Disclaimer: Don't own New Moon or Twilight!
Edward left, just like in New Moon. This is my deal that Christmas after Edward left. Prepare for an emotional adventure. heck yes.
The Remnants of My Life
Prologue:
(From New Moon)
It will be as if I never existed, he'd promised me.
I felt the smooth wooden floor beneath my knees, and then the palms of my hands, and then it was pressed against the skin on my cheek. I hoped that I was fainting, but, to my disappointment, I didn't lose consciousness. The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under.
And I did not resurface.
(End new moon clip, accredited to the awesome Stephenie Meyer)
I had never felt as empty as I had when it finally came to me that he was gone. I mean, really gone. This wasn't another one of my nightmares where I would lose the one I loved. This was my life. My empty, broken reality. I didn't know how to live a normal life, like any normal teenager. My life didn't know what normal was, so how I could I go back to being that way?
He had been gone for three months. As each day passed it took a toll on my heart. I had no motivation to do anything except to just be. At times I yearned for an end to my bleak, unsatisfactory reality. It wasn't really living, if the reason for living was gone.
I went to school, did my homework, cooked and cleaned. I spoke when spoken to but I never had any outward emotion. To have emotions you had to have a heart, and that was ripped out when he left. I could only feel pain, loss. I felt feelings of self loathing; how could I really have expected it to be love.
I hated the fact that I still loved him, even though he told me that the feeling wasn't mutual. Pain further racked my body when I thought of the day he left. Though months had passed, every memory of him, especially that one, was as in clear in my mind as ever.
I looked up at the white mansion before with, with snow covering the front yard and trees surrounding the house. It looked as though nothing had changed. It had known no misery, no heart break, and no pain. I let go of the mental barrier that had been trying to hold back all the memories. Immediately I winced at the pain that was overtaking my body. The helplessness overtook me as I fell down to my knees in the near foot of snow on the ground. I clutched the letter in my hand, picked my self up, and trudged cautiously towards the front door.
These memories and these feelings; these were the remnants of my life.
Short, i know. just the prolouge. The whole story isn't going to be terribly long either, hope to post teh next chapter (hopefully edited soon!) in teh next few days. Lemme know ya thoughts! my second story, this is terribly exciting! GAAH! lol that was my excited exclaimation...! lol
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