I awoke this morning with a start my life's horror has finally came into form. Last night was horrible and good in one. I had let my guard down and finally let Adrian into my life. After all that I've been through I couldn't take being lonely any more. So as I lay in my bed next to the man that now has become my short term lover in nothing under the covers I feel his warm arms wrap around my body. My body immediately heated up at the warmth of his finger traces around my rib cage his hand moving up closer and as he grab at my breast I couldn't help but feel so good at his touch and then a flash of something happened to me. I suddenly felt the rough but soft at the same time feel of his hands his tall ripped body moving in closer to my skin the electric heat that came with every touch I knew at that moment I wasn't in the arms of Adrian any more I was in the arms of my actual lover Dimitri. I hadn't felt this way since we went into the old watch tower of the guardians and finally let our feelings and yearning out and slept together but being in his arms now it felt different and I didn't want to leave. My trance was suddenly broken when Adrian whispered in my ear.

"I love you"

I love you too Dimitri I said without even knowing I was thinking about him until it left my lips.

"What?" said Adrian as his protruding hand moving down my leg had stopped at my hip.

I jolted up in a sitting position readying myself for the fight that I knew was about to happen .

I was about to say sorry when Adrian's naked body got up and out of my bed and he said

"You called me Dimitri"

"I know …. I'm sorry"

"You know I thought you were getting over him when you finally let me in. I mean really last night was amazing and all that goes to waste by this morning. What did you think of him all night while we were together?"

"NO! I swear it just slipped out … like something took over me. I swear I'm crazy about you and no one else"

I could tell he didn't want to fight so early in the morning especially when he slipped back into bed. We rested down apart for a couple of minutes but the distance and attraction between us couldn't stand alone anymore when our bodies inched closer and our lips found each other. The evenings of last nights steam seemed to start again and this time when we woke up I swore that I wouldn't slip up.

I awoke again feeling a little guilty about what happened earlier. I woke adrain up with kisses to pay him back for our fight told him we had to get ready for todays classes. It took us a while if we hadn't stopped 3 times to make out a little. I know my attraction to Adrian was good and that I have to get over Dimitri and I know I probally could its just that now I wasn't going to get over it as soon as he wants me to.

As I'm down the halls to my favorite class with my new trainer who also happened to be my boyfriend when I ran into Lissa we talked she asked me how Adrian and I"s evening went I told her the nights and days festivities were good I also had to tell someone about our fight.

"You did what!" Lissa exclaimed before lowering her voice

"I said I love you Dimitri" I repeated

"Why ?"

I don't know its like something flashed through . Like I could feel his hands on me again. I got so into it that I called him Dimitri he wansnt to happy about it

"Well duh rose what guy would be happy that his girlfriend called him the name of her ex"

"I know I know hey I got to get to his training"

okay rember were meeting in the libar for study session ok I said with a dreary look in her direction.

I love lissa but studying is the last thing on my mind I'd rather party speaking of parties I just rembered my birthday is coming up