A/N: Written for LJ's 1sentence challenge using prompt set gamma.
Disclaimer: Not mine, any of it. All the characters and whatnot belong to Peter Weir; I'm just playing around in his sandbox. The quote in #3 is from Zygmunt Frankel and probably an anachronism, but it's pretty.

#01 – Motion
Neil doesn't protest when Charlie pulls him forward by his belt, nor does he grouse and complain when Charlie expertly slips the leather off; he doesn't say anything as Charlie undoes the buttons on his shirt, but he throws himself headlong into every kiss, falling off a cliff each time.

#02 – Cool
There's no denying that Charlie is cool – he's comfortable with everyone, he asserts himself, he schemes and he dreams, then does it, to hell with all consequences – and it always makes Neil wonder if that's why Charlie picked him.

#03 – Young
"'The night is young like you,'" Charlie quotes perfectly, backing Neil up against the tree, "'but you still can't detect / the cancer of its morning breast'"; he remembers it all… either something's up or he cares more than usual.

#04 – Last
There's an eternity between the last kiss and this one, but, finally, Neil's the one who starts it, pressing his lips to Charlie's neck, and then his cheek, and, at long last, his lips.

#05 – Wrong
"It's sick, Dalton," Cameron huffs, "besides, Neil's got better things to do and you're a distraction; think about his needs and find yourself a girl already"; Charlie only smirks and doesn't mention that Neil's the one who initiated everything, all with his off-side little stares.

#06 – Gentle
Real life isn't gentle, and it never will be, but Charlie's hands are soft and wealthy; if only that same rich boy easiness carried over against the sheets.

#07 – One
Neil doesn't really drink; one look from Charlie is all the intoxication he needs.

#08 – Thousand
The Latin homework is Catullus again, this time with shirking gossip to give his lover more kisses than Charlie wants to bother counting… from a thousand or more years ago, it seems like the poet's gloating that Neil won't let Charlie give him that many.

#09 – King
Charlie never asked to be the king, but, if the shoe fits… besides, it got Neil's attention, and that's easily the best thing about it.

#10 – Learn
The first kiss is fumbling and inexperienced, but Neil would only change the location: regardless of the inherent Romanticism of the tragic hero and the Byronic one clinging together, he'd rather that it hadn't been in a broom cupboard.

#11 – Blur
It's a blur when it happens and, afterwards, he can't remember punching Cameron, but he knows he did it more for Neil than for Keating; he couldn't remember walking to Todd's room when he did either, but he still got there; even foggier are his thoughts about going on without seeing that smile.

#12 – Wait
As much as they love Keating's class, some days, it's just another obstacle to what they really want.

#13 – Change
If only the change were as subtle as the one it took itself out on: suddenly, Neil feels like he can do anything, everything feels like a success, and it's all too obvious when he gets Charlie to switch places, suck him off for once; admitting that it works isn't high on Charlie's list of priorities.

#14 – Command
"Charlie," Neil breathes, "door, closed"; he has more of a laugh when Charlie obliges.

#15 – Hold
After he sees his father and Mr. Keating, after all the important adults have had their uninformed say in the matter, Neil quietly slinks to Charlie's room; they lock the door to keep Cameron out, though nothing happens: Charlie only keeps him in his arms and strokes his hair.

#16 – Need
Neil's concept of need and want is far too harsh; every time he wants something, he thinks it's somehow wrong and tries to rationalize all the reasons why he shouldn't… it makes sense, in a way, but Charlie is more visceral in his desires: everything about Neil is a need, and nothing can make him think this truth over twice.

#17 – Vision
When Charlie enters a room, it's like a vision of a god manifested in schoolboy clothes and the guise of seventeen; despite their closeness, Neil tries to move in unnoticed, and Charlie always finds him with his deific eyes.

#18 – Attention
He doesn't like admitting it… it feels distracting, a little dirty, and more than a bit illicit… but Neil really likes it when Charlie kicks him under their desks in Latin, and he dies of joy when he gets a cocky smirk in Trig.

