Hey guys! I'm posting up this four-shot just now because I'm going on holiday tomorrow! I don't know when I'll be able to write next... so I'll update 'Magic Exists?' at some point... hopefully... enjoy x
I Wish I Was
Leonardo – Better
I wish I was better.
Everybody thinks I want to be perfect but I know perfection is impossible. Besides, Raphael would hate me even more if I were perfect.
No… I just want to be…
Better.
I want to be a better fighter,
A better brother,
Just a better person in general.
If I wasn't such a screw up the Shredder would be gone by now, Master Splinter wouldn't have nearly died and my brothers would be safe.
If I was better Raphael would love me, respect me. Donatello would let me help him when the stress became too much, he would listen when I tell him to sleep or eat. Michelangelo would be happier to train.
Everyone would benefit from me being better.
That's why I try so hard every day. Raphael thinks I'm trying to be perfect and mocks me for it, I ignore his harsh words and continue training.
But it never works. I will never be better, I'm stuck at the pathetic level I'm at now.
I just hope I'll never get worse.
I wish I was better…
I need to be better…
Because if I don't… my brothers will suffer and I'll lose them forever.
And that's not allowed to happen. Ever.
My brothers don't have wishes like this, they are already better and take every moment they can to rub it in my face.
Every day they put me down, shout and scream terrible things at me and show me just how terrible I am.
They want me to be better.
I want to be better.
It's got to happen one day… Right?
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