this is my first fan fic please review and tell me wat you think

disclaimer- i do not own mcr nor do i own naruto

'blah blah'(single quotes& underlined) things written to Tsunade or Naruto (mainly naruto)
blah blah (normal text) thoughts/dialogue
blah blah (italics)song lyrics

"The Ghost Of You"

I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together

Sakura POV

I told you once…
Before you left
That I would do anything for you
And I gave you my heart…..
ALL of me

I learned now that the body can live without the heart
But it is a painful task to completely separate from it

Me
The weak one on team 7 is now a jounin…
Would you be amazed?
Would you take a moment to look my way?
I doubt it…but than again I don't care anymore
After all I did cut all connections to my heart
I suppose I'm now the human ice cube
Instead of you, I guess Sai wasn't your only replacement

The Hokage told me that she would like me to participate in an S-rank mission
Who am I to say no to a mission? Any mission no matter the dangers
I accepted and I dearly hope this one will be the last
Because then I might see you, that is…
If the rumors are true…

I can't always just forget her
But she could try

Sasuke POV

How long has is been since I've seen Konoha?
Many years is all I know
Briefly I wonder about my so called friends
What would have happened if I stayed?
Would I be with Sakura?
She is the only reason why I regret leaving that pathetic village

Hn
I suppose she has moved on by now, or at least I can hope
For I think I can only accomplish this one mission,
It's my destiny to kill him,
My last wish will be to make sure he goes to hell with me

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see

Sakura POV

This mission…
It's far away from home, in the middle of nowhere
I hope Naruto can forgive me
I didn't tell him that I'm leaving
Or that I probably won't make it back
I have some chakra left to heal myself
But why do that?
The most important thing is that mission is complete
For the last jutsu I do
I call upon Tomoe my favorite summon
I give her two scrolls for Tsunade and
And I give her another scroll for Naruto…

With a poof she is gone…
My eyelids are becoming heavy
So this is the end…
How peaceful
The pain is starting to numb
All my pain…

'Thank you'

You are
Never coming home

Tsunade POV

WHAT!!!!!!!
She couldn't
She wouldn't
But she is or did…
I knew that I shouldn't have sent her alone
But if I did that she would think I think of her as weak

As the scroll falls to the floor Shizune can see the beginning of the letter that is causing Tsunade so much pain

'I'm so sorry shishou'

Never coming home

Naruto POV
Sakura-chan why?!?!?!?!

The scroll is now left forgotten on the counter as Naruto runs out the door

Could I? Should I?

Hinata POV

I pick up the scroll Naruto left
It's from Sakura
I can tell by the handwriting
And there is blood on it
I can tell that its still 'fresh'
So I suppose I can understand why he left

He has always loved her
And in a sense I can't compete with her
But I don't want to
He loves her as a sister
She is like a part of him
Someone to share the pain when a certain raven haired boy left and caused so much trouble
They are really close
I'm not allowed to be jealous that she interrupted us during our date

As I start to read I immediately feel guilty
Now Naruto will have another part of his heart forcibly ripped out from him
And I guess I'm going to be one of the few who still can warm it
Now the question is am I allowed to go after Naruto?
Could I be strong enough to help him?
Should I run after him, although he'll probably want to be alone?
Instead I walk to the Hokage's office to inform her that Naruto has left

I hate myself sometimes
I'm such a coward
I can't even help the person I love the most
I don't deserve him…

'Naruto if you never forgive me I understand
But first please read this so at least when you hate me you can truly see how my mind works then you can hate me…
The real me
The me that is always hidden behind this façade
The me that has always been locked up
The me that is…'

And all the things that you never ever told me

Naruto POV

Sakura…
You could have told me that you were hurting this much
Why did you always push away everyone who tried to help you?
And now you tell me everything
I don't have time to read it now!
Damn you Sakura!
You knew this was going to be your last mission
Or did you always bring that scroll around waiting…
Most off why didn't you tell me that you were going on a mission?

Sakura…
The tears are burning my eyes and making my vision blurry
But I refuse to stop
I will find you
I won't allow you to die alone
No one deserves that
Even that bastard who caused you all that pain
Sasuke…

'Hiding from everyone
The me that is now heartless
Naruto I think that you are the only true friend I have left
Yes yes I know that Hinata, Ino, Lee, and everyone else was there
BUT
You are the only one who could relate
Isolation…
Alienation…
We both know the meaning of this word
The question is do we isolate ourselves?
Or do others do it to us?'

