I spotted him across the room instantly. He smiled and walked over to me, sweetly wrapping him arms around me, holding me close.
"Hey baby, I missed you," He whispered in my ear.
"Me, too," I lied. I couldn't help it. I loved that he loved me. Who wouldn't want Joe Jonas to be in love with them? But sadly I didn't love him back. I thought I did at first, but then I realized it was just me being star struck.
He bent down and kissed me, pressing his lips passionately into mine. I always wished I felt something when he did that, but sadly I didn't.
"Wanna dance?" he asked. I faked a smile, and he led me to the room with the DJ. He pulled me to him, and we moved together to the upbeat music, barely any space between us. I forced myself to pay attention to the music more than him.
I spotted his brother Kevin, across the room and suddenly got very sad. I broke out of Joe's embrace and raced into an empty hall.
"What is wrong with me?" I slammed my head back on the wall. I suddenly felt horrible for what I was doing to Joe. It wasn't right.
"You ok?" I jumped, when a familiar voice asked me this. I turned and saw Kevin standing there. He looked amazing tonight, in his tight jeans and button up shirt. Embarrassed, I quickly wiped away the tears that had appeared on my cheeks.
"Fine," I lied, yet again.
"You're lying, Heidi. Do you really love him?" he asked, seeing through everything. I wanted to say yes with every fiber of my being, but I knew I couldn't lie to him. I began sobbing and he came over, wrapping his arms around me.
"I want to! I really want to love him, but I just…" I said into his chest, my tears soaking though his shirt.
"I know, I can see it in your face." He put his finger under my chin, lifting it up so he could look into my eyes. "You can't force yourself to love someone, it just happens. Trust me, I know."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I love this girl, but I know I could never have her," he answered sadly. I looked up into his eyes again. They looked sad, sparkling in the dim light. I felt sorry for him and wanted to comfort him. I wrapped my arms around his waist, laying my head against his chest. He hugged me back, resting his head onto of mine. He strong arms felt right around me, and I felt myself getting lost in them.
Without thinking, I took my arms wrong around my waist, reached up, taking his face softly in my hands, and pressing my lips to his. My stomach flipped as he pulled me closer to him, deepening the kiss. I felt his tongue ask for entrance, and I granted. He help me tightly as if he left go, I would run. I began to get light-headed, as the passion picked up.
Finally we pulled apart, both panting and out of breath. He smiled down at me, but looked confused.
"What was that for?" I shrugged.
"I wanted to know what it felt like to kiss some you loved." I instantly blushed; surprised I had actually just said that. I pulled away and walked down the hall a bit. I heard footsteps behind me, and Kevin grabbed my arm, turning me around.
"I always wondered what it felt like to. Guess now we can both stop wondering." My eyes grew wide.
"You mean…."
"I love you, Heidi." Tears sprang into my eyes as he kissed me again, soft and sweet. I finally felt safe and happy, there in his arms. Finally knew what it felt like to truly love some who loved you back.