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As I stare out into the blue void of the water,
I can't help but think,
That I have seen better.
I slap myself mentally when pale blue eyes flash in my brain.
What are now part of the memories that torture me,
Are the same pair that used to keep me sane.
I want to forget.
Forget it all.
Forget about nights spent pacing my room,
Muttering: I don't love him I don't love him,
I can't, I won't anyone but him.
I want to forget your laugh and your smile,
It has been a year and they are still swimming in my head,
I guess forgetting something that beautiful takes a while.
It's funny to think that at the mention of 'Phan' people smile,
They say it's cute,
Nothing about this is cute,
This is pain.
Pain you caused when you ignored me.
Pain I caused when I never talked to you about this.
Pain we caused when we acted as though we were in love.
When I kissed your lips I didn't realize what I sold myself to.
A life of misery and sleepless nights,
Midday breakdowns and horrid thoughts.
However; even with all of these things, if you asked for forgiveness,
Then we would talk and joke around,
Just like it used to be.
You are the best worst thing that ever happened to me,
And as much as I try not to,
I still love you.
This is a poem about falling in love with your best friend,
So I dedicate this to you Phil.
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