It's been six months since Jacob Black left me. He told me that he had to help Sam and the pack. He left me in the doorway to my family's cottage, staring after him. Every night, we talk on the phone, but it's never enough. Especially when I don't get any privacy about it either. Living in a family of vampires has its ups and downs. This is one of the downs.
Edward and Bella are able to hear everything I say, and in Edward's case, think. But the worst part about Jacob leaving me is that ever since he left, I haven't really been happy.
And Bella and Edward can see that.
They try to cheer me up by taking me to the city, and watching the sun set, but it never helps. It really is very pretty, watching the sun go down, and twilight start, and the city lights all come on. But it never helps soothe the pain of losing him.
Every night I would go with them. Just to see if it would help the pain. Even a little.
But it never has.
And tonight, I decided to stay home.
"Nessie?" Edward called.
"Yea, Dad? " I answered, seeing him appear in my doorway.
"Your mother and I are going out to see the city now. Are you coming with us?" He asked, looking over at me on my bed.
"No thanks, Dad. I don't feel much up to going to the city tonight. I'll stay home tonight." I said, waving off his offer. He came over to me, and lay down next to me on my bed.
"Is something bothering you, sweetheart?" He asked me, concern and anxiety clear in his hazel eyes.
"No, I'm fine Daddy, really. I just don't really feel like going to the city tonight, that's all." I said, singing a song in my head so he couldn't find out my true reason for staying behind. So Edward couldn't see Jacob's husky face in my head, smiling at me, but I was obviously a little late. He had seen the picture. And I was busted.
"Nessie, Jacob said that he would be back as soon as he could." Said my father, trying to reassure my guilty conscious.
"I know, Daddy. I'm just worried about him. I love him, Daddy. I'm just scared that he might get hurt. I just don't like the thought that someone could have hurt him." I said, tears coming in my eyes. Edward pulled me into his arms and rocked me slowly back and forth.
"I'm terrified, Daddy." I whimpered. I had my head in my hands and was sobbing uncontrollably. Bella must have heard me crying and was suddenly next to Edward and me on my bed.
"Nessie." Bella said, stroking my hair in a slightly soothing rhythm. "I was just on the phone with Jacob, and he promised to come home once he was done helping Sam and the pack." Bella whispered. I nodded weakly, and told them to go on to the city without me. Edward shot me a nervous glance, which I pretended not to see. He kissed my hair, and then swiftly got off my bed.
"I love you, Renesmee"
"I love you too, Dad" I said and smiled up at him.
Bella got off my bed just as quickly and effortlessly as Edward had. She bent down and kissed my forehead.
"Be good" She said softly
"I promise, Mommy" I said in a mock baby voice, and chuckled at how realistic I sounded.
Bella smiled, and left my room with Edward, hand in hand.