#19 – Soul
Neil never knew it, but he was too good for this world.

#20 – Picture
There's a picture, a portrait of him that he keeps in the back his English text; Neil drew it offhand during study hall one day and, some days, he needs to see it to feel closeness to anything.

#21 – Fool
He still doesn't know why they told him about Neil first, or why he went and told Todd, even though Todd was competition until Neil's father dragged him away from Henley Hall, but most of all, he wishes that he hadn't fallen so hard that going without didn't seem like a life sentence and that trying to fathom the reality wouldn't leave him unable to cry out of pure shock.

#22 – Mad
Seeing Neil with Todd is maddening, until Neil finds Charlie watching, shoos the lad away, and, mad with the bitter-tasting wantonness he doesn't ever acknowledge, runs into Charlie's arms and waiting lips.

#23 – Child
Neil smiles like a little kid when he's really happy, and, though Charlie liked the days when that smile was all for him, seeing it more often spoils him rotten.

#24 – Now
Where there was once warm love spiting winter's chill, there's just cold stone walls now… cold stone walls and a bunch of lip-service supplicants; he'd feel worse about leaving if he, Neil, and Mr. Keating weren't the only ones who had to do it, and, as he walks down to his parents' car and the inevitable tirade against what he's done, he knows how Neil felt with his father and welcomes the memory-touch of Neil's hand in his.

#25 – Shadow
Something behind him casts a shadow as he stares out as the lake; he thinks it's Neil until he turns around and sees Knox, and he remembers it all when he feels the caring hand on his shoulder: Neil's dead, the administration's up in arms about Keating and carpe diem, and nothing's right with the world anymore, save, maybe, that Knox wooed his girl successfully, and even that feels slightly off-color.

#26 – Goodbye
He goes to the memorial service at school and sings with everyone else; he wants to be at the actual funeral; but only years later, after leaving college and heading on to business school, does he put flowers on Neil's grave: there's rosemary for remembrance, China Pinks for aching hearts, mimosas (Neil's favorites), a red rose because tradition demands it, and a lone, white carnation, for the heated grief that never cools.

#27 – Hide
"I'm sorry, Neil," Charlie whispers delicately, "your father just doesn't understand"; Neil knows he should deal with his problems, but there's not much to be done, and turning to Charlie's arms and words is so much easier.

#28 – Fortune
Mythology, Charlie finds, makes things more fun; calling Neil "Ganymede" means that he can be open about their relationship while keeping everyone but Meeks in the dark and creating gods in the cave extends beyond poetry; it's almost a shame, after the first time, that his invocations of Fortuna Virgo no longer apply.

#29 – Safe
Anymore there are only three places where Neil feels nothing can touch him: Henley Hall, Mr. Keating's class, and, ironically, in Charlie's arms.

#30 – Ghost
He's been drinking casually for a while, but it seems to get worse after Welton, until, one day, he swears it off forever; the night before, he could've sworn that he saw Neil, touched Neil, held him like they did before… and, in his even voice, perfect in its little cracks, he whispered, "Don't join me until you have to, Nuwanda."

#31 – Book
Neil holds Keating's old book like the Bible, all reverence and tenderness and personal investment; Charlie tries to hold him the same way, but it almost always comes down to the systematic removal of clothing, and he can't quite fathom anyone doing that to a book.

#32 – Eye
Charlie winks at him in trig, and then in chemistry – the two classes where it's practically guaranteed that they won't be noticed.

#33 – Never
He stays a bachelor, even shirks off the banking business on his younger brother; if there's one thing he can't fathom doing, it's sullying Neil's memory by slipping into what they, in all their follies and fumblings, fought against.

#34 – Sing
Neil watches Todd's impromptu poem, and Charlie watches Neil, looking for any indication that he wants something more from the amateur bard; the signals are too mixed to tell, but, in some way, it looks like the spectacle increases Neil's desire to sing like no one's listening; and no one is when Charlie's motions make Neil's breath hitch most musically.

