TriX

TriX

Title: TriX

chapter: 1/?

Author: kitty_pon

Pairings: AoixReita MiyavxKai

Rating: PG 13

Warnings: unbeta-ed

Synopsis: "Whatever. I still think procrastinating is a god…. Yet even though you have such late classes, you still come early… Why?"

Summary: I think CRASH only with a twist. Instead of people lets have 'THIS'. What is 'normal' what is 'normal'? Is there really no answer? Finding things, only through a journey. Long hard goals can change? Every minute, every second. Question, question, always question. Where you go, who your with, who you trust... Who you love...

Comments: OMG, wow, im so sorry just... wow u guys, i totally feel like a complete jerk wad. DX i havn't been very good to my fans lately. i feel i have failed u all some how. it's been so long, so much has changed, and really... i am on a major case of brain blockage. and i just wanted to apologize to u all, and show that i really am alive and well. :3 Honestly i have been trying to figure out how to tell u all this for like the past 5 MONTHS! i told u all that i quit ... but i look back and see that i still have many fans here. so, i have made up my mind. thanx to u all i will stay on . and, thanxs to u all who gave the most kick ass replies. there are so many of u, and i promise to write all ur names down and give specail thanxs. cause really, u all deserve it. 3 now... let me tell u all oH BoY k!LL & mEntal SEX lovers... those fics are currently on HOLD. like seriously. and i apologize for this... i promise i WONT be like those awesome writers who give up on an awesome fic. i dont want to be like that, because thats dissapointing. my goal is to finish at least oH BoY k!LL... now, to finish this up, I WANT U ALL TO KNOW THAT I HAVE AN LJ ACCOUNT AND THAT I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE IT IF U WOULD GO THERE AND TALK TO ME! like seriously! u guys want to yell at me to bring up a chapter, REMIND KP for he has ALOT OF WORK AND MAY FORGET! i have told this before that u SHOULD SO TOTALLY ADD ME AND TALK TO ME ON LJ. because really it's a hell of alot EASIER for me to give notices to ALL YOU PPLS! so PLEASE! i was unable to contact u all for 5 MONTHS because NO ONE WENT TO MY LJ!!!! It's ON MY HOME PAGE! THE LINK IS THERE PLEASE COPY AND PAST! OR FIND ME! I AM kitty_pon!!! the name 'kittypon' was sadly taken by some cpycatt and i didn't like LJ at the time so... MY FAULT! i waited too long. _ but yes. i will be going onto my LJ account more from now on if u guys go on and TALK TO ME! i am willing to spread this gap of fan and writer between us ^^

Now, enough rambling and ON WITH THE FIC!!!!

P.S: sorry if i like... posted this fic up once before. i seirously cant remember if this fic is old news to u ppls D:

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"I'm telling you guys! I think this is the one! Ever since we started going out, It's just been perfect!" Kai exclaimed while he waved his arms around. Ruki, who was slouching next to him, his arms crossed over his chest just shook his head. "Oh yes Kai… Things have just been peaches and cream for you two since you hooked up… How long ago was it again Uruha?" Uruha sat across, facing Ruki and Kai, his hand on his chin as he thought. "…. About, two months ago?" Ruki nodded and looked back to Kai looking very unimpressed. "Two months—"

"Well." Kai interrupted while he looked up to the ceiling of the train with a dreamy look on his face. "… We actually got together about a month before we told it out loud." Ruki just nodded his head before crossing his legs. "Right, right… So, Two months and then some." Kai frowned as he looked down to Ruki opening his mouth to complain but Uruha beat him to it. "Now Ruki… Leave Kai alone. He really thinks that this is the one for him. I think, we should support him through this 100% ." Kai smiled over to Uruha but it quickly withered away to unease as he watched a wicked grin start to stretch over Uruha's lips. "Besides… This might actually be the one. The first time, when Kai finally gets LAID!"

