. I think that she would react better that way. However, it is for you to decide what you want to do.?

James stood there for a few seconds processing this new option. He really had not considered becoming her friend, but now that he thought about it, it really seemed like the way to go.

"But it all amounts to nothing if you don't go find her for the meeting." Remus said with an amused lilt in his voice.

Without another word James finally left the compartment in search of Lily. Well, it was not so much of a search because he knew which compartment her friends and she would be in.

So he hurried down the corridor a little ways to her cabin. And just as he predicted Lily was in there with her best friends Alice St. John and Beth Foster. They were in the middle of a conversation because he could see Beth moving her hands while talking to Lily whose back was to the door and him.

He stepped up right to the door and put his hand on the door latch. You can do this, James. He said giving himself a little pep talk. You have a legitimate reason to be here, so therefore she won't get to aggravated with you.

Without another thought James slid the door open and before he lost the ability to speak he said two words… "Hey Lily."

Author's Note: Well I hope that you liked it. I don't know when I will get to update this again what with school starting soon. I hope that it will not take me too long.

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Love Allison