#35 – Sudden
Hearing the news is like a bullet to the head, and only later, when he's had time to think it over, does Charlie find it ironic that this was the first simile to jump up and grab his mind.

#36 – Stop
As a rule, summer break is hell, the longest pause for breath and the least tolerable, and, in the last few days of school, they barely have time to make Knox, Meeks, Cameron, and Pitts leave and close the door – there's so much to say, so much to do – luckily, what's needs to be said most often comes out in gasps, pants, cries to God, and wordless moans.

#37 – Time
Without Neil, everything takes longer than it should, but his funeral is the shortest thing Charlie has ever had to sit through and no one did him enough justice.

#38 – Wash
Technically, he supposes, all his little eccentricities are sins, from biggies like lust down to little things like cigarettes, but Neil's always willing to give him a clean slate.

#39 – Torn
Todd likes Neil… it's pretty easy to see, even Pitts has picked up on it for God's sake, and the thought that Neil might reciprocate the feeling is too much for Charlie to entertain without clenching his fists.

#40 – History
Neil's filled with nervous energy in history class – he takes his notes and looks normal enough, but he taps his inert thumb and foot in perfect synchronization – and Charlie can't blame him: it's right before Keating's class, which is where all their trysts feel less like infractions and more like perfect poetry.

#41 – Power
Charlie is surprised to find even a hint of resentment towards The Captain, but… it makes a reluctant form of sense – he inspired Neil to try out acting, he made Neil smile, he got Neil to be alive… – all that was supposed to be Charlie's job, since he loves Neil, romantically and Romantically, but… The Captain did It; he worked some spell on Neil, and it's for the better, but it still leaves that fallout feeling of failure.

#42 – Bother
Everything Charlie does during study hall is a distraction, down to the distracted way he taps his pencil and makes faces at Knox… but snaking his hand down Neil's pants when no one's looking… that's a downright cheat.

#43 – God
A fair god wouldn't make Neil suffer this way – silent, expectant, tortured by how something should be happening – but they did wind up together, so maybe it all works out, in a larger, cosmic sense.

#44 – Wall
It's when Neil doesn't talk that he says everything best; it's when he retreats into himself that Charlie knows that, maybe, his touch can't help with everything; but knowledge of a situation doesn't mean that he has to like it.

#45 – Naked
"Sssh, Neil, ssssh"; Charlie leans the darker-haired boy back against the alcove wall, slides one leg between his, and presses their chests together; "And I want you to know that my intentions are completely, entirely honorable"; the look in Neil's eyes is barefaced disbelief, but, to make his point, Charlie only kisses his cheek before they separate.

#46 – Drive
The determination with which Neil takes on the play at Henley Hall is the most that Charlie's ever seen, even from him – and it goes absolutely everywhere: against all apparent reason, his grades improve and he's more fervent about the Dead Poets; also, he's more forward, sometimes more forceful, and Charlie doesn't mind a bit.

#47 – Harm
Years later, Charlie gets to miss the draft – flat feet and business school are useful, or so his father says – but there's still that part of him that wishes he wouldn't; he's gotten past everything, mostly, he still lives for the day and finds that this is becoming increasingly more accepted… but anything that would bring him that feeling of Neil's arms again… even if it meant death, he can't help but think that it'd be worth it.

#48 – Precious
Though Neil's eyes are precious gems – he says they can't be, since they're dark brown and no self-respecting gemologist would prize something dark brown; Charlie always points to the Dark Lady, which is countered with the evidence that Neil isn't female and Shakespeare was a poet; despite this, Charlie continues to disagree – but his smile is what Charlie cherishes above all things.

#49 – Hunger
Sometimes with Neil, it's best to leave him hanging: the wolfish look in his eyes is too beautiful to pass up, his breathy pleas send a tingle down Charlie's spine that's not easily concealed (somehow, he manages), and, finally, when they're alone and Neil pounces like a caged tiger on fresh meat, the merits of abstinence are too flagrant to deny.

#50 – Believe
Neil doesn't always believe in himself, and he doesn't have to; Charlie knows that Neil's perfect.