And all the smiles that are ever

Sasuke POV

DAMN!!!!
Why can't I get you out of my head?
Why is it that whenever you appear you are either in tears or smiling
Except this time
This time you are alone both smiling and crying in great pain
Did I cause you this pain?
Maybe some
But I see blood
And I would never hurt you physically
I've already done enough damage emotionally and mentally

But I never hope to see that smile on your face
A look of everything
Forgiveness
Defeat
A love long forgotten
A shadow of the brilliant smile that you once had…

ever...

Kakashi POV

Why did I decide to be a sensei?
The kids rarely listen to you
They don't give you the respect you want
Or when they do listen to you the concept is lost in translation

The Hokage recently told me that Sakura…
As I stand by the memorial
I can't help but think about the main reason why I'll never teach again
These kids can die too easily
And the only thing you get in return is an empty space that they use to fill
More memories to dwell upon when their name is added to the list of heroes
To haunt me

The gifts
The voices
Past mistakes
And smiles
Right Obito
Rin
Asuma
Sakura…

'I guess it depends on the situation
You were alienated by others
While I did it to myself
But you are the one who can relate the most
Although Sasuke would be really the one who could understand me the best ne?
The isolated himself and left us
He left all of his ties behind in Konoha
Leaving behind team 7
His friends
Comrades
Taking the only things he deemed necessary
Kunais, shurikens, exploding tags, etc
And he unwillingly took another possession

My heart…'

Ever

Ino POV

My friendAnd one of your first
You used to look up to me

We used to get along so well
We used to pick flowers
Sleepover
Tell each other secrets
Talk

Together
Together we used to do this all Sakura
What happened to our friendship?

Right
He came
Sasuke
The cutest kid or at least that's what we all thought then and now
I wished I told you before
I only liked him because of his looks
That's all

I knew from the moment I saw the two of you together in the chunin exams in the forest of death,
Hell even before at that at the very beginning with that genjutsu hoax
You looked sad, a faraway look in you eyes
But he was the one who cheered you up
And when you weren't looking
HE smiled
Yes the ice-cube smiled because
HE was able to cheer you up

Sakura
My friend
No my sister
I know that I wouldn't have been much help
BUT you could have told me what was bothering you
I don't care about the damn competition we had over him
You were more important to me
But I couldn't say that you know I'm stubborn,
Duh thus the nickname pig

Why Sakura did you always hide behind that smile
You might have been able to fool others but not me
I've known you for to long
Seen you sad before

See I can understand you partially
It's better than hiding all your feelings from everyone
I miss you

But then again when faced with a decision of you or Shikumaru
We both know who I would choose
So I guess that I wouldn't have understood you since he is not gone away…
But I could have tried to ease the pain a bit
I can imagine the pain that you went through
Maybe…

Since I couldn't help you
All I can wish, pray for is your

Forgiveness for not being a good friend
Peace that you defeated your inner demons
Happiness that you finally found your place where you belong
Love that he waited for you and before you go your separate ways again that you got to see him one more time
Safe passage we all know where you were going to go I can only hope that you don't rip your wings to follow him….

Most of all I hope, pray, and wish for is that you don't die
I want a second chance!
A chance to make things up to you
I'm selfish I know
Can you blame me?
Would you hate me??...
Are you going to haunt me for all my mistakes….

'But I guess you could have deduced that
Although you can be quite dense sometimes
Naruto I know you to well
You probably haven't read this far yet
You're running
Away from the truth
Away from your fear
That in the end we are all meant to be alone
My death is my death
Singular
Me alone…'

Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now

Sakura POV

I guess I had more chakra then I give myself credit for
Or that Tsunade-shishou's teachings are more incredible that I give credit to
But now all I can do it curse it
For automatically healing me…making me live
Why does fate have to be so cruel?
Why?
Maybe it's to cause a little more pain in my life
But that would be a little paradoxical
For the pain is receding with my death
But maybe there is more…

I can hear
Echoes
My name
From the living…
My friends
Mentors
Teachers
The people I looked up to
Teammates
Brothers
Sisters
My equals

