Twilight Belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
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I didn't give up on my other story, just having technical difficulties. I lost everything on my computer...so give me some time.
Chapter 1- Almost
"All that blood Alice, I could have ruined everything." I exclaimed as she ushered me into my Mercedes, I was afraid I had blood on the back of my shirt, I didn't want to stain the leather seats. Alice could tell I was still a little frenzied and shoved me into the passenger side, and then climbed behind the wheel.
"I need to go hunting Alice, now." I pleaded. She nodded, and started down the highway away from campus. The trees were speeding past us at an alarming rate, Alice must have foreseen the urgency. I laid my head back on the rest, and closed my eyes.
"What are you thinking about?' Alice's voice rang through the silent car. I reached for the CD player, and flicked on my favorite CD. My favorite song flooded the car.
"How much I wanted to ravage him. Not just his blood Alice, his body. He has to be the most intriguing human I had ever met. In all my one hundred fifty years, I never had wanted to familiarize myself with a human, but I had seen flashes of it today when his body collided with mine outside of our class.
"Oh, I see. And?"
"I can't Alice, I just can't. He is human." I couldn't finish my sentence, I had never had the urge to have a relationship with someone before, let alone a human.
"He noticed my eyes, and how cold I was." I stated, I was in shock at myself.
"I know. I saw his next move before he made it, I cant believe he got up and tried to shake your hand." she was laughing, but I didn't find it humorous. I listened to the song, and smiled at the lyrics. I had nothing to compare to.
"I almost attacked him when he stuck his hand out at me. All that blood. God Alice. What am I going to do?" I begged. She stopped the car next to the trail, and we got out. It was really close to home but it was an emergency.
"You are going to go hunt, and then we will get you into clean clothes, and then we will figure this Edward out." she stated, she could steer me in the right direction. I closed my eyes, and took in a gulp of air. The scent of blood bombarded my senses, and I was off.
I was laying in the tall grass a while later when Alice came upon me. She had a few drops of blood on her shirt, but that was it. I, on the other hand had gone completely crazy and fed until I was sure there was no room left. My shirt was covered with blood, and I noticed Alice take in my appearance. She clicked her tongue at me.
"I cant take you anywhere look at that shirt, that was my favorite shirt." she yelled. I grinned at her, and patted the grass next to me. This is why she was my best friend, and sister. She was there for me, unconditionally. We laid in the grass until the sun went down, and then headed for the car. I drove this time, turning up the volume as soon as the power came on.
"Aren't you tired of this song yet?' Alice teased. I shook my head no at her, and closed my eyes as the first few notes of Saving Abels "Addicted" started to play.
"You don't even have sex, so why the love for this song?' she asked, I was a little offended.
"I'm sure Alice, you know maybe someday I will find someone. And then what, I'm going to get you all back for all the noisy nights." I told her, she was laughing so hard she was holding her stomach. We went our separate ways when we got home, our house was lit up from every room. The lights casting a warm glow on the ground below. Esme had ran her eyes over my clothes, and then Carlisle was holding her back when she went to follow me upstairs. I hoped that my family wouldn't see this as a mistake on my part, at least I didn't kill him. I sighed as I thought about those emerald eyes, his crazy hair. I wanted to reach up and curl my fingers into that mess.
'They don't think you did anything wrong. Take a shower, and then we will talk.' Alice's "voice" called out to me.
"Thanks Alice." I whispered, she could hear me. I got the water as warm as I could, and then climbed in. I don't know how long I was in there, but I knew I had to get out when the water started to turn cold. I dried my hair, thankful all the blood had come out of it, I laughed at myself. I hadn't made that big of a mess since I was a young vampire. Alice was there, she looked frantic.
"What.." I didn't have time, she was throwing clothes at me, and then shoved me into a chair to do my hair. I looked at her, my eyes meeting hers in the mirror and I heard it suddenly. A very different voice, but one I would recognize anywhere.
'Dr Cullen has hot daughters….wait is that the chick I ran into this afternoon?'
"No, I cant. What is he doing here?" I asked, I was furious that he would show up at my house. Although it seemed he had no idea I loved here.
"Carlisle is his advisor. He's in med school." Alice answered, I didn't have the strength to listen to her. I was blocking everything out. We headed downstairs, I heard voices coming from our fathers study.
"Bella, Alice in here please." He commanded. He smirked at me, and then threw a thought into my head.
'this is the man' I nodded my answer, and thought I saw Edwards eyebrows knit together in confusion. Had he noticed that? I have to be more careful. Alice was grinning, and then I peeked at her. A very vivid image of her and Jasper in the meadow where we had just spent our afternoon. She was keeping something from me. I gagged silently, and shoved my way out of the room.
"Bella, could you help Esme get dinner together?" Carlisle called out, I threw him a soft yes and listened as I headed down the stairs. I was silent as I helped my mother unpack the Mexican food from a local restaurant. I heard the sounds of footfalls and prepared myself for the intrusion. His scent hit me like a ton of bricks. I stopped breathing, and steadied myself with the kitchen counter.
"I'm not hungry." I blurted out, I was weak. But it was the truth, my body felt the fullest it had in a long time, I almost looked human when I had got out of the shower. Carlisle gave a me a stern look and I took a seat at the dinner table. I looked around at it, I palmed the surface. If I had been human, I would have left a fog on the surface. I hoped Edward hadn't noticed my experiment. I heard a very defined 'Did that just happen?' and pulled my hand into my pocket. I met his eyes for a second, he was thinking, very loudly; he wanted to know what I was. I controlled myself long enough to play with the food, and then excused myself to my room. I was sitting on my bed, the one I had broken down and bought to just make myself sad trying to remember what sleep had been like; when there was a knock at the door. Figuring it was Alice, I told her to come in. I was facing the outside wall, watching the rain pelt the glass wall when his scent hit me again. I crinkled my nose, and sat up to face him. His thoughts hit me first, the thoughts of how much he wanted to know me.
"I'm sorry for running into you earlier. Are you sure I didn't hurt you?" I looked at him incredulously. He laughed a little.
"It felt like a hit a brick wall. How often do you work out?" he asked. I snorted, I haven't had to lift a single weight in over a hundred years. His emerald eyes met mine again, and he looked confused.
"You know, your eyes are very expressive. One minute they look almost black, and just now they looked almost honey colored." he blurted out. I scowled, and it was like you could feel the sudden change in the atmosphere. I am so stupid.
"Edward, please. Just leave." I told him. My voice surprised me by sounding so withdrawn. There was no way I could get any more wrapped up in him than I already was. There were emotions stirring within me that I hadn't felt in over a century.
"Please Bella, I just want to get to know you. You're keeping something from me, and I will figure it out someday. Cant we just be friends if you don't want me like that?" Well that was straight forward. Little did he know I wanted him more than I had ever wanted anything in either of my lives.
"No Edward, its better if were not. I'm not want you think." I told him, I turned over again, and waited for him to leave. I finally heard his footsteps as he turned for the door, and then I heard the door slam downstairs. Esme was at my side in a heartbeat. I was enjoying my silence, it was something I heard taught myself to do over time. She was pushing the hair out of my face, and It was the first time I wished for tears in nearly fifty years.