A/N
This is my very first ficcie.. I hope I didn't do to bad for the first chapter nn. This is going to be both a Neji/Naru and a NaruHina
These characters do not belong to me but the talented Kishimoto-sensei.
Unreachable Solace
There are times I wish to forget everything I've lived these past years. All starting with the same point, the same action, the same feeling. At times I think my self a fool for falling so deeply into that comforting embrace. That warm touch and that humane spirit. Then again who wouldn't have. When you have a sort of salvation in front of you all you want to do is reach for it. Grasp it, and never let it go. You don't know if it might be your last chance some one might offer it to you. I took my chance, and like a fool, fell right in.
Though I say that I want to forget, doesn't mean I regret it. No. No, because I don't really regret being held by those arms. That warm embrace I was given every time I was troubled, saddened, anguished. No, I really don't regret those times. They made me feel appreciated. Wanted even. Yes, I was a fool. Even more of a fool when I turned a moment of weakness, into a night I would never forget. I felt torn, torn because I didn't know whether be ashamed or happy that I could lay so close to what I wanted so. To be able to touch it despite not belonging to me. Despite the others anguish and suffering. I didn't care at that moment. All I wanted was to make it better. To make seem that I cared enough to strip off all in which took me so long to build.
I was a fool to think that it would last though. Just because of that night it didn't mean anything would change. And the small glimmer of hope that came out of nowhere was stripped away. Now, its for a different reason. Yes, there are times I wish to forget everything I've lived these past years. All starting with that same point. That desperate love. That hand reaching out for an embrace it cant attain. It cant attain because it forbidden. So it cant be so. No matter how much the heart begs to be taken in, to be wanted and cherished. No, its not easy. Your heart always begs for attention, we always feel it. But always ignore it. Its easier that way. At least we always think so. I thought so…
I wish she were alive now. At least that person would have seem more alive. Right now it just seems like we are seeing an empty vessel. One that only hardly responds when spoken too. Everyone is worried. But there is nothing else we can do. Thinking of the past wont solve anything. And I know that person must be thinking of the past. Don't we all. We would rather drown in our own memories rather that face the cruel reality of life. Maybe it would be for the best for that person to just drift away. Move on to the next world an join her. No! I cant…I wont.. I will not let him go. I promised her…
They were together first. She had loved him first even more than anything else. She saw trough him even before any us did and had found through him strength and confidence. Everywhere you saw her go she wore a smile. A truly happy smile. And deep down inside I was drowning in a sea of jealousy. I couldn't take it. When I saw them together laughing so carelessly. So carefree. It cut through me like a sharp razor to my already wounded heart. It wasn't their fault though. No, it wasn't their fault. Its not their fault my heart likes to play cruel tricks. That it likes to make me suffer. And in account of that, makes me miserable. No, its nobody's fault.
Not even my own…
Tbc…
This is my very first ficcie.. I hope I didn't do to bad for the first chapter nn. This is going to be both a Neji/Naru and a NaruHina
These characters do not belong to me but the talented Kishimoto-sensei.
Unreachable Solace
There are times I wish to forget everything I've lived these past years. All starting with the same point, the same action, the same feeling. At times I think my self a fool for falling so deeply into that comforting embrace. That warm touch and that humane spirit. Then again who wouldn't have. When you have a sort of salvation in front of you all you want to do is reach for it. Grasp it, and never let it go. You don't know if it might be your last chance some one might offer it to you. I took my chance, and like a fool, fell right in.
Though I say that I want to forget, doesn't mean I regret it. No. No, because I don't really regret being held by those arms. That warm embrace I was given every time I was troubled, saddened, anguished. No, I really don't regret those times. They made me feel appreciated. Wanted even. Yes, I was a fool. Even more of a fool when I turned a moment of weakness, into a night I would never forget. I felt torn, torn because I didn't know whether be ashamed or happy that I could lay so close to what I wanted so. To be able to touch it despite not belonging to me. Despite the others anguish and suffering. I didn't care at that moment. All I wanted was to make it better. To make seem that I cared enough to strip off all in which took me so long to build.
I was a fool to think that it would last though. Just because of that night it didn't mean anything would change. And the small glimmer of hope that came out of nowhere was stripped away. Now, its for a different reason. Yes, there are times I wish to forget everything I've lived these past years. All starting with that same point. That desperate love. That hand reaching out for an embrace it cant attain. It cant attain because it forbidden. So it cant be so. No matter how much the heart begs to be taken in, to be wanted and cherished. No, its not easy. Your heart always begs for attention, we always feel it. But always ignore it. Its easier that way. At least we always think so. I thought so…
I wish she were alive now. At least that person would have seem more alive. Right now it just seems like we are seeing an empty vessel. One that only hardly responds when spoken too. Everyone is worried. But there is nothing else we can do. Thinking of the past wont solve anything. And I know that person must be thinking of the past. Don't we all. We would rather drown in our own memories rather that face the cruel reality of life. Maybe it would be for the best for that person to just drift away. Move on to the next world an join her. No! I cant…I wont.. I will not let him go. I promised her…
They were together first. She had loved him first even more than anything else. She saw trough him even before any us did and had found through him strength and confidence. Everywhere you saw her go she wore a smile. A truly happy smile. And deep down inside I was drowning in a sea of jealousy. I couldn't take it. When I saw them together laughing so carelessly. So carefree. It cut through me like a sharp razor to my already wounded heart. It wasn't their fault though. No, it wasn't their fault. Its not their fault my heart likes to play cruel tricks. That it likes to make me suffer. And in account of that, makes me miserable. No, its nobody's fault.
Not even my own…
Tbc…