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Tears and a time of joy

Today was both the happiest and saddest day of the "new part" of my life.

Watching you with those shiny green eyes full of life suddenly fade and glaze over, and a sudden cry from a new born baby.

I couldn't help cry of happiness and sadness. I'm so confused all my emotions flowing like a river to the surface I haven't felt like this since Kelly and Shannon died.

I have a new baby girl.

I have just lost my love, I have lost my baby

As they tried to revive you, to bring you back to your new and powerful family all I could do was stand there with my new baby girl, our baby girl. I was so stiff I couldn't move I never thought I would feel like this not after last time.

I don't know which is worse not being there for the destruction of you family or being there and watching it happen right in front of your eyes, a part of your life just fade away.

Im being pushed out of the hospital room and our baby is being taken away, probably just to be checked out but I can't help but worry.

Im sitting here, memories just flooding my mind, I can't help be scared last we spoke we argues and I walked out on you and our baby.

When you went into labour I wasn't there. I thought a crime scene was more important but in my gut I knew something was wrong so I rushed to the hospital.

I burst into the room and saw you holding our baby. You gave a nod and the nurse gave me our baby. Somehow I new we were ok again.

Now here I am in the hallway being told that you didn't make it. Im stuned I never thought this would happen not to you, not to us. All of a sudden my legs give way and I crash onto my knee's crying in my hands.

"why, why did you leave me … us I…I love you… what about our baby girl ..she…she needs her mum, I need her mum." it can't be true.

The nurse is giving her deepest apology but I'm not listening I can't belive you've gone. I thought we were ok, I thought it would last forever. You and me forever.

Then I shook myself out of my daze. I remember I have a new responsibility, our baby girl.

I get up of off my knee's and before I knew it I was staring though a window looking at the new presious babys that have just been born into the harsh world. Some with both perants. Some with non and then our daughter with just her father. And her fathers stories to be told.

"Mr Gibbs would you like to hold your daughter" the nurse asked with a smile of both happiness and sadness as she saw my pain in my eyes. As she placed her in my arms I could see how much she looked like you and I couldn't help but smile with tear creeping to the surface again. As I rocked her in my arms, her eyes opened and all I could see was her beautiful green eyes. They seemed to have your sparkle in them.

"Mr Gibbs what are you going to name her" the nirse spoke quikly with a smile.

I thought for a moment , then it hit me the perfect name.

" Jenny. . . . Jenny Marie Gibbs"

"that's a perfect name"

I know I thought to my self with a small smile on my face.

"you are going to be a great father" she patted my shoulder and left to get the paper work to let me take our daughter home.

Hold Jenny Marie in my arms I sweetly asked

" you ready to go home my sweet Jenny"

And at that she lifted up her arm and grabbed my thumb and at that moment I new everything would be ok.

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