My hands grip the edge of the sink and I take a deep breath.
In.
Out.
I repeat this to myself over and over again until my heartbeat slows down to a normal pace. This is it. The day before I can finally escape! My heart starts racing again as I realize that the moment I have been waiting for for 16 years is almost here. I hear my father pounding up the stairs and I quickly twist my hair into the proper Abnegation hairstyle. As I hear my door start to creak open I quickly grab the bottom of my grey robe to prevent my hands from shaking. No need to give him an excuse to get mad at me. I take a deep breath to calm down before facing him. My worst nightmare, my tormenter, my father. Marcus enters the room and looks me up and down with an appraising look. After deeming me presentable, he smiles at me and for a moment looks at me like a proud parent. The thing that has always disturbed me most about him is that he can slip from tormenter to father in the blink of an eye.
"Are you ready for your test?" He asks me pleasantly. I can only nod.
"Dad, why didn't you prepare me like you did with Tobias?" As soon as the question is out of my mouth I try to take it back. My body immediately tenses up as I wait for him to punish me for speaking out of turn.
But instead of getting angry at my selfish curiousness he answers my question, "I only prepared Tobias because I thought he was Divergent. You, on the other hand clearly belong in Abnegation."
After hearing that part of me feels like laughing. What Marcus clearly doesn't see is that I have been waiting to transfer out of Abnegation for years. Not because I thought I was Divergent but because I longed to be free. He also doesn't know that I have had a plan laid out for the last few years. I am going to take my Aptitude test, the result really doesn't matter, then I am going transfer to Dauntless. To really spite my father and show him that I am not at all who he thinks I am, I have thought of joining the Erudite, but I don't agree with their newspapers and their faction is just as stifling as Abnegation. The only faction where I can be truly free is Dauntless. Not to mention my brother will be there, and even if it's faction before blood, my blood was there for me when my faction wasn't.