Both Ruki and Uruha laughed loudly while Kai quickly moved to shush them since they were starting to get angry stares throughout the train. "Shhhh, shhhh, hush! You two are way too loud!" Kai cried as he tried pressing his hands to Ruki's mouth. Ruki just slapped Kai's hands away before moving to sit next to Uruha, his smile never faultering. "Our little Kai is finally growing up yeah?" Uruha just smiled down to Ruki his head bouncing up and down as he showed his agreement. "Yes, yes! Our little Kai…"

Kai just gave a small pout and looked out the window as the two continued to snicker to eachother. "… You two leave him alone. This is obviously very important to Kai." Ruki and Uruha both stopped snickering to look over to Aoi who was standing next to the seat Kai was in. Aoi slowly lowered himself into the empty spot Ruki was once sitting in and settled in next to Kai. "Just ignore them. I'm very happy for you two." Aoi smiled down to Kai, trying to show he really was happy for the couple. "But… I have yet to hear his name."

"Oh right!" Kai blinked as he watched Ruki and Uruha seem to come from nowhere and get into his space. "Tell us the mystery man's name!" Ruki said his eyes wide while Uruha leaned onto him nodding his head. "We would like to hear the one who will soon burst your precious untouched cherry!" Kai went a bright red and started fiddling with the bottom of his jacket while Aoi frowned. "Um, excuse you two. This was an A and B conversation. We will just have to, C'ya later." Both Ruki and Uruha slowly backed off into their seats and huffily crossed their arms over their chest and waited. Aoi nodded before turning back to Kai and giving an apologetic look. "So, tell me… Who is this lucky man's name?"

Kai glanced over to the two trouble makers infront of him, seeing that they weren't going to move from their spots he smiled and moved over to whisper in Aoi's ear. "…His name is Miyavi…" Aoi had leaned down to listen and nodded his approval before pulling away. "I see… I am happy for you two. Really I am. Actually. I think I would like to date you two." Kai's eyes went wide as he looked to Aoi making him laugh. "Not like that Kai… I mean, I would like to host you two on a date…. Does that sound better?" Kai, just looked confused. "… He means he would like to either be your waiter or cook or something so he will be close enough to listen in on your conversation while your with your da—OUCH!" Ruki quickly leaned back into his seat as he held his head, glaring at the sudden water bottle thrown by Aoi.

"Don't listen to him Kai. You can trust me. I wont do anything like that. I just want to be the lucky one to host you two." Kai looked up to Aoi, slightly unsure before smiling weakly when he felt a strong arm wrap around his shoulder and moved him closer to Aoi's person. "So, what do you say?" Aoi asked as he eyed Kai's face. Kai bit his lip once again glancing between Aoi and Ruki still holding his head before giving a small nod. "… A, alright then… Thanks Aoi… For, for doing this for us…" Aoi smiled, letting go of Kai and sitting back into his seat. "No problem Kai! I'm here to help!"

Uruha rolled his eyes standing up from his seat and moving to walk through the isle of the train. "C'mon you guys this is our stop." Ruki was the next up and quickly scrambled over to Uruha, wobbling as the train was still moving. "Geeze! Next time we go to MY dorm for studying. Not Aoi's house!" Aoi shrugged and stood up as well, Kai following behind him. "I have REAL food at my place. Not JUNK."

Ruki had sharply turned around, causing him to fall into Aoi's chest. He glared up to the smirking male. "It's not junk…" He growled. Aoi just shrugged before moving Ruki to his side and shoving past him to get to the door. Ruki fell into a seat and was about to verbally attack Aoi for shoving him aside when Kai suddenly pushed past him to hurry out the train. "KAI!" Kai just gave an apologetic look as he ran out the train.

"Where's Ruki?" Uruha asked once they were out the train station and walking towards their collage. Aoi shrugged. "Who knows, he probably stayed back to get something from the vender…" Kai just pursed his lips as he kept his gaze forwards. "… I'm sure he will meet up with us at lunch…" Aoi shrugged. "Well, he has first period with me.. He better hurry or he will be late." Uruha suddenly sighed and bumped playfully against Aoi. "Do we really have to call you sensei when we are on school grounds?" Aoi glared down to Uruha making him cower away behind Kai. "He's so scary when he frowns like that…" Uruha whispered but it was loud enough for Aoi to hear. Kai just smiled. "You know how Aoi is. He takes his job seriously. Just because were his friends, doesn't mean that we should get any special treatment…" Uruha gave a frown and started whispering in Kai's ear while keeping eye contact with Aoi. Who was frowning as he watched Uruha's little game. "Yeah but, you would think he would cut me some slack! I should be his favorite student. Ya know? I mean, I WAS the one who hooked him and that Akira dude together."

