Random little near-maybe-slightly-over 500 word drabble about Sasuke coming back after the whole "Must kill Itachi and avenge my clan. Yosh." saga. Rather serious and may lead to…no, it won't. I will not let another little story plant itself in my head and grow to a proportion that will make it hard to conclude. Oh who am I kidding…this will probably turn into a story about how Naruto helps Sasuke forgive himself and such. (sighs dejectedly) damn. But I will not allow it to be formed yet!! Not until I am done –or nearly so- with the other fics-in-progress. Yata and rejoice, Rei shall not overload. At least not yet… .\/ (Emo-Smiley!!!)
Disclaimer: Totally no owned. By me at least. But Kishimoto-sensei has made some serious bank with his delicious creation.
Vindicate My Core
You shiver again, ignoring my barely shown concern as you continue to pull the sweat soaked shirt from your body. I'm not sure when it got to the point that we couldn't talk anymore. We never talked before but you always did. Things have beyond a doubt altered immensely between us. I am reminded of the fact every time that you turn your back to me when you are hurt or sad. I realize the pain I have put you through, and I tell myself everyday what a fool I was. But you do not forgive me. You would have once, calling me a bastard and grinning impudently. You were so cheeky then, so free even though so many tried to chain you down.
"I am the only monster." I don't tell you. We both already know this but neither will say it. Life or fate or whatever driving force there is behind our being has dealt you one too many blows, for you have changed. And I know it is because of me that your hidden aloofness is now rearing its frightening head.
"I'm so sorry." I don't say to you, choosing instead to turn my back as well. You sigh, barely noticeable but there. Once more I have hurt you. I know I must be the first to reach out my hand and ask for forgiveness, that I ought to be the one to start things headed down the healing path. But I cannot. Whenever I try my throat closes around the words and my face freezes in a scowl. This is not the expression I wish to show you. There are so many other things I want to show you, to let you know.
"I love you." Is one I know will never leave my lips. The most shameful of my secrets, as you are a man and I am now the last member of my clan. I'm confident that before, had I given it consideration, you loved me too. Once. However I was too absorbed in my own 'problems' to allow any thought of such an encounter resembling affection between us. I think of how you absolved me of all sin before, not caring about the Uchiha clan stories or the girls who tortured you to leave me alone. Befriending me despite my obvious attempts to stop you. And I yearn for you to do so again, without me needing to ask.
"I want you to wash my faults and sins away." I don't declare to your receding figure. But you stop all the same. And turn. You're lips and eyebrows move simultaneously, feigning understanding. Or what I assume to be contrived, seeing as I never manage to make my comments to you audible. But while lost in my thoughts, spending too much time in my own head, it seems I have actually uttered these words aloud. I want to say I'm frozen with regret and fear but really I am immobile with excitement, with anticipation. With hope. You nod. You smile just a little, yet it is so much more to me. You say my name for the first time since I came back. I am the one quivering now as the sounds float from your mouth..
"Of course, Sasuke."
,','Owari,','
Nyah-ha-ha-ha!!! Fin. Tell me, was it good? Of course it was (overconfident and narcissistic), it was brilliant! Or so I'd like to say but seeing as how I wrote it I'm sure there is an outside opinion or two that would help me improve. Improve I say! (cough) Sorry, I'm watching Invader Zim(c) while I write this. w00t for random American cartoons. And now back to me. Reviews!!!! I demand thee, I require thee, I…would like thee? Yes. So send me thou opinions and thoughts! …yes, I'm done now (hides in corner)