Title
Don't Jump
Contents
Death Note
Pairings
MelloxNear
Narration
Near
Summary
SongFic. Will Near be able to save Mello from jumping?
Disclaimer
I do not own Death Note. Trust me, if i did, they'd put that amn notebook to use! ... Sorry my love kira, but you need some interesting deaths in that booklet
Warning
Yaoi. Angst. Smut.
Enjoy
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"Mello!" He turned around to face me, my vision was blurred by my tears streaming down my pale face. His form seemed to move with the wind soaring over the top of this building. His feet hung at the edge, his look to me was so cold.. Like ice. Making the night colder than it already was. You'd think in situations like this one, it'd be raining, there'd be lighting, there'd be thunder. Nothing. Nothing but the clear dark night. His eyes, they seemed so empty. "Near." His voice struck my being. Not badly, the way he meant it to be. But instead, I took it as him listening to me.. For once in this crazy mix up Mello listened to me. This was Mello's way of asking me what I wanted. I think deep down he knew... "Please don't jump.."

.:Three days prior:.

Why must he be in the room with me? Well, I honestly don't mind him being in here. It IS the common room after all. It's his taunting stare that's getting to me. Why is he looking at me? Does he want something from me? Well if he does than this is a funny way to ask.

"Can I help you?"

"No."

Okay, so he doesn't want anything from me. So why would he be staring? Mello always had a habit of getting to me when no one else could, even without words. That's what I loved about him. He made me feel things that nobody else could make me feel. No, we're not together.. I have a suspition that he and Matt are together. Wouldn't surprise me. Even if I did tell Mello my feelings for him, he could spit in my face about how he's with Matt.. Like I said, this is just my suspitions, nothing was confirmed. I have talked to Matt, he's not as mean or cold as Mello was about things like this. Matt had been open to admit that he was in love with Mello, not realizing how that took the small hope that Mello could be with me away. I pushed the puppet I was playing with over with my index finger, still in my normal position laying on the floor. That's when Rodger called us to his office from the intercom. I knew something was wrong, because of the tone of his voice. Well, Mello rushed out the common room probably to see if he could beat me there while I stayed behind and picked up the toys I was playing with. I walked to Rodger's office with a puzzle, figuring what ever he needed to say couldn't distract me from my thoughts. Matt's words ringing in my head, 'I love Mello'.

I begun to think that Matt would be better for Mello than I ever would. How weak I was, I probably wouldn't be able to take Mello if he wanted to take us a step further. I'd cry, I know I would. I'd ruin it for him. Rodger spoke of L's passing, and said that we were both to follow in his shoes.

"L wasn't strong enough for the kira case.. He was weak."

I couldn't help but blurt it out. My feelings, for the first time in my life, got in the way of my thinking. But I backed it up, saying that he obviously couldn't handle kira if he died. Well... Mello got upset. On the outside he tilted his head forward and said that I could take the position over as L and left, saying he was to leave the house. I didn't believe him at first, but then I heard the door slam behind me. I looked back, then to Rodger who just sat there. I paniced, I couldn't picture Mello leaving. I ran out of Rodger's office, leaving my puzzle one piece from finished.

I looked all over the house, but Mello was nowhere to be found. I finally stopped in Mello's room, falling to my knees, my fists clenching against the floor.

"Idiot... Why did you leave? I would have given you the position... I should have shut my mouth."

Later that night I was still downtrodden about Mello's abscence. I knew he was only gone for a few hours, but it felt like a few years. My fingers brushed the hallway walls as I walked down them in thought. Matt grabbed me from behind, twisted my arm behind my back and slammed me against the wall. I winced of course, a small yelp escaping my throat.

"Where is he!? I KNOW you had something to do with it!!"

Matt was flustered, and I knew why. He felt the pain I felt. I sympathised.

"I...I don't know."

He twisted my arm further, shouting into my ear.

"LIAR! Tell me where he is or I'll break your arm!!"

I shook my head, looking to the floor. I deserved it.

"I don't know where he is."

Matt dropped me, running off in the other direction yelling something about finding him without my help. As Matt left I almost wished he would have broken my arm. Than I would have felt something beyond this horrible guilt and pain..

It must have been passed midnight when I decided to leave. I kicked on my shoes, looking out the window. It was raining, hard. Mello was out there, I knew it. I just didn't know where. All I could think of was Mello shaking in fetal position, sitting against a brick wall. The very thought made me have to hold back tears. I had to find him, had to offer company.. It was my fault he was out there.

I left Wammy's house without even tip-toeing. No one woke up easily in Wammy's house with all the studying they did during the day, not even Rodger. I didn't know where to start looking for him, so I did the most logical thing I could think off. Run. I ran off straight from Wammy's, leading into the city. Then I asked around, describing Mello as best I could. My luck was running out, along with my will to even go back to Wammy's. Then I found him, exactly how I pictured in my head. Shaking in a fetal position... against a brick wall... crying. Or at least it looked like he was. Mello hid himself well in an alley, but it wasn't a match for the way I scrutinized the city. I walked slowly over to him, my eyes holding alot of emotion.

"Mello.. I..I.."

I threw myself to him, but he didn't move or return my hug. I wanted to tell him everything, but I knew that would only make him ridicule me. He pushed me away from him, looking at me in the coldest glare I've ever seen.

"I don't need pitty from someone like you."

His words hit me through the chest. I never knew words could feel so much like daggers.

"Mello.. I came to tell you-"

"What? That I'm weak? Don't think I know that... You don't think I understood why L didn't choose me... You think I don't know what you all think of me.."

I shook my head, Mello's words becoming confusing in my head.

"What? No.. Mello-"

"Shut up Near! You think you're so perfect because you're the top student?! Because L knew he wanted you!? ... I got news for you."

Mello turned, facing away from me. He kept his eyes to the ground, even if I couldn't see his front I knew his expression was in pain.

"No one will care when kira claims over you."

My eyes were left widened with tears falling as I watched Mello run off. My whole being... crushed. And at that moment, I said something I will never understand why.

"Ashiteru... Miheal Keehl.."

--Author's Note--

Hehe, nice lil ending for the first chapter.

I know, a bit short.

But I don't plan for this to be the world's longest fiction. Three chapters maybe.

I think that the ending will be the best part of the fiction.

YES. THERE WILL BE SMUT.