Prologue
Sam Winchester had been devastated by his father's death, but he refused to tell his brother that. He didn't want to bother Dean anymore.
Dean had been hurting him a lot since John's death. "It's your fault Mom died," Dean told Sam at one point. Sam had bolted to the bathroom after Dean said that and cried himself to sleep in the bathtub. It had always been a habit of his. When Samuel Matthew Winchester couldn't handle something, he would always bolt to the bathtub. He'd stay in there for a few days.
When Sam and Dean had fought about the faith healer incident and left Nebraska, Dean had gone out for two days to let the steam out. Sam thought Dean was leaving him, especially after what had happened in the asylum. He had retreated to the Bathtub of Safety as Jim Murphy had dubbed it once. Dean and John could never get Sam to come out. He would come out on his own. The amount of pain that Sam was feeling would determine how many days he stayed in a bathtub. His shortest time in the tub had lasted six hours. His longest time in the tub had lasted five days.
After the incident with the faith and the reaper, Sam had stayed in the tub for four days. When Dean, who had told him time and time again that Mary's death wasn't his fault, had said that it was Sam's fault that she had died, Sam had spent six days in the tub. Dean telling him had come only a few days after he had been punched. He had apologized for telling Sam that it was his fault about Mary's death, so Sam had finally left the safety of the bathroom.
Sam was planning on leaving. After Dean had told him about his feelings of guilt about John's death, Sam knew it was his fault. He didn't want to be hurt anymore, and he definitely didn't want to hurt Dean. Sam still remembered that final fight he had with his father over Dean, and Sam wished he was dead instead of John. He was going to Virginia because he was in West Virginia and that was just easier. He just wondered whether Dean would care or not. He doubted that because he knew Dean hated him and didn't love him anymore.
He would soon find out that what he thought his brother felt were wrong, but he wouldn't find out until he had been hurt badly.
TBC
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