Kai just gave a giggle as he peeked over to Aoi before making a big show of whispering to Uruha, going to play along now. "I think, Aoi-sensei owes you a big favore." Uruha smiled, seeing that Kai was going to play along. He honestly didn't think the other would since Ruki would usually be his partner in crime. "They are a cute couple… Arent they?" Kai giggled once again. "The perfect couple." Uruha got a thinking look on his face before putting his hand up to Kai's ear and whispering once again. "I just wonder how that Akira dude is able to put up with Aoi's attitude at times…" Kai tried holding back his smile but was failing. The two were no lost, forgetting about Aoi right behind them, having gotten deep into the game and turned it real. "You shouldn't say that about Aoi-sensei Uruha…" Even though Kai said this, he didn't sound like he meant it. "I know…" Uruha gave a dramatic sigh and a roll of his eyes before smiling evilly. "I bet more Akira doesn't get any when he wants it. I bet Aoi makes him do some hard BORING HISTORY PAPER THEN FAILS HIM FOR THAT HISTORY PAPER, THAT HE WORKED SO HARD ON FOR A WHOLE WEEKEND!" Uruha started yelling the last bit out, WANTING Aoi to hear this.

Aoi, managed to keep his face calm as he walked past them. "Yes, over the weekend, it was ALL copied off some site. Your lucky I failed you instead of reported you for that. You could have been kicked out of collage, probably arrested for taking someone els work like that and claiming it yours…." Uruha stood up straight and yelled though he was still smiling playfully. "I WORKED HARD FOR THAT!" Aoi nodded. "I agree, you worked hard for that F…" Uruha just shook his head and looked to Kai. "He's a stick in the mud going straight up, like this." He then flipped off Aoi's back as he walked away. Kai swallowed back his smile and lightly hit Uruha in the shoulder. "Your so mean to him Uru!" Uruha laughed. "What are nuts? I'm the nicest person on the planet…"

Kai shook his head before looking to the tall clock tower as the bell started ringing. "Oh crap… Well, I guess you have to go Uruha.." Uruha sighed. "Yeah, morning classes are a bitch. Your lucky your got evening classes Kai." Kai giggled lightly as he shook his head. "I told you to sign up right when you got out of high school. Same with books, you WANT to have a book for college. It's like a race. You have to be the first one." Uruha rolled his eyes. "Whatever. I still think procrastinating is a god…. Yet even though you have such late classes, you still come early… Why?" Kai bit his lip and looked down to the floor. "…. It would seem, my boyfriend likes to procrastinate as well…" He mumbled softly. Uruha smiled widely. "Ohhh, so far I'm starting to think we would get together just fine! But tell me. I would think you would go out with someone who it… Say…. I don't know, a nerdy bookworm. Like… Those Hiroto and Jin kids you like to hang out with so much."

Kai flustered slightly. "N, no way! We… We just have a lot in common!" Uruha nodded. "Yeah, your all short, skimpy, and nerdy… AND you let other people walk all over… And—" Kai quickly raised his hands. "ALRIGHT! I get it. You think were all weak and deafensless…" Uruha seemed to think before shrugging. "…. You said it, not me." Kai just frowned and started marching forward. "Well, for your information Uruha, I have plenty deafens…" Uruha raised an eyebrow. "Oh yeah?" Kai just turned around and smirked. "Yep, I have a boyfriend now." Uruha made an 'Oh' face before shaking his head. "You have been hanging out with me too much!" Kai just laughed before walking away, leaving Uruha to rush to Aoi-sensei's class by himself.

