A/N: fic updated 16th November 2016 since my writing has matured (at least, I'd like to think it has) since 2013 and frankly, it was borderline excruciating to read what my 15 year old self decided was worthy to be published online. I have kept the essence of the story the same but changed the style/wording a bit. Hope you enjoy and let me know it

It had all been going so well. In fact, I had resorted to pinching myself a couple of times a day just to make sure that I was, in fact, awake. Tamaki would normally be on the lookout for whenever I did this. In anticipation he would rush forward (much like he did at Ouran), encircle my wrists with his hands and 'distract' me. Didn't want me hurting myself apparently but I never did pinch myself that hard. And in fairness, I didn't mind his distractions either. But don't tell him that.

Each week had a routine; Monday to Friday we had agreed that I would do my pro bono cases while Tamaki worked in the Suoh Corporation. The weekends would just be for us, last week we had gone to the theatre on Broadway and the weekend before that we had gone to see the Aurora Borealis. The play was an engrossing legal drama, which I'm sure must have bored Tamaki stiff but he sat through it with me anyways. As for the Northern lights...all I can say is; it's cold up there and Tamaki knows ways to keep us warm. Method No 1? Snuggling under cosy furs with the stars as your ceiling, fluorescent waves dancing across the sky.

For the first time in my life...I was ecstatically happy. It only looked up, since I had found out this morning that I was expecting our baby. It would mean the end of our international adventures – for now at least, since I imagined Tamaki wouldn't let anything be of harm to me. Hmm. This could be annoying, but because it was Tamaki's and my child I also knew it would be something that would only add to our happiness. And then my world came tumbling down. Literally. As I was leaving the courts someone pushed me from behind. That was the last thing I remembered.

"I see you've finally come round Miss Fujioka." There was a pounding pain in the side of my head that woke me. I looked up at the speaker but only found my reflection in the glass that served as a one-way mirror. My state was a sorry one, blood slightly crusted near my temples and a haggard expression on my face. I hugged my arms close to myself in an attempt at self-comfort.

"Why did you kidnap me? You have to let me go. And my name is Mrs Suoh now." The response was a laugh that sounded more like an evil cackle and was one that chilled me to the bone.

"I don't have to do that at all. If you listen to me, you and your baby might have a chance at life. And if you do you won't be known by that name any longer so you might as well get used to it now." I involuntarily placed a protective hand over my abdomen but the baby inside couldn't be physically felt for a few more months. Baby.

"What do you want from me?" my voice broke and I realised that I was crying, my tears making warm salty tracks down my cold face. Weeping was painful, made everything real. "Surely you're not going to hold me here forever?" The door suddenly opened and I sat up straight.

"If it was up to me I'd do away with you right now," this new speaker's voice was cruel. "But my boss says that's a bit too harsh. 3 conditions for you and the child to live." He sat across from me.

"1. Change your surname. 2. Leave Japan. 3...Never see Tamaki again." I was struck speechless. This could NOT be happening right now. Not when my life was this good. Not when there was a baby, my baby, our baby.

"No buts Princess. Take it or leave it. Otherwise the wrong decision will be the last one you'll make." I closed my eyes. There was no way I'd leave here alive if I didn't agree with them. I just hoped that this choice would be worth all the regret, sadness and suffering that my friends and family would have to go through. But at the same time I knew that this child I was carrying deserved a life, and I was the person who had the responsibility to give them a chance.

"Fine," I replied. "Take me away...forever."

If only I didn't feel the pinches.