Begging me to stay for a little longer
But I guess I'm not alone like I thought
I didn't severe all the bonds from everyone
It's a bit heart warming
I'm not alone, sorry for telling you the wrong thing Naruto
In my time of need
MY death
The people I need most are here with ME
We might be wishing for polar opposites but they are here with me
Thank you…

'But then again Naruto
I suppose I'm not going to die completely alone
For the one who has my heart
Sasuke, if he is alive,
We will be together
He has my heart
And when I die
It will still be with him
So I guess I will be with the one I love the most
When I die…
How ironic'

At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

Sasuke POV

I need to be here
Here
Where is here
It's in the middle of nowhere
But nowhere is now here
Here is where time stands still
Nowhere is where something in me stops
Her heart
She is there
She is here
Alone
Why?
Blood is everywhere
Why?
She is so close
And yet
Not

I can't help but think this a dream
No
A nightmare

Destiny is to cruel
Take all that I love
Damn you
My family
Forcing me to decide between revenge and my friends making me lose them
My home
And now my love…

My heart
Her heart
They are one
No one can live without one
I had hers
She had mine
She has always had it

I walk to her
She is cold
My strength vanishes as I see her like this
I use the remaining bit to hold her and cry
For the first time since the massacre
I cry her name
And I cry…

'I suppose my life is that of a tragedy
Fate would have it no other way'

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see

Sakura POV

I feel something warm
Holding me
Falling and running down my cheek
I hear someone call my name
I'm so tired
Oh so tired
The end is near
But
I know I must open my eyes
If for just one more time
The light is coming
Please just wait
Give me one thing
Let me have one wish
Please let it be him
And give me time to make sure it is…

Sasu….ke?

My eyes open
Now I know fate is cruel

'but Naruto
Know that I…'

You are
Never coming home

Sasuke POV

Music to my ears
I think
She's alive
For now
Destiny is a bitch

Sakura don't leave me
Please
Heal yourself
For me…

How pathetic I'm not reduced to a crumbling mess of feelings and emotions
My impenetrable wall of ice has been demolished and melted
Because of her
My angel
My salvation from the everything
The one that kept me from falling to complete darkness
My Sakura

'Am at peace
And I understand the meaning'

Never coming home

Naruto POV

Why is it that everything I do it in vain?
And he
Yes HE takes all the glory?
But right now I could careless
He deserves to be the one with her
I know he wasn't the one to injure her
I can see his tears
I can feel his sadness permeating in the air
He can't see me
But I don't want him to
They deserve to be alone
Since they have each others hearts and when one stops the other will too
See Sakura-chan and Sasuke-teme the idiot of team 7 does have a brain…

But what will happen next?
I know that she won't come with me
But will he?

No not until he has finished his goal in life
His first goal
His second is dying, to revive his clan
His chance at happiness
So close yet so far…

'Of many things like the word
That use to best describe me
That still best describes me…'


Could I? should I?

Sakura POV

I hear him telling me to heal myself
I see him
Crying
Uchihas don't cry
But he does
I know now

But all I can do is smile
I'm so happy he is here
He doesn't give me my heart back
But I don't want it
For I have a replacement
Something even better
His heart

I know now that he gave it to me long ago
I just didn't know it then

With this knowledge could I do that jutsu that Tsunade-shishou taught me?
Do I have enough chakra? Should I if I do?
Do I want another chance at life?
Would he be there to?
But I guess I don't have to worry about those questions
The light is too close
The wounds are too deep
My chakra to low
He is too late

'Weak
Its human nature
Its everything
Its what makes you alive
Life is fragile
Hearts and love are both fragile
Weaknesses just exemplify this
It proves that we are human
And that to Sasuke…'

And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me

Sasuke POV

She smiles at me
That smile
The smile that I will never forget
The smile that is so full of meaning
The smile that I hate
Or will come to hate
Yet I can't hate her
The smile is still beautiful
This smile is slightly different
It has more meaning and it's real
And it's for me
Alone

But don't leave me!
I don't want to be alone anymore
Please come with me
I will do anything for you
I'll make each day enjoyable
Just please don't leave me alone Sakura
I…I …I love you with all my heart
The heart that you have…

