Regrets Never Comes First

by lolly4eva

Sorry,it's not a story.It's just a poem about what I feel.My grandpah had just died.I love him and I will always remember him.I just wanted to write my feelings down.

Regrets never comes first

Somehow I knew

I just arrived home from long and tiring work

And I noticed my mom's broken expression

I asked her what's wrong

She said nothing

But somehow I knew

She was lying

I could see it on her face and through her voice

And for some reason,

I know the answer why

But I was too afraid to ask

Because I don't want to admit

I don't want to face the reality

That my grandfather had just died

It's hard to accept

Specially when you wasn't even able to take a last glance of his angelic face

We're in Japan

He's in Philippines

We're not seing each other for almost 6 years

Isn't it dying to just hear he died?

The man whose the father of your mother

The man who once took care of you when your parents are somewhere else.

The man that always makes you smile and laugh

The man that you love.

One of the most important man in your whole life.

I've learned one thing from the day I've heard my grandpah died

I've learned that,life isn't ours and 'he' could take them away from us whenever he wants

So live your life to the fullest

And show your love to your love ones before it's too late

I can remember the day I last saw him

It was summer

Me and my family are going back to Japan

I didn't hugged him even I wanted so badly

Do you know why?

Because I was shy.

So,what now?

I'm regreting and hoping I could turn back time

So,I would hug him as tight as I could

And show him how much I love him.

I suggest you all

To show your love to your love ones

Don't be shy

Don't be afraid

Because it hurts

When it is too late

I'm just wondering

Why regrets doesn't comes first?

I wrote this poem on my own

This is the first time I posted a poem written by me

And this is true.

My grandpah had just died on Sep.8 (mon)

When I first heard it,my tears fell non-stop

And I regreted why I didn't hugged him the day we last saw eachother

Shyness got into me that day

But now,all I could feel is anger towards myself.

I really love him

He was one of the people who took care of me and my big bro when our parents are here in Japan working

He was funny,kind and sweet

I will never forget him

He'll be here in my heart forever and ever.