Lunch time, came by slowly. Especially for Kai since he had nothing to do. The only reason why Kai came so early was because Miyavi went to the early classes and they could talk during those passing periods and lunch time. Kai sighed deeply as he heard the bell for the lunch and watched as people started walking out of class buildings and scattering throughout the plaza area. Kai looked around, trying to spot Miyavi. When he didn't see him he gave another heavy sigh, then jumping when he felt something on his shoulder. "Why don't you leave some of that air your sighing for the rest of us?" Kai smiled and twisted in his seat to smile up to Miyavi. "Hey! Your finally out." Miyavi nodded, plopping down next to him, and taking Kai's hand in his own before bringing it up to his mouth and gently kissing it. "Your hands are so cold…" Kai smiled, already used to Miyavi's way of showing affection and leaned up to give Miyavi a soft kiss on the cheek. "You wanna warm them up for me?" Miyavi smiled. "Do I ever!" Kai just smiled even more, thinking on how lucky he was to have such a great boyfriend. Little did he know he was being watched from one of the classrooms.

"…. I'm telling you. Theres something fishy going on with that guy…" Akira sighed and slowly moved through the
maze of chairs over to Aoi before gently wrapping his arms around his waist and kissing his neck.. "… Aoi, what is it that you don't like about him? You don't trust him, yet, you don't know anything about him." Aoi frowned. "But Reita… You mean to tell me you cant feel it? You out of both of us should be able to tell what Miyavi really is…" Aoi murmured as he slowly turned in Reita's grasp and gently moved his lips over Reita's collar. Reita gave a slightly strangled gasp as Aoi started to slowly kiss down his neck, moving the shirt collar out the way. ".. Aoi, please, stop. Not here… Not, now." Aoi stopped his kissing and just laid his chin on Reita's shoulder. "…. Does it still hurt there baby?" Reita just shivered slightly before closing his eyes and gently hugging Aoi. "… It's just, sensitive there…" Aoi sighed, lifting his head up to kiss the side of Reita's head. "It's going to be alright. You have me… Remember, If you ever feel that you need anything. Ask me."

Reita just sighed, pushing away from Aoi and sitting down on one of the desk in the classroom. "… I, I don't want to Aoi." Aoi looked confused and slowly moved to stand infront of Reita. "… What are you—"

"I mean, I don't want to hurt you anymore Aoi… " Reita looked up into Aoi's eyes and gripped onto the table under him before dropping his head. "… I see it… Especially during school. You get so tired. You get cranky, irritable, moody…. And It's all my fault. I, I feel… I feel that I am slowly killing you Aoi." Reita said shakily as he kept his head bowed. Aoi had been silent as he let Reita talk, just watching him. When he saw Reita wasn't going to say anymore he walked over to him and slowly moved his head up so they could lock eyes once again. "… Reita… You need this… You need me. Without me. You will die." Reita just swallowed before shutting his eyes about to drop his head again but Aoi didn't let him. "Hey… Hey, hey… Reita." Aoi said softly, gently kissing the top of his head. "Reita… It's going to be alright… I'm strong. I can take it. You don't have to worry about me." He then smirked when he saw Reita's eyes on him before brushing his thumb over Reita's bottom lip. "C'mon, who was the one that captured you anyway?" Reita blushed and turned his head away making Aoi's smile drop.

"Reita…. Stop, seriously. I love you, but you need to stop worrying so much about me." When Reita didn't move to show he heard him Aoi frowned and forcefully grabbed Reita's face. Reita flinched having no choice to look up to Aoi's smirking face. "… Tell me Reita… You hungry?" Reita's eyes went slightly wide and he shook his head as best he could in Aoi's hold. Aoi just cocked his head to the side and moved his hand to the band around Reita's nose. "N, no! It's ok I'm fine Aoi stop!" Aoi didn't listen and ripped the noseband off Reita's face and threw it to the other side of the room, smirking at what he saw. "… Reita…" Reita tried pulling his face back but Aoi had a strong grip. "Reita… Your nose is bleeding again… Your lying." Reita just stayed silent, unable to hide it. "Reita, you cant keep doing this to yourself… I will always know when your starving yourself." Reita, continued to be silent making Aoi frown.

"Let me see…" Reita blinked confused. "Your teeth let me see them Reita." When Reita didn't move Aoi glared before using his free hand to sock Reita in the face. Reita's head flew to the side before snapping back and shoving Aoi away as he gave a loud hiss. Aoi, landed onto the floor, rump first and smiled seeing Reita's true face. "I swear, it always has to end in violence with your kind…" Reita's eyes were a deep crimson as he glared to Aoi, his teeth now out in the open. "Though I must say, you have some very nice incisors there." Aoi said as he put a hand to his chin. Reita looked away, covering the sharp teeth with his hand. "… Don't do that again Aoi…" He tried to say softly though it cam out more like a growl. Aoi lightly cocked his head. "Why not? It was the only way to get you to show me…" Reita, once again stayed silent, making Aoi frown. "Reita, you cant keep this up. Whenever you starve yourself your body tries to stop it. Your hunger could drive you crazy, so your body uses It's own blood to fill you up so you wont into that killer mode.

