Uh Oh!
Shit! She was supposed to be meeting Blair in 45 minutes. They were taking the kids to the park. They just wanted to catch up and have coffee. Blair had been so busy with Jake and Zach lately. They were such a handful. Serena needed to get Eliza ready for the park. It was a freezing January afternoon. Snow had cleared 2 weeks ago but there was still a fresh breeze. Serena couldn't believe this was happening again. Her, Dan and Eliza had just settled into family life. They were happy. Everything was perfect but this was going to mess everything up. Serena couldn't figure out how she felt about this. She just couldn't focus. Serena pulled herself off the bedroom floor and pulled her boots on. She got a jumper out of her closet and pulled it over her head. Serena walked out into the living room to see a smiling happy Eliza sitting on the floor. She was playing with some mega block and her doll. Her little blond curls falling over her face as she concentrated on sticking the blocks together. Cinderella was on the TV in the background. Serena had put it on for her while she got dressed. It was Eliza's favourite film. Eliza looked just like Dan when she was playing. Her little face concentrated so hard on what she was playing with. Even though Eliza was spitting image of Serena, she definitely had traits of Dan in her. Her facial expressions were always like Dan's. It made Serena laugh when she looked at her sometimes. Eliza had Dan's ears and a mixture of both Serena and Dan's noses. Her eyes were the exact same blue as Serena and obviously her hair was the same curly blond hair. Serena stood watching her little girl playing.
" Eliza" Her blond little head shot up.
" Momma" Eliza stood up and ran over to Serena. Serena bent down as Eliza jumped into her arms and kissed the top of her head.
" Shall we go to see auntie Blair and The boys now?"
" yeah" Eliza grinned placing her little hand on Serena's chin and kissing her on the cheek.
" Come on then" Serena placed Eliza on the ground and walked towards the closet near the front door. Serena grabbed Eliza's scarf, Ralph Lauren Pink Davyn Jacket and her Ralph Lauren stripped hat, mittens and scarf. Serena grabbed her DKNY trench coat. Taking Eliza hand and walking her over to the kitchen. She placed the little blond on the kitchen work top next to their coats. Kissing Eliza's forehead, Serena wrapped the little scarf around her neck and put her mittens on. Serena grabbed Eliza's coat and wrapped her up warm and zipped her coat up. Serena put on her own coat before walking over to pull Eliza's little Ugg boots and her maxi cosi loola stroller out of the cupboard. Serena slipped Eliza's shoes on and strapped her up in the stroller. Pushing Eliza out the door, Serena looked around at their loft.
" B, How are you?" Serena exclaimed strolling towards Blair who was standing with the boys in their Baby Weavers Twin Buggy.
" I'm good S. So tired though. Chuck went back to work this week so I have had to make sure the boys didn't keep him up all night. Its been pretty hard. The first month has been easy with Chuck being their all the time, but Bass industries really needs him so he has to go back. How have you been? " Blair smiled bending over and kissing Eliza on the head.
" Yeah. Good. " Serena murmured. She couldn't lie to Blair, but she wasn't ready to tell her the truth either. Blair raised her eyebrow at Serena. She knew that she was lying but she wasn't going to press Serena on the subject. She knew Serena and Serena would tell Blair when she was ready. Even if it was killing her not knowing what was wrong with her friends. Blair turned her attention to the little girl in the buggy smiling.
" How has my little Eliza been? Have you been a good girl for your mommy? Not like my little boys hey? No they keep their mommy up all night but you are a good girl" Blair cooed at Eliza kissing and tickling her, making Eliza laugh.
" B, stop" Eliza giggled her cute little voice making Blair laugh.
Serena smiled at her best friend and peered into the little Bass boys. Both boys were sound asleep. Both in matching outfits. They looked so adorable. Both boys had tiny Kissy Kissy Velour Buntings on. Underneath that Serena could see they had yellow polo shirts on with plaid dungarees. It was totally Chuck Bass. Serena stroked each boy's rosy red cheeks before tucking their blankets back up around their shoulders.
" Come on then" Serena and Blair started pushing the prams through Central Park just wandering aimlessly. Blair and Serena chatted about Work, School, Fashion, Babies and Chuck and Dan. Serena never once intended to tell Blair what was wrong. Blair never once pressed on the subject either. Blair and Serena sat on a bench just relaxing and talking about anything and everything, apart from what was bothering Serena. Eliza woke up and Serena un-strapped her from her buggy. Blair and Serena decided to take Eliza to the play area. Serena pushed the empty buggy while Eliza ran ahead in front. Once they had got to the park Serena sat by the sleeping boys while she watched Blair take Eliza onto the play apparatus. After 20 minutes of playing with Blair, Eliza came running over to Serena.
