He loved me and I destroyed that love with one dumb choice that led to another and then another. See where it brought me? I'm a prisoner in my own little hell.
I promised to protect him with my life, but I f*** that up. What do I have to say for myself? This half-assed apology? That's all? No, it will be more to the young one I once loved with all my heart.
I promised to treasure and protect you. I was your teacher and you were my student, but you taught me much more than I could ever teach you. I thought I could make you go away, but I found myself drawn to you.
I could never make you go away.
I'm sorry I lied.
I'm sorry I made you fall for me.
I'm sorry for letting those men touch you.
Please forgive me. Please try as I stare at our picture with a gun in my hand, the same one that killed you.
I want these four words to be my last.
Shuichi, I love you.
Bang.