Summary extended: They were all each other needed. Their relationship was toxic for awhile, but after an incident, Bonnie decided to turn her life around but Stefan took a little more time to change. He leans on her for support, for love, through his anger and pain and she's glad to be there for him. But he's hiding a secret and once that secret comes to light, it's like the world turned upside down and they have to fight harder than ever leading him to do whatever it takes to get her back.

Prologue

Bonnie blinked her eyes open waking up seeing nothing but snow and a large garbage ben. She coughed getting up pushing herself up with her hands slowly then leaned her back against the bricked wall. Her body shook as she reached in her pocket pulling out a box of cigarettes and pulled her last one out its holder along with a lighter. By the time she stood up from the soft, cold ground, it was just a bud and she headed south stuffing her hands in her brown coat pocket.

She pressed the buzzer longley and repeatedly until his demanding voice was heard through the speaker.

"What?"

"Let me in. It's fucking cold out here." She bounced on her toes looking around.

"Why are you up so early, it's like four AM."

She growled. "Open the door, Stefan!"

She yanked on the door open hearing it buzz, then quickly headed up three flights of stairs then passed five doors before she knocked on his. She waited a second before it opened coming face with his shirtless state and boxers riding low on his waist. The V of waistline hips on full view. She walked inside removing her jacket then the rest of her clothes.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm freezing." She said pulling down her jeans before walking over to his bed.

"Shouldn't you be putting on more clothes then?"

"Just fuck off."

He sighed watching her wrap herself in his blanket then walked over to her lifting up the sheets so he could lay beside her. "Let me hold you." He took her body in his arms and moved his hand down her back kissing the top of her head. "Where were you last night?" His hand worked a little faster.

"At a friend's."

"She didn't have any heat? You're like ice sickle." He shivered himself.

She didn't respond, just held him tight with her eyes closed. "Who did you sleep with last night?"

"W- no one."

"Then who's panties do I feel under my foot?" Pause. "I'm tired of you cheating on me, Stefan."

"I swear I didn't sleep with anyone last night. I fucking swear."

"Whatever, I don't care. I'm leaving you soon anyway. I'm gonna find a guy who actually appreciates me."

A horrible picture entered his mind and he sighed pulling her in closer.

She smiled holding the blanket around her closed with her hand as he sat in front of her. He made her breakfast and was feeding it to her as they talked. Stefan looked up at her after stabbing two slices of pancake with his fork. He saw her smile and he smiled back then sat the fork down so he could touch the side of her face.

"You're so beautiful."

She smiled then closed her eyes as he met their lips. Her hand moved to the back of his neck as she kissed him back. He pulled away staying close looking into her eyes.

"I love you." He reminded.

"I love you too."

"Yeah?"

She nodded and he smiled then met their lips again before he kissed the side of her neck twice.

"I'm full." Bonnie told him then chuckled as he ate the two slices on the fork before getting up walking into the kitchen.

"I was uh thinking that we spend the day together. I don't have work today and it's been awhile, you know?"

She nodded smiling a little. "Yeah, that sounds great."

"Good." He smiled over at her as he washed off the dish.

She kept her eyes on him as he finished washing the dish and dried his hands then walked over to her still dressed in those low riding boxers. He stood in front of her and she looked up at him placing her hands on his hips. His eyebrow raised.

"Come here," she scooted back on the bed as he crawled above her. "You know what else has been awhile?" She kissed him feeling his hand slide up her stomach.

"When are we having babies?"

"You want children?"

"With you." He kissed down her neck squeezing her breasts as his lips traveled down.

Bonnie closed her eyes enjoying the feel and sucked in a loud breath feeling his hand slide in her panties moving in a circular motion. She got rid of her bra herself and tossed it to the side as he worked on sliding the lace down her legs. His boxers were off in the next second and their lips fused as he slid inside her.

Her leg wrapped around his waist moving her lips away from his so she could breathe. His mouth moved to her cheek kissing her multiple times before looking into her eyes.

His hand moved to the side of her face as he stared at her beauty and their eyes never parted.

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Bonnie smiled as he struggled with the lighter and cheered a little once he finally got a lasting flame. "This is going to be the best weed ever since it took so damn long."

She chuckled watching him inhale then let it out slowly before handing her the blunt.

"I was right." He said watching her get a hit as well.

Bonnie coughed a little making him laugh before taking it from her fingers rolling on his back. "It's weird to think that- that we will die. You know?"

"I guess."

He watched the smoke in the air until it faded. "Like all we are is just vessels roaming the world. Fucking, laughing, fighting, eating. Like what's our purpose as humans?"

She rolled on top of him and sucked in as he blew out the smoke leading it between her lips. "Our purpose is to live until we die. And to not give up on it."

"On what?"

"Life and everything that comes with it. Life's married to good times but has a baby mama named "bad times" who pops up every now and then for child support." He chuckled and closed his eyes as she kissed him once before resting her head on his chest. "Who did you fuck last night?"

"I swear to you, no one. Wouldn't she still would've been here when you came over? No one was here besides me and you. I'm not cheating on you again." She sat up and looked into his eyes. "I swear."

She stayed looking then nodded choosing to believe him. "Can we go out, please?"

"It's like a blizzard out there. You were just freezing like two hours ago."

"I'll just go by myself,"

He grabbed her waist, "Wait, fine, alright. Just give me a second."

She smiled and kissed him biting down on his lower lip before getting up looking into his closet for some clothes. She pulled one of his sweaters down her head then screamed a little then laughed as Stefan's hands suddenly wrapped around her as he growled in her ear taking her back over to the bed.

"I was going to wear that."

"We can wear it together."

He lifted his right brow then lifted the shirt from her skin and placing his head under it to suck and squeezing on her breasts. She enjoyed it for awhile before she started to push him out.

"Stefan, you're distracting me, I want to go. Stop, you're- distracting…me." She forcefully lifted her leg that was between his and heard him painfully groan as his head fell against her flesh before slowly sliding down her body. "Where is she?"

He took deep breaths holding his balls. "Baby-"

"Where the fuck is she?!"

"I didn't sleep with her, it was just a party, we were smokin' and havin' fun, I swear-" his head was forced to the left as she slapped him.

"She's in the closet, isn't she."

When he didn't respond she knew she was right so she heads over there again and pushed some clothes to the side. Bonnie rolled her eyes seeing her asleep then grabbed her arms forcing her up but gasped when she was limp.

"Holy fuck," she covered her mouth and stepped back. "Stefan, she's fucking dead."

"What?" He crawled over and slipped twice over nothing before he placed his head over her heart. "No, I- I can hear her heart. It's faint. Run a cold bath."

Bonnie quickly ran over to his tub and turned on the cold water as Stefan lifted her and dumped her inside. She sat beside her smacking her face a little asking her to wake up as the water filled and tears started coming down her eyes.

Was this what she's going to look like in a year? Soaked in Stefan's tub because she overdosed and is barely hanging on to life?

She said that the purpose of being a human was to just live and not give up, but she's starting to wonder if the lifestyle she's living is just another way of giving up. It's killing her slowly but quickly all at the same time.

She watched Stefan give the poor girl CPR, but she wasn't sure if he was doing it right or not. She crawled back until her back hit the wall and that's where she stayed throughout it all.