Somewhere In Between
Lifehouse
A Songfic for Draco
By Panda Pinke Malfoy
I can't be loosing sleep over this, no I can't
And I cannot stop pacing…
Every night I lie awake in my bed longing for your touch. I cannot accept the fact that you are not here. I need to walk it out.
Give me a few hours and I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing…
In time, I know that I'll get over you but I don't want that day to come. I can't think strait at all. You are the only thing on my mind.
I cannot stand still
I cannot be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening…
I cannot stop moving my body as if you were here.
I cannot allow myself to be so weak and shaky because of you.
I cannot believe you are really here, but only in my mind.
This is over my head but it's under my feet
Because by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was…
This is so difficult for me to accept. I cannot handle not being with you.
But don't worry I'll be fine by morning. I just need to sleep on it. In the morning, everything will be as it was before. I'll be perfectly fine.
I wish it was just that easy
I'm waiting for tonight, then I'm waiting for tomorrow…
Yeah right, who am I kidding? I'll never get over you. Tonight I will think of you. I can't wait that's when I feel most like myself. But tomorrow, I will be who I am to the rest of the world. A happy person, not longing for someone.
And I'm somewhere in between what is real and just a dream…
Are you real? Or real just to me? Are you a dream? Or just a dream to me? I cannot decide. I cannot distinguish between reality and
My dreams.
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in?
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again…
I cannot do this anymore. Falling in love with you.
But if don't love you will you care?
Don't mind me if I fall even more in love
With you.
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
I love loving you. It is the greatest thing in my life.
Loving you is changing me and my life,
Not always for the better.
My darling Draco,
I always will love you. I cannot exist without your arms holding me each night. As we lay beneath the starry, frostbitten sky I look at you and fall in love with you even more. I touch your icy skin with my lips. Ecstasy is reached. The cold is our comfort, it keeps us close. You close your eyes; my hands travel down your almost translucent skin. Desire is satisfied. My lips follow my hands. They reach your secret. I begin to kiss you. Your hands run through my hair. Your groans and excited screams shatter the silent air around us. The snow that swirls around our shadow is a curtain that blocks us from the rest of the world. No one can disturb us. The cold night gives way to the new morning light. The sun rises and the fire in your eyes goes out. Your image vanishes from sight. You leave me along with my other dreams. I will meet you tonight. We will be together but only as lovers in the night.
My night lover I love thee,
Forever yours
Panda Pinke