'I was his weakness
That is why he called me weak
Because I was…that was meant to be motivation
So I would get stronger
And he wouldn't have to worry about me as much
And that his weakness wouldn't be so pathetically weak
Oh the irony of this is astounds me
Weak….that word…
Why couldn't he just say I love you so become stronger for me so…'

Never coming home

Sakura POV

Sasuke I'm sorry I can't
The light is so close
ButI got my many of my wishes granted
"…"
I got to see you for one last time
You told me you love me
I know that now
I wish I could stay but I can't
I'm so sorry Sasuke
Forgive me
I love you
With all my heart

That you have
Always and forever…

I feel a tear escape
I guess that my icy barrier is now melting too
And I can feel something warm pressing against my lips
The last thing I feel before the light engulfs me

'I wouldn't have to worry about you dying on me'

Never coming home

Shikamaru POV

It really does suck being a genius
You see things others don't
I can see and understand everything

Sakura why can't you see how you connect to so many?

Hinata would do anything for you
So that her love, Naruto, would be happy to know that you're happy

Tsunade would give up gambling AND drinking
For you to be back in the village

Kakashi would probably give up Icha Icha paradise
So that you can be happy and smile like you use to
And be that happy naïve girl you were when we were 12

Lee would give up being a ninja
Just to ensure your happiness even if it is with that traitor

Ino would give up the world
For you to just call her Ino-pig again so that she know that you acknowledge her as a friend still

Naruto would do anything for you
Even give up is goal to be Hokage

I'm sure Sasuke would also give up something for you too

And for me

You helped me
Although I doubt you know it
You gave me that chance to find my true love
Ino

Sakura for youI would give up anything but my life and Ino (if I did either Ino would castrate me)
So that you can come back to the village and be happy again

But once again being a genius sucks
I know from the message you sent to Naruto and Tsunade that you won't becoming back
I know that you were looking for a mission that would one day take your life
I know that you were depressed
But I didn't know the extent
Who could you hid behind that smile?
I don't deserve my IQ of over 200 if I couldn't foresee this

But still I will go after Naruto
And YOU
To find YOU and hope that YOU will live
And go back to the way YOU were before….

'I could be looking too deeply into these things
And maybe my brain is deceiving me
I was one of the smartest in our class
But not smart enough…'

Could I? Should I?

Lee POV

Sakura-san I knew from the beginning that you loved Sasuke-san
But I hoped that hard work would overcome genius
I guess I was mistaken in many ways
Hearts don't follow the same rules of logic and reason
And sometimes genius is overrated yet still can be considered better
But I wish I could have helped you Sakura-san
No I should have helped you
Please be alive still Sakura-san after all the lotus blossoms twice
But the question is…does that apply to a broken cherry blossom?

'To understand before that he loved me
But now I understand
And I'm at the end
Rock bottom
I know he probably wanted me to move on
Since we all knew from the beginning
His battle with Itachi would be the end of everything…'

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

Sasuke POV

Sakura…
Her last breathes and thoughts
They were all for me
My happiness
My forgiveness
My everything
I should be the one to tell her
That I was wishing all this time for the same things but for her too
Her last words
Destiny must be laughing down at us

I love you Sasuke-kun
Thank you

Sakura can you see all these scars
You gave me back something that I never wanted to see
My heart
Before I gave it back to you
It had so many scars
All from you
And him
I promise you
Once my vendetta is complete I will meet you
Just wait for me
That's what I want
I don't care for this world anymore
I have no reason to live save one

The Uchiha clan must be avenged then they will stop whispering to me
Chasing me
Haunting me
With wishes
With regrets
With mistakes they made
With a false hope that everything will be better
Most of all trying to get me to join them

Sakura please don't whisper to me
Don't haunt me with your smile
Just wait for me
That's all I can ask for
All I can ask from you
My love
Please…

'Maybe that's why he left
He knew it would be the end
Leave before becoming to attached
Possibly leaving behind
Childhood friends
A wife
Children'


If I fall

Sakura POV

I think…
I'm dead
I'm so warm now
I can move
But I don't want to leave this body yet
Or this world but
I can see everything
I know everything
I know I am dead