" Momma! Momma" Eliza yelled, giggling and jumping onto the bench and cuddling into Serena's side. Blair ran towards Serena, Eliza, Jake and Zach.
" Did you have fun playing with auntie B?" Serena picked Eliza up and sat her on her lap. Serena combed Eliza's fringe out of her face and clipped it back with a little butterfly clip.
" Yeah, auntie B is funny" Eliza giggled as Blair sighed and dropped down onto the bench next to Serena.
" Ahh she's hard work S. Definitely your daughter. Full of energy. I don't think I've had that much exercise since…"
" Enough B, Young ears around" Blair chuckled smiling at Serena.
" How are my little boys S?" Blair peeped into the buggy.
" They are fine. Still sound asleep. Zach stirred and woke up but once I placed his pacifier in his mouth he nodded right off"
" Momma?" Eliza interrupted Serena.
" Yeah baby?"
" I wan food pease."
" I'm hungry to baby. Lets go get something to eat" Serena stood up and started gathering their things. Blair did the same. Serena put Eliza in the buggy and they started walking to a little café that Blair and Serena used to go to when they decided to skip school.
" She's definitely your daughter. Always hungry. I was wondering. Is there actually any traces of Dan in her? Or is she even his?" Blair chuckled smiling. Serena barged shoulders with her.
" Shut up B" Serena laughed.
" No serious. She's a spitting image of you, Her personality is exactly like yours. Either Dan hasn't got very strong genes or Eliza isn't his" Blair joked.
" Well poor Jake and Zach. They have a mixture of both you and Chuck. Plus theres two of them. One Waldorf/Bass Baby was enough. I feel sorry for the kids their age when they grow up, if they are anything like you and Chuck were" Serena laughed and added...
"...Oh you know she is Dan's. She has his brain and facial expressions. And she does not stop talking. She definitely got the rambling from Dan. She has my features but when she pulls some faces, she looks spitting image of Dan. I think its quite even to be honest. Maybe next time it will be more like Dan" Serena blushed at the end.
" Oh god don't tell me you and Humphrey are planning to add to your brood. I'm sure Eliza is enough work already. Zach and Jake definitely wont be getting anymore siblings. This is it for me. I will not make myself go through that again, It doesn't ,matter how much I want a little girl. I can just borrow Eliza to do girly things with" Blair smiled at Serena. Serena had turned red. They crossed over the road and headed into the café. They ordered food and sat at a private table out of the way.
" S, are you okay?" Blair looked at her friend worried.
" Yeah. Good" Serena stared ahead. Concentrating on where she was going.
" Serena Van der Woodsen! "
" Humphrey" Serena corrected. Blair sighed.
" Same thing S. But you cannot lie to me. I am Blair Waldorf. I know everything about you. I have been your best friend since nursery. You can't get anything past me. Whatever is happening, you can tell me. We have got through worse stuff I'm sure" Blair glanced at her best friend.
" I don't know what to do B. I'm so confused about everything. I have made a mistake and I don't know what to do about it"
" S, Is it Dan? Are you regretting marrying him?" Blair was concerned now. Serena was shocked with Blair's remark.
" No! Of course not. I love Dan so much. I would never regret marrying him. He is the only one I ever want to be with. All I want is to have him by my side through life. Nobody but him" Serena sighed thinking of Dan.
"B, if I tell you something you can't tell anyone. Not even Chuck. Not until Dan knows. He needs to hear this from me"
" I promise I won't tell anyone. Not even Chuck"
" I'm pregnant again B and I'm so confused" Blair gasped shocked.
"I don't know what to do. I mean yeah its not the same as deciding on what to do when I was pregnant with Eliza. I need to think about Eliza and Dan now. Whatever I decide is going to effect their lives. Last time I made the decision, all I wanted was to have a piece of Dan with me, all my life. To be loved. I wanted to be tied to him. I didn't really think of how this would effect her. I wanted to keep her because I loved her from day one. I couldn't abort my baby. I was even willing to do this all alone. If Dan hadn't of found out. I wouldn't even be living here right now and nobody apart from you, would know why I left. I mean I was 17, living with the new Van der Woodsen Bass family, I had just split up with the love of my life. I wasn't stable at all. I wasn't married, living in my own home, with a job was I? But now. I have all those things. I am married. I do live in my own home. I have just finished college and I was going to start working and put Eliza into nursery. But my life will be put on hold once again. I didn't think about me and my future. At the moment I was alone and all I cared about was my little baby. I would of dropped everything just to have her. I didn't have anything to lose. But now I do. I have Dan and Eliza, a baby is just going to hold this all up again. I don't know what to do Blair I really don't"
" SERENA!" Blair raised her voice. Glaring at Serena.
