My heart sinks slightly when I stare at myself in the mirror, no wonder that Charlie hasn't wanted to be physical with me in weeks.

I'm hideous.

How have I let my once skinny figure, turn into a fat mess.

Since when did my stomach hang over so much? Soon enough I won't be able to see my toes.

I grimace when I see the fat stuck to my thighs, how have I let this happen to myself?

I shake my head as I give myself a reassuring look, it's okay Riles. If you can put on weight then you can lose it.

I'll just have to go onto a strict diet.

I'll just limit my calorie intake and just start doing my exercise.

And then hopefully Charlie will want to have sex with me again.

I bit my lip before I pick up a pair of leggings and a baggy jumper so that I'm able to hide my unflattering features such as my stomach and bulging hips.

I let out a small sigh when I glance at myself in the mirror once again, I look even bigger than before.

I tie my chocolate coloured curls into a messy bun at the top of my head, before filling in my eyebrows and applying a few coats of mascara to my eyelashes.

I take my phone off it's charger and quickly send Charlie, a quick text.

'Heyy babe, when are you coming to mine? Classes start in 40 mins xxxx'

Nausea waves over me when I hear obnoxious giggling coming from my brothers bedroom, I open my door slightly and peak my head out to hear the owner of the stupidest laughter I've ever heard.

I see a girl with caramel coloured hair, a jumper dress which barely covered her ass and a pair of knee high boots.

To be fair to this girl, her boots where really quite nice, I'll have to investigate where she got them from.

My phone dings which breaks me away from my spying.

Charlie: 'Sorry Riles, I'm goin to Zays before school instead. See u at lunch xxxx'

My heart sinks, as frustrated tears attempt to escape from my eyes, but I quickly shake them away.

He's not been the same with me in weeks.

It'll be because of all the weight I've gained, Charlie's really into his fitness, I bet the sight of me is repulsing him.

I grab my bag before leaving my bedroom and heading towards the kitchen.

My stomach growls as my the scent of freshly cooked bacon enters my nose.

I can have bacon, when I'm skinny. I tell myself.

"Hey Honey!" My mother greets as she kisses the side of my head and then dashes towards the front door of our apartment, "Bye Honey!"

I make my way towards the table where the food for me and my brother's have been laid out, I quickly take my plate and scrape it into the bin so that I'm not tempted to devour the mouth-watering food.

I turn my head when I hear that obnxoious giggling once again, I stiffle laughter when I see an annoyed look cross my brothers face.

"Morning Riles!" He greets as he steps towards me and ruffles my hair.

I narrow my eyes up at him, "Hey Josh"

"Have you already ate your breakfast?"

I shrug, "I had some toast, I wasn't feeling up to mom's fry up"

Josh shrugs, "Fair enough"

"Josh, aren't you going to introduce?"

"You speak english, introduce yourself"

I snort before turning towards the blonde girl, "Hey, I'm Riley"

"I'm Missy"

"And we need to get to school" I say as I glance towards my brother who's currently wolfing down his bacon.

The black haired boy nods before grabbing his car keys and his backpack from the living room, "Let's go"

"So has Josh mentioned me?" Missy whispers in my ear, making me cringe slightly.

"Josh only ever mentions Josh"

Josh laughs loudly, "You are not wrong"

I glance at Missy who's expression looks slightly fallen. Sympathy grows inside of me for this girl, she's obviously crazy about my brother and the likely-hood is she was just another girl to him.

"So Missy, I've not seen you around School much" I say awkwardly as we step-inside of the elevator.

Josh snorts, "That's usually because she's sucking dick"

Missy glares at him before giving me a sheepish smile, "He's just joking...he's joking"

I smile slightly, "It's okay, your secret is safe with me"

"It's not a secret!"

The caramel haired girl slaps my older brother, "Josh!" She whines.

"Come on Mis, you know that's what your known for, why else do you think we hooked up?"

Missy face flashes hurt and rejection, I resist the urge to give her a tight hug and offer her some green-tea, depsite the fact that we're in a elevator.

"Yeah, your right" Missy murmurs softly as she stares intently at her shoes.

The elevator doors open to reveal a smirking figure, the person nods at me before stepping inside.

"Hey man" My brother greets.

Farkle nods, "Hey, you still owe me"

Josh nods, "Yeah it's twenty right?"

"Yeah give it me tonight"

My eyebrows furrow together, "What's tonight?"

"I'm throwing a party baby Matthews"

I narrow my eyes, "I'm not a baby, there's two years difference between us"

Farkle ignores me and just chuckles.

"Riley, why don't you come to the party?" Missy says quietly.

"Because Riles, isn't sociable. The only person she talks to is her tool of a boyfriend"

I narrow my eyes, "Charlie isn't a tool"

"He's the definition of tool!"

"I really think, that you should come tonight. It'd be nice to get to know you"

I nod as I smile towards the older girl, "I'll think about it"

"Don't think, just come!" Missy says as she reaches forward and grabs my hand, "I'll come your place after school and then we can get ready together"

I sigh slightly before nodding, "Sure, whatever."

Farkle blinks as he looks up at me, "You're actually going to attend a party"

I shrug, "I may as well try it"

Josh grins as he wraps an arm around my shoulder, "Baby sis, I promise you'll love it"

…

I let out a small sigh as I wait for Charlie where we usually meet before we head towards the cafeteria.

Where the hell is he?!

"Matthews!" A voice sneers.

I roll my eyes before I turn my head towards the owner of the voice, "Karen"

"I heard, you're going to Farkle's party tonight"

I nod stiffly towards my ex-best friend, "Yeah I think I am"

"Is Charlie coming?"

"I don't know, I've not really spoke to him about it"

Karen tilts her head, "Well I was texting him about it and he seemed pretty keen on the idea"

My eyes narrow massively, "You where texting him?"

"I have been all morning"

I nod, "If you'll excuse me" I say harshly as I barge past her as soon as I see a familiar flop of brown hair.

"What the hell?!" I cry out loudly.

Charlie blinks as he looks at me, "Hello to you too"

I cross my arms firmly against my chest, "So you decide to ignore all my messages this morning but you still find the time to message Karen"

Charlie rolls his eyes, "I replied to your message"

"Yeah the first one. And why the hell where you speaking to Karen?"

"Because she just wanted to know if I was going to Farkle's party"

"Well..."

"Well what?"

"Are you going?"

"Yeah I was going to go with Zay"

"Why not with me?"

"Because Riley, when do you ever go to parties"

A small smirk graces my lips, "Well for a matter of fact, I am going to Farkle's party"

"Bullshit"

"No I'm going, Missy convinced me"

Charlie snorts, "Missy Bradford, the slut of the century, convinced you Riley Matthews, to go to a party"

I nod as my eyes narrow even further, "Yeah, why are you finding that so hard to believe?"

"Why are you trying to pick at fight?"

Anger rises inside of me.

"Why the hell are you being an asshole?"

"Look, I'm not in the mood to fight"

"Well I'm not in the mood to be ignored, all the fucking time!" I hiss loudly.

"Whatever, I'll see you tonight" Charlie mutters before he walks past me.

I blink as I stare after him, what the fuck.

I feel tears burn my eyes.

I think I'm losing him, I don't think I'm good enough for him anymore.