I do not own Beyblade or its characters, though like most of you, I wish I did.
Kai is having trouble coming to terms and sorting out his feelings for Tala. Not knowing what to do, or who to turn to, he is left to figure things out on his own.
Why bother living? You just get stuck in a rut and it takes all your strength, all your emptions, and everything you have left to give to get out of it. It starts when you turn 5, you go to school, and for the next 13 years of your life, it's always the same thing. Sure, the activities changes, as the years go by, but when you look back, it's still the same routine. Then you grow up, move out. Maybe go to college and repeat the sequence for a couple more years. And when that's done, its work. You wake up, go to work, come home and sleep. Life never changes. For 18 years of your life, adults always tell you that you choose your future. But you don't, not really.
That's why I sit here in bed, only 19 and tired of life. Not that I'd have the guts or courage to end it, and why, death isn't any more welcoming than the future. I crave change from the life I currently lead, yet I can't find the ambition to change it. The more I think about life, the more I wish I was someone I'm not, and the more depressed I get.
Some people might say I need help, and I probably do. But all I think is "will it actually help me any/"I know that pretending to be normal only makes you more insane, but sometimes it's the only way I can feel like I fit in, even a little bit. I try to be strong, but even then, there are those moments where the tears can't be held back. Unfortunately, they've been more often than not lately.
A dream, even a small one, helps. It's something to look forward to. Even if it does take a while to reach it. But I know that if I can only keep focused on it, and not let anything get in the way that maybe, someday, I will finally get everything I could possibly want.
And so begins my story.
So, this story is basically almost like a diary for Kai. For the first few chapters at least.