What would have happened if Edward stayed away from Bella longer than he did. Will turn into a Bella/Edward if this turns out the way I want it. Please review so I know you all like it.

Chapter 1

EPOV

Its been a year. A very long year. Staying away from Bella was not the easiest thing to do. Watching through Alice's mind what Bella was doing to herself made it worse. I had to leave. Our family went to live in Alaska after we left that night, but I had to get away. I knew it was going to hurt my family but I could no longer watch Bella being so destructive to herself. I worked so hard to protect her from everyone else, little did I know, she was her worse enemy. I told myself it was still better I wasn't involved—eventually someone would intervene and she would be on a better course.

Easy for me to say. I have only found myself back in Forks once since I left. Alice had another awful vision of what Bella was doing. I had decided that I was going to get away from her for my own sanity. I grabbed my keys to the Aston Martin. I had to get away fast. I drove and drove but I found myself outside of Bella's window in Forks, Washington. I watched through the glass the girl I was in love with, destroy herself. How I wish I could hear her thoughts. If only I could make sense of why should would do this. Her body was more frail than ever before. She hadn't eaten in days. She was wasting away. Looking closely, I could see scars and fresh wounds that gave off her sweet odor on her wrist. The blood.

She was sitting on her bed, staring at a blank wall. Bags under eyes, her beautiful deep brown eyes were sunken in and sad. She went from sitting to laying on her bed, staring out the window, right at me, I tried hard to stay where should wouldn't notice me. She started to cry. From the broken thoughts somewhere else in the house, I knew from Charlie that this was not the first time she cried herself to sleep. She cried for the most part of the night, and dawn finally broke, she was just drifting off to sleep. No wonder she looks tired, she can't stop crying long enough to fall asleep. Oh, how i wish I could just console her just this once. But I knew I couldn't. I had to be strong. Its better for her. She is safer this way than with a vicious monster like myself. I took one last look and walked back to my car. As I drove off, my frozen heart broke. How I hated this.

After that I left Forks, promising I would move on as much as I could. I drove cross country to New York. I decided that the country setting of Northern NY was better. Less interaction with humans and I could spend the rest of her life in solitude. Carlisle would call me every once in a while, seeing how I was doing, though Alice gave him updates. Every time he calls he would offer to uproot the family and move with me. I knew deep down that no one wanted to move away from where they have settled.

"Edward, you know that we would move if you asked us. All you have to do is say yes," Carlisle said once again. In the background, I could hear Rosalie groan. She out of everyone was the least excited about moving.

"Carlise, you know I could never ask any of you to drop everything and start over—again. And I am sure Rosalie doesn't want to start high school over again." How I missed them. My family. But I could not handle being around them, especially Alice. She was worried about Bella all the time.

"Well, you know we are here if you need us, Edward. Oh Alice would like to speak to you."

Here it comes, the monthly update on Bella that Alice insisted I needed to know. She has told me about her drinking, drugs, cutting her self. I couldn't believe everything she has done. Alice wanted to go see her, but I couldn't let that happen. I think it would be hard for her to have any involvement with the Cullen family. It would just break her.

"EDWARD!! Are you sitting down. Something I need to talk to you about. Its about Bella." Alice had worry in her voice.

"Alice, I can not handle another update on Bella. Won't it eventually stop. She has to move on at some point."

"I don't see that happening. Its getting worse. Edward, Bella is in the hospital...." Alice fell silent.