Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in Twilight. They all belong to Stephanie Meyers. She is a genius.

AUTHOR NOTES:

This is my first fanfiction story. I have loved all the stories I have found but, I wanted to try one that I thought might be interesting. This story starts in New Moon, after Edward leaves and Bella is alone. This is how Bella can be stronger due to what makes her so different. My story is with Bella and Edward. I will be writing with different POV and I will see how well I do. I hope all the readers enjoy and please review.

Chapter 1: The end...I think?

Bella's POV

..."Mouthwatering," he repeated, inhaling deeply.

I was ready to have this happen, to die was a change in my life that I have been prepared for since Phoenix in the cab heading towards my old ballet studio. Now as a hollow shell and no one in danger except myself, I wasn't even afraid as much as I knew I should be. My way of dealing with Edward leaving was not working and the pain was not getting any better day by day.

Now, I watched as Laurent got in position to spring, and all I did was stand there and think of MY angel, Edward. I love you, Edward. I always have and I always will.

The next thing that I felt was a sharp pain in my left shoulder and a sucking sensation that felt oddly comforting. I closed my eyes and saw the face of the man who I loved more than anything else. Then it stopped, the pain and pull, from my shoulder. I opened my eyes to see the Laurent was 10 feet from me with a look of fear and terror that was like none I had ever seen. I blinked to see him flash away from me running and I fell to the ground, curling on my side in a tight ball, crying because I was still on this earth. So, of course I knew that it wouldn't be long before everything I had wanted over 6 months ago was now going to be happening.

I looked up to see giant wolves looking down at me for a split second before they took off towards the area where Laurent just left. Maybe, I was going to be their desert after they finished Laurent off. They probably think that a running "human" (if they only knew) was more appetizing then one who was just laying here on the ground. I was not running so the chase and hunt was not there for them like it was going to be with Laurent.

I was alone and knew that maybe I could get to the thick forested area before the real pain started I could stay alive a little longer. ALIVE! HA. That was something that I had no choice in anymore. Either I would be a vampire soon or a snack for those beasts that passed me a few second ago. I wasn't sure which way would be less painful, but I got up and stumbled my way to the tree line. I was determined to make it as far as I could into the darkest part of the forest before I couldn't handle the pain anymore.

I had just passed in to the forest when my shoulder started burning. I thought that I was prepared for it since I remembered the excruciating pain from my last experience in Phoenix. I was so wrong. The pain was spreading but my legs kept going forward, like they were on autopilot, deeper into the darkness. My neck and head were pounding from the pain so I knew I didn't much more time. I looked around and found a small rock outcropping with dense foliage around it. Perfect. I can hide there however long it was going to take to have me change into a Vampire. The burning was moving to the other areas of my body and getting worse by the second. I just had to get to my hiding place, but then suddenly the legs collapse under me and I still was a few feet away from my final destination. Or shall I say, my final resting place.

It took everything I had to crawl a few more feet, but finally I was concealed in the forest. Now I had to remember not to scream, I hated the fact that I would need to soon. The burning got worse and was slowly working it's way through my legs and arms. It was almost to my hands and feet when I couldn't handle it anymore and had to scream. The fire was intensifying and pulsing with every beat of my heart.

How long was this going to last. I can't even last 5 minutes and already making the quiet forest a haunting nightmare of terrifying screams of agony. The fire was trickling to the last parts of my extremities when I screamed a second time. I was fighting a battle against two opponents, my body and the pain, both were winning. I began to pray that this was not going to take much longer.

I vaguely remember being told about the story of when Carlisle was changed. Did Edward say DAYS!?! This can't be happening and I had to deal with it for days. I was struggling to not scream again when a feeling hit me with such force that I almost cried.

I didn't cry from the pain. It felt so great that I wanted to cry out in pleasure. The burning was there one second and then it felt like ice was pumped through my veins. I would even say that pumped was not the right word, more like a flash freeze the instant that the venom reached every inch of my body. Is this part of the transformation? All I remember is that it was supposed to be the worst pain in my existence.