I guess that saying is true
When you're dead you understand all

Ino is crying, hoping wishing for so many things for me, and her
Hinata and TenTen are trying to comfort her hiding their own fears and worries
Shikamaru, Lee, Neji and Kakashi are coming with a small glimmer of hope
Tsunade-shishou is drunk trying to run away from it, the truth
Shizune is trying to calm down a drunken Tsunade while knowing the inevitable truth
Naruto is there hiding behind that tree, crying, a part of his heart disappearing
Sasuke is crying, asking me to wait
He didn't have to ask I would anyways
Always for you Sasuke-kun till the end of time
Even if that means I will fall in the depths of hell
As long as if I am with you I can deal with anything

'If that's true then
I think I would die truly happy'

If I fall (down)

Sasuke POV

She died
I'm alone
The truth hits me
Knocking the wind out of me
Don't worry it won't be long
I will join you soon
And I will leave the world with the knowledge that I won't be the only one falling
He will go too
Besides I have something to look foreword to
Her
Maybe I can steal one more kiss…

'But Naruto this is the end
And I want to let you know'

At the end of the world

Naruto POV

So this is how it endsSasuke offered Sakura everything
But it was too late
I was too late too
What ever happened to the promise that we would always protect Sakura no matter what?
I guess I was the one who broke that promise first by letting Sasuke-teme almost die
From there all went down hill
Till now
Now is the end
Who knew that the end would leave you so cold?

"That I will miss you
And I know that…'

Or the last thing I see

Sasuke POV

With one last look
I leave
The sooner I go
The sooner I will see her

'I believe in you'

You are
Never coming home

Shikamaru POV

As we come closer
I can see Naruto looking torn
Sakura is on the ground behind him

A small smile adorns her features
This image, mainly her smile, it's haunting
But from what I see
She died with no regrets and happy
That is if her smile doesn't lie
It shouldn't it's her true smile

From what I've deduced
Sasuke is still alive
I sigh deeply
Two things come to mind
Naruto didn't stop him from leaving and

I would have thought that it would rain thunder clouds trying to drown and strike down the earth
But it's a clear day
Hell didn't freeze over either
Maybe it's because she hasn't left yet
She is probably lingering waiting for Sasuke…

'You will make a great Hokage
And'

Never coming home

Kakashi POV

I suppose we are too late
But right on time
And I can't help but think
She died happy and that is all I could have hoped for in this situation

I walk over to Naruto
And remind him that he should go home because a certain Hyuuga is waiting for him
And he should count his blessings

'make sure you make Hinata happy or else I might have to kick your ass for her when you die'

Never coming home

Ino POV

From the beginning I knew she wasn't going to come back alive
But I hoped
All I can do now is hug Shikamaru and cry
But be grateful that he is still here with me…

'Tell Ino that I'm sorry for ignoring her all these years
I just didn't want to bother her
And make her worry about me…
But I guess that I did that in the end anyways'

Never coming home

Lee POV

The funeral was beautiful
She was buried under the sakura tree
It was blossoming
So full of youth
Like how she was….
Was
Sakura I promise you that I will train harder so when I find my love I will be able to save her since I have failed you
And for the last time I gave her the good guy pose…

'Tell Lee thank you for always trying to cheer me up'


And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me

Naruto POV

Tsunade ba-chan is droning on about Sakura
We will never forget about her
Our Teammate
Dear friend
And daughter

I know that she will forever stay in my heart
And her scroll for me
It will never be forgotten
Neither will all the memories that we shared
Or the smiles that you freely gave out when we were genin

'and Naruto
I love you so much
Thank you so much for everything
-Sakura'

Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?

Sasuke POV

I finally defeated Itachi and the voices stopped
They were avenged
I can finally go
Go to where?
The one place for me
One place where I need to be
Konoha
My once home

She is there
And it's the place where I will be put to rest is with her
I will make it there
There is no doubt in my mind
We will always rest together
Sakura…
I love you too
Thank you…

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...

Naruto POV

We found one week after Sakura died
Sasuke
He was wounded badly
But now badly enough to die from blood loss
But we all knew what had happened
He looked like he was sleeping next to her grave
That's when it rained, but the sun was still out
It had to be Sakura's tears of happiness that she is finally with Sasuke
After all these years they are together

Be happy
That is my wish for the both of you….
Be happy and find peace within yourselves…
My last wish
That both of you made it to heaven or found happiness in the afterlife

Authors note again

please review tell me what you think its my first fanfic! flames and harsh criticism is welcome