Title: Feelings of Regreat
Genre: Romance, One-shot
Summary: After Miaka's phone call to Yui, telling her of how Suboshi had died in the streets of Tokyo, fighting Tamahome, Yui's emotions all come out. This is how she felt, right after the phone call, assuming she didn't spaze out, like in the anime. We are going to assume this is BEFORE Miaka got to tell her the God's wanna eat her ;)
Writer: cutepiku
Disclaimer: Nothing of this belongs to me, except the writing itself. Yui, and Suboshi belong to Yu Watase (that lucky devil), and I can only hope I could come up with such a work one day to call my own.
He is gone, she repeated over, and over again.
She could not believe how easily he just... just disappeared. It was so quick, so simple. She had no chance to say goodbye, and now... Now, it was much to late.
"Suboshi.." Yui mumbled to herself. She released a single tear from her eye, though she promised herself she wouldn't do this. She promised herself she would stay strong, and that no matter what, she would't cry.
Too late. Much too late for that now.
Yui dragged herself outside, deciding she needed fresh air. Her mother called her back, worrying, but she did not answer back. To her, the world was dead.
If only... If only, she thought to herself. If only I had realized sooner... If only I wasn't so foolish.
'I love you, Yui.'
What empty words. These words meant nothing to her anymore.
She sighed, looking up. It began to rain. She felt alone, cold. Looking around, she reconized nowhere.
Lost.
She was always lost. She was lost through her emotions. Now she was lost through her own actions.
Hugging herself, she looked for a shelter. She picked the wrong area.
No where to go.
That's how she felt. She had nowhere to go. She felt lonely.
Agony fell on her heart. If he were still here... She wouldn't be alone.
He would guide her back. She would be back.
Saved.
That's what he would do. He would save her. But it was much to late.
Everything around her blurred. Her vision was failing. She felt dizzy.
She felt ill, but she couldn't stop.
Black.
Everything went black.
'Yui...'
A voice called to her.
'Yui, wake up.'
She did not stir.
'Yui!'
She lifted her head slowly, looking up.
'Su..Suboshi?' Was all she could mumble.
He smiled at her.
But was he not dead?
'I couldn't leave it like this. I had to say goodbye. I'm not ready to leave you so quickly...'
She looked at him. A ghost. He wasn't solid, she could see through him.
'Suboshi! I.. I lo-..'
'It's alright. I know. I love you, Yui.'
Yui held back tears.
Regret.
'I'm sorry I could not protect you. I am sorry, my Lady.'
She shook her head.
'It's not your fault!'
Before she could say anymore, he smiled at her.
Gone.
Alone, once more.
Atleast, she thought, Atleast I got this last chance.
Atleast I told him how I felt.
Now, I know.
I will not regret my actions again, she thought.
Never.
A/N: Well... that was freaking weird. I never write like this, I never write stuff like this. Heck, I am a humour writer OO;
Well... I uh... I hope you enjoyed this. I... I suppose I did Oo;
And, by the way, I am so freaking jealous of Yui. Towards the end, I got carried away, and I accidentally made it sound like it was me talking XD
Wow, I am a loser. Anywho. Bye, thanks for reading.
R&R are appreciated.