Reita just slowly moved away from Aoi and started walking towards the door. "REITA! If you don't drink blood your body will fill itself up with your own blood! You will get ill! REITA!" When Reita still ignored Aoi he cursed and jumped to him feet, running and tackling Reita to the floor. "I am NOT going to let you go through that again Reita!" Aoi yelled as he dug in his back pocket and pulled out a scaple. Reita was trying to fight back under him before he froze as he watched Aoi move the sharp object over his wrist. "No Aoi!" Aoi slowly moved the small knife over his pale skin, letting the blood fall onto Reita's shirt. "I'm doing this cause I fucking love you." Aoi hissed as he shoved his wrist into Reita's lips. Reita flailed under him and tried shaking his head no, but Aoi had a grip on one of Reita's hands while he sat on the other. "Just, DRINK IT DAMMIT!" Reita tried struggling but wasn't able to block out all the blood. Just the scent was enough to drive him crazy. When he tasted the fresh blood in his mouth something clicked inside him. Against his will his body started relaxing, and his mouth slowly opening to allow the bloodied wrist in.

Tears rolled Down Reita's eyes as he watched Aoi smile softly over him before leaning down and gently kissing his head. "It's going to be alright Reita, just, drink and don't worry. Do it for me…" Aoi let go of Reita's arm and slowly ran his hand through Reita's hair as he continued to drink the blood as he poured from Aoi's wrist into his mouth. "It's going to be alright…"

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"… Miyavi, are you sure we're allowed to be here?" Kai asked as he laid ontop of Miyavi. Miyavi laughed, his chest heaving against Kai's. "Of course, were just in the picnic area. There are a lot of trees so it's more private. People come here to study mostly. Not to eat." Kai nodded before smiling and leaning down to rub his nose against Miyavi's. "I love you…" Miyavi smiled up to him before craning his neck and giving Kai a gentle kiss. "Not as much as me though." Kai rolled his eyes leaning down to kiss Miyavi on the cheek, then nose, then lips. Miyavi just smiled up to him. "Your so beautiful Kai…" Kai blushed at the soft comment before hiding his face in the crook of Miyavi's neck. "Aww, don't say that. I'll blush…" Miyavi giggled, scrunching his neck since it tickled him when Kai spoke. "But, it's the truth." Kai just lifted his head back up to look down to Miyavi critically. "… Hey, guess what." Miyavi blinked his eyes wider and smiled to show he was listening. "What?"

"One of my best friends want to host a date for us." Miyavi blinked before smiling. "That's great Kai! So, I'm guessing this means there ok with us being together?" Kai shrugged. "I think, he just wants to be in out buisiness… But, It's the thought that counts." Miyavi smiled and sat up to kiss Kai's chin. "Is this friend someone who I know, or have seen?" Kai laughed feeling the kiss and nodded. "Yeah, it's Aoi." Miyavi blinked, his smile turning to a thin line. "…. The history teacher?" He asked blandly. Kai blinked at the sudden change in Miyavi's attitude and slowly nodded, his own smile slowly melting away. "Yes…. Is that a problem?" Miyavi fiddled with his sweater collar before shaking his head no. "But, like… Does he even approve of… Of… Well, would he approve of us?" Kai smiled. "Are you asking if he is gay?" When Miyavi nodded Kai laughed making Miyavi confused. He didn't say anything funny… "Yea, Aoi is gay himself. You know that science teacher? That Akira dude?" Miyavi nodded again. "Yeah, we hooked them up! They go out now!"

