I never thought that love for me was... denied.
For much that I've tried to tell to myself that I never need it, I'm still a human being. I have feelings, but they hurt me every time I've searched for them.
And now, I'm standing in front of the grave of the one I've loved completely for the first time.
I never asked for something else. I just wanted to finally know what love meant. Live what I have seen in the eyes of my partners all along the years.
The only thing that now I know is how Hotch felt when he lost Haley. Is hard to know that the one you love will not be able to talk to you again, to see you and tell you the answers when you're lost. When the bullet crossed Maeve, I felt like it shoot me too, deep inside my heart, making me feel like I have lost everybody and everything.
Now I stand here alone, face to face with her for the last time. I slightly smile when I remember her smile, her voice. I keep crying when I remember she told me "I love you", but is hard to know it because I never said it. I wasn't sure enough if I really feel it, but now that I've lost her, I'm sure that I was stupid to not realize about it before.
I take a step closer to the grave, I put a red rose over it and as I smile I say the loudest I can
"I love you too, and I will miss you"