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Mac dialogue

Stella dialogue

Stella is leaving CSI NY, sadly. but not in my mind... (: Mac&&Stella forever!

Mac's POV

There are boundaries between co-workers that cannot be crossed, things that should not be said, things that should not be done. One of those boundaries, is in the sexual case. The boss should not hit on his co-worker, sexually harass his co-worker, or in my case fall in love with a co-worker. I have crossed that boundary. i have fallen in love with Detective Stella Bonasera.

God knows when I fell in love with her. It was probably ever since she stepped through my doors on the first day of the job; even when I was still married to Claire. After Claire died she had been there for me. Not just for Detective Taylor, her crime fighting partner; but for Mac Taylor, her best friend.

Working at the crime lab doesn't give us much time for a social life. But even with our demanding jobs, she's dated a few men and I've dated a few women. And during my relationships with the very few women I've dated, my heart has lied with Stella. And I fear that it always will.

I would love for us to be together. I would love to be able to wrap her in my arms and know that she's mine; for that I would give anything. But 2 major problems stand in the way of this to ever occur. First, that boundary that I mentioned before, and second, does Stella feel the same way.

The first problem, I could possibly get around. I mean, Danny and Lindsey are co-workers and happily married. We wouldn't have to tell Chief Sinclair, and the team wouldn't tell either. I know they would just be ecstatic if they heard we were a couple. Or we wouldn't even have to risk the team telling chief Sinclair if we just don't tell the team. Many problems could rise but I think it'd all be worth it. I hope..

The second problem is one that I'm absolutely confused about. She gives me little kisses on the cheek sometime, so does that mean she loves me back more than a friend? Or is that just part of her touchy-feely nature? If we were to get together and we fight, or even breakup, would that ruin work for us? Though we're both professionals, when it comes to that special someone, it's hard to push those feelings aside and focus on a dead body. One case that would just break my heart in two would be if she doesn't love me back. But there's only one way to find out, right?

And after all that thinking, I, Mac Taylor, am making my way over to find out if the love of my life loves me back.

"Stella"

Uh oh. You said her name, there's no turning back Taylor! Just spit it out so the moment will be brief and no awkward moments.

"Hey Mac, what's up?"

"uhh I umm I was thinking about stuff and oh umm uhh about us and I'm not sure how to say it…"

Just my luck. I sound like a little boy trying to explain why he broke his mom's favorite lamp.

"You were thinking about us? Mac, is something wrong?"

I have never had a moment where I was at a loss for words or didn't know what to do. Until now.

"Mac! Are you alright? Your just staring off into space!"

The blank stare. That hasn't happened since what? The first time I saw a girl with breasts? PULL IT TOGETHER MARINE! YOUR MAKING A FOOL OUTTA YOURSELF! JUST TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL AND FIGURE IT OUT TAYLOR!

"Do you love me?"

Shit. I did not just say that.

"Mac Taylor, of course I love you. Your my best friend! Nothing's going to change that fact."

It's over. She just said she loves you as a friend. Might as well just turn around and walk away without getting even more embarrassed.

"Never mind, uh just tell me those DNA results when you get them back kay? I'll be in my office"

Just keep walking, don't look back. Your heart just got ripped out of your body but you don't need to show her that.

"Mac… you weren't talking about us friends love?"

I could just feel tears coming on, but I can let them fall. Or worse, I can't let Stella see me even close to crying. So I just shook my head.

She had figured out what I meant.

"Mac!" but that had not been Stella, it had been a man's voice. And I could see Don Flack running towards us.

"What do you need Flack?"

"we got two vics, one man and one women. Shot right in the head execution style."

"Alright, we'll be there"

We, being Stella and I. Was that a good idea? Of course not. But the job is the job. Keep your mind on finding the killer and I should be fine.

"Stella, we need to get to the scene."

I could still see the surprise in her eyes. I hope I hadn't scared her.

"Look, can we just talk about this later?" I asked her

"yeah, we gotta focus on finding this killer for now."

And she just walked away. Just like that. Women are confusing.