Miyavi blinked before smiling and sitting up. "Wow, then this works out just great for us Kai! We can be together! With no worries!" Miyavi wrapped his arms around Kai and rocked them back and forth as he smothered Kai's neck with kisses. Kai just laughed, feeling very ticklish before sitting silently in Miyavi's lap and looking at all the nice trees and the view. It was all very nice, it seemed now they wouldn't have much to worry about. They would have the date with Aoi, Kai would bring Miyavi to meet the rest of the gang. Miyavi had already showed Kai his friends. So now, they just enjoy their time together…

Kai, was enjoying the warmth coming from Miyavi's body as he held him closely on his lap and almost started to fall asleep as Miyavi gently rocked them both back and forth. "…. I'm getting hungry…" Kai laughed as he heard the soft growl come from Miyavi's stomach and looked up to him. "Your always hungry." Miyavi just looked down to him, though he wasn't smiling. "… Yorke should be here anyminute." He said softly as he looked away from Kai. Kai blinked as his smile slowly fell. It was always like this. It was probably the only thing that slightly bothered Kai. "… Miyavi, is everything ok?" Miyavi shifted slightly before letting Kai slide from his lap next to him. "… Yeah, It's fine. Just… Hungry." Kai, wasn't convinced. "… But, It's just… Whenever you seem hungry, you, you seem kinda… Different?" Miyavi blinked up to Kai, waiting for the other to say more since he didn't fully understand what Kai was talking about. Kai bit his lip and crossed his legs. "W, well… I mean. When your hungry, you, you seem too yourself. Like… You don't want to cuddle, or, you don't want to be touched. Is everything alright? You can tell me youknow?"

Miyavi pursed his lips before shifting in his spot again. "… I, it's fine Kai… When I get some food, we can cuddle again… Promise." Kai shook his head. "But, it's scary when you eat Miyavi… You and your friends but mostly you… You, you really gorge yourself. You eat until your in pain. I've seen you do it. Then, you feel ill, and all what you want to do is sleep…" Miyavi looked down to his hands. "… So, maybe I enjoy food…" Kai sadly looked down to the blanket they were sitting on. "But, you look so sad when you eat…" Miyavi snapped his head up, looking to Kai's depressed figure before biting on his lip ring and moving over to gently kiss Kai on the forehead. "… I'm sorry Kai. I'm, glad you told me though… It's not good to keep things bottled up." Kai slowly looked up to Miyavi before smiling softly. "I really do care about you Miyavi… I love you very much." Miyavi smiled. "And, I love you very much too." He leaned in and gave Kai a quick peck on the lips before pulling away and sitting back in his spot, his hands in his lap.

Kai sighed as he watched Miyavi just sitting there before looking up when someone walked over. "Hey Meevs! How's it goin'?" Miyavi instantly perked up and quickly got up to his feet as he greeted his friend. "TKYO! What are you doing here?" TKYO shrugged. "Well, everyone is back at the car and waiting for you, were going to go eat." Miyavi's face slowly went still before turning to Kai. "C'mon Kai. Unless… You don't want to…" Kai looked between TKYO and Miyavi before smiling softly. "I'll come." Miyavi smiled and took out his hand for Kai to take. "Alright…."

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Aoi slowly walked out the dark classroom first, looking both ways down the hall before quickly walking out. Soon, Reita walked out as well, making sure to cover the red spots on his clothes and quickly started walking the opposite way down the hall.

They would meet up later…

"And so, when he walked away, I said…. 'Yo! Bring me back some of that'!" At this the whole table broke out in loud laughter and people cheering and pointing while making big faces. Miyavi just shook his head as he looked over to the table full of his friends before smiling back across the table to Kai. "There, so full of energy…" Miyavi blinked when he heard Kai suddenly speak. He watched Kai's face, the small smile on his lips, the way his eyes seemed to go lazy as if he just wanted to sleep but was too happy, too relaxed to even think about sleeping. "I really like your friends. Theyer so much different from my friends…" Kai looked back over to Miyavi. "They remind me of kids… Ya know. The way adults wish they could be…" Miyavi blinked his mouth behind his folded hands before letting go of a small chuckle. "You really think so?" Kai slowly nodded as he looked back to the loudest table in the restraunt. "… You know, like… These adults in here who glare at them… I think, they are secretly envying them… Miyavi?"