Then as if my mind was messing with me the burning came back worse than before, I screamed a bloodcurdling scream. I felt like my whole body burst into flames. I wasn't sure I could take this anymore. As quickly as the heat can back, so did the ice. WHAT WAS HAPPENING????

I don't know what, when, where or how long this was going on. But it keep doing the same thing over and over. And every time the blaze came back, I begged for the opposite and so it happened.

Soon, with every change in temperature, I started to realize something. It was getting easier to handle and lessening with each shift of the extremes my body was handling. My heart was still working overtime with the overload to my system and my brain was getting frozen and melted with each passing second or minute or hour. I am not sure of anything anymore.

Finally, the freezing hit with a cold I can't describe and I was shaking so hard that the shrubs around me where vibrating. It seemed like I was shivering forever when I felt the cold dissipating and I began to thaw. My heart was still beating like crazy trying to warm my body with blood that felt like it was ice cold.

I began to feel the shivering slow and my heart began to beat slower. This must be it, soon my heart will stop forever and I will be a vampire alone with no one to help me. My body stopped shaking and I could feel my teeth were not chattering anymore. I took a deep breath and I could feel the warmth in the air around me. I also could smell the different scents of the forest trees, Cedar, Oak Spruce. Also I could smell the moss and mildew mixed with the trees and shrubs. That was weird, but maybe that was part of being what I am now. Everything from my short time with Edward and his family told me that vampires can do amazing things and so this should not shock me.

I hadn't even realized that all the cold was gone and so I waited for my heart to stop. I laid in my hiding place and waited. I felt normal but I wanted to stay until this was over. My heart kept a very even pace and sounded strong but steady. I must have laid there waiting awhile looking around and breathing in the world around me trying to exam what had happened and plan for the next step. It was growing dark and I wasn't sure what day it was but I knew that I had to leave and never come back. I was becoming a Vampire and I had to stay away from temptation.

I was getting frustrated because I felt great but I could still hear my heart, an nothing had change in a while. How is this possible? If I am a vampire I can't have a heart beat. I looked down at my hands and they looked the same normal human hands I always saw.

Have I just imagined all of this happening? I know that I have wanted to be like the Cullens since I meet Edward and figured out what he and his family were. But I just couldn't make sense of why I was in the forest and felt great with A HEARTBEAT. Maybe it was a dream? Then I thought about Laurent and put my hand up to my shoulder where I thought I was bitten. I felt a dry, crusty texture and pulled my hand away to see flakes of dried red blood on my fingertips.

I wasn't sure if I wanted to drink blood but I did feel hungry and thirsty. Maybe it was the same feeling for blood or maybe I was still human. My head was hurting from me trying to figure everything out. So I decided to find the nearby stream and see what I looked like, clean up, and find out how water would taste like.

To stood up from the spot I had laid in for the longest time and started walking towards the sound of the stream. Wait, I didn't hear the stream before? I just kept heading in that direction and before I knew it I was there. The water looked fresh and cool, so I squatted down and cupped a handful of water and slowly drank it. It tasted wonderful and refreshing. Then I took some water and wiped the area on my shoulder. It was dried blood that was coming off my shoulder. I finished cleaning the blood off myself and decided that my third reason to come to this stream would be the deciding factor in if I was crazy or not. If I saw my reflection and I didn't look human then I would leave. If I looked like my plain old dull self then I must have imagined all of this.

Slowly, I bend over the area of the stream that was in front of me and looked into the water. A small gasp came out of my mouth when I saw myself. THAT"S IT!!! I AM GOING CRAZY!!! Nothing was different from the way I looked this morning in the bathroom. I looked the same as I always did. Then I felt a sadness wash over me, I was still human and so I would never be able to be in the world where Edward and Alice were. I fought the tears that started to come to my eyes. Why am I crying again? I know because I was crazy and I had finally snapped. But honestly, I was to blame for it if I hadn't push myself to hear his voice and do all those crazy things then maybe I could say I was sane right now. What am I going to do now?