" Stop rambling! Jeez you turn into a Humphrey and this happens to you"
" What am I going to do Blair?" Serena rubbed her forehead and looked at Eliza who was drinking out of her sippy cup.
" Okay truthfully, You need to speak to is his child as well. But first you need to ask yourself could you kill yours and Dan's child? Eliza's little brother or sister? Could you get rid of Dan's Baby S? " Serena sunk into her chair more. Of course she couldn't get rid of this baby. She just didn't want Dan to make more sacrifices for her again. He had already given up so much. She didn't want him to have to give up his career now.
" I can't get rid of it B, But how am I going to cope? What's Dan going to say about this? I can't expect him to support me, Eliza and a new baby. I can't be a proper mom to Eliza if I'm going to bring a new child into our life. I want to be able to give her everything she deserves. It won't be fair on her" Serena looked at her little girl who was nibbling on a biscuit from Serena's coffee while waiting for their food. The little girl was totally oblivious to the adults. She was too busy observing her surroundings. She clutched Mr snuzzy, Her penguin teddy, to her chest curling into Serena's side.
" Well S, You have sacrificed a lot too. Not just Dan. Listen you both love each other. You both love Eliza with all your hearts. You are brilliant parents. You can handle this S. I believe in you. If anyone, you and Dan could handle this the best. The way you are with E you could definitely handle one more. You both love that little girl so much you would do anything for her. This is a good thing, I'm sure of it" Blair smiled at Serena and grabbed her hand and gave it a squeeze.
" Thanks B. I really appreciate it. I just didn't know who to turn to. I needed someone outside to just help me get my head straight.."
" DADDY!" Eliza squealed inturpting Serena's sentence. She Climbed out of the booth and started running towards Dan. Both Blair and Serena turned their heads, shocked to see Dan drop his soccer bag scoop Eliza into his arms.
" Hey little one. Did you miss Daddy today?" Dan kissed Eliza's nose.
" Yeah Daddy" Eliza grinned as Dan grabbed his bag and made his way over to Serena and Blair.
" Hi Blair, Hey Baby" Dan slid into the booth next to Serena and kissed her on the lips. Eliza sat on Dan's lap little hands grabbing his collar.
" Hi" Serena smiled resting her head on Dan.
" What are you doing here Humphrey? This is supposed to be a girly day" Blair smiled at Dan. Blair and Dan had become friends over time. They could actually stand being under a 10 metre range of each other now without wanting to kill each other.
" Oh I was finishing off some work at college and then I met Nate for soccer. We had just finished and I came in here to get a coffee before going home to finish my book" Dan intertwined his fingers with Serena's.
" Oh that's what that smell is" Blair gave Dan a dirty look, eying up his style of clothing. Dan was in a plain white tee with navy track bottoms and white trainers.
" Well not everyone can pull off the bow tie look" Dan smirked, Serena chuckling.
" Well obviously not everyone can"
" And thank god for that" Serena and Dan smiled at each other. Serena kissed Dan on the neck. Blair looked at the couple who were staring into each others eyes, Totally oblivious to the rest of the world around them. Even Eliza was connected in a world of her own staring at her mommy and daddy.
" Wow, this is awkward. I should be getting off. The boys will wake up soon and will want to be changed and fed. Chuck is finishing in a bit and I'm sure he will want to spend time with the boys before they go bed. I will see you later S, Text me later on okay? Bye Dan, Bye Eliza" Blair stood up and gave Eliza a kiss. She pushed the boys out of the Café leaving Serena and Dan at the table.
" Okay then. That was weird. Is everything okay with Blair?" Dan turned to Serena.
" Yeah she's fine. Chuck went back to work this week so this is the first time she's looked after the boys all day on her own. I guess she's just tired. You know how hard it is having a newborn baby, she has two so she must be exhausted" Serena strugged.
" Oh right I'm sure Dorota will help out though. Eliza are you hungry? Shall daddy buy you and mommy some fries?" Eliza squealed
" Fries, Fries, Fries" The little girl chanted bouncing up and down on Dan's lap. Serena and Dan laughed at their adorable 2 year old.
" Okay little miss piggy, daddy will get you some fries" Serena laughed, Dan stood up and put Eliza into the space where he was sitting. He smiled turning around to see his daughter curled into Serena's side as the little girl played with Serena's hand. The other hand was stroking Eliza's soft blond curls. Dan smiled. He sure loved his girls.
Okay this is probably going to be a two shot. Im not quite sure yet.
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xoxo DerenaGG