Miyavi had suddenly started holding his head in the middle of Kai's speech. "I, I'm sorry Kai, It's just a headache… I'm fine… Really." Kai, still looked concerned as he looked to Miyavi, then to all the plates stacked around him. Why the other ate so much to the point he will get ill was beyond Kai. "… Should we go home?" When Miyavi answered with a short nod Kai knew he wasn't alright. When Kai moved to get up Miyavi quickly raised his hand to keep Kai away from him. "… U, um… I think, I will go home with Yorke and them… If, if that's ok with you…" Kai, looked slightly hurt but nodded In the end and slowly sat back down. Miyavi smiled apologetically as he watched Kai sulk. "… Hey." Kai slowly looked up and couldn't held but smile as Miyavi blew a kiss over to him. "I love you…" Kai shrugged. "I love you too Miyavi…" Miyavi cheesed widely. "Not as much as I love you…" Kai just shook his head as he smiled softly to Miyavi.

Miyavi looked to Kai's face for a second before wincing and laying his head down on the table. "Please… Can you please… Call TKYO…" Kai blinked and quickly stood up to rush over to the table TOKYO and them were all sitting and laughing loudly. "TKYO, TKYO. I, I think… Miyavi!" Kai pointed back to the table the two were sitting at, every one craning their heads to get a look. When TKYO saw Miyavi leaning over the side of the table, holding his stomach he quickly turned to everyone. "Time to go!" He said quickly before he stood up and started sprouting out orders to every one. "Yorke, pay for the food, for both tables. Saro, go start the van, Ryo, help me get Miyavi. Rene, please explain everything to Kai. And DJ, go into the van and put your seatbelt on, I don't have anything for you to do right now. Now MOVE people!"

Kai quickly jumped away as everyone quickly scrambled out of the small booth, some people jumping over the table. Saro was already pulling out the keys, DJ close behind him. TKYO and Ryo both started over to Miyavi while Yorke started going through his deep pockets, pulling out change and crinkled dollar bills. "Kai?" Kai snapped his head away from all the chaos going on around, he could already hear the van outside starting up. "Whats going on?" Kai asked shakily to Rene as Rene held Kai's shoulders and started to massage them. "Hey, it's going to be alright. We need to go. But everything is going to be ok…" Kai shook his head, his eyes wide as they watched TKYO and Ryo drag Miyavi out the restraunt, Yorke somehow found a wrinkled check and was now scribbling over it, loose change scattered all around him.

Rene gently touched Kai's face so he could look back to him. "It's, going to be alright man." Kai jumped for Rene's hands on his face as he started to pull away. "Kai, trust us… Miyavi will be ok. Tomorrow, you two will be back in eachothers arms. I swear." Kai felt panic start to grip him as he watched Yorke suddenly bolt up and run for the door, a disbanded check on the table along with all the change. A honk from the van made Rene look away towards the window, seeing DJ ushering him to hurry. Rene looked back to Kai. "I got to go." Kai shook his head.
"No, no!" Rene shook his head. "Listen, I will tell Miyavi to call you." Afew honks from the horn made Rene shift. "I have to go. I have to help. I'll tell Miyavi to call the second he feels better." Kai grabbed Rene again as he tried to leave, another honk. "The SECOND, he gets better Kai! I have to go! I'm sorry!" A long honk this time TOKYO sticking his head out from the van. "RENE! GET YOUR ASS IN THIS CAR NOW!"

Rene took a shaky breath, closing his eyes before opening them again. "Please Kai… I have to go. I told you… The exact second he gets better, he will be picking up his phone and dialing your number…" Kai bit his lip. "I, I want…"
Rene shook his head. "The longer you hold me here Kai, the longer it will take to get Miyavi back with you…" Kai seemed to tense at that his eyes locked on Renes. A long honk and TKYO banging on the side of the car door made Rene tug away from Kai, and something click. "… You promise… You swear he will call me?" Rene shook his head. "I promise." Kai obviously didn't want to let go, but with a last honk from the car Kai let his grip loosen on Rene's shirt and Rene slipped away before running out the restraunt and into the van.

Kai watched the van then speed off, to gods only know before he noticed all the stares he was getting in the restraunt. Though he wasn't really surprised… They had caused a big show just now… He put his hand up to his hair and slowly ran it through before letting out a sigh and walking out the little building. He was now angry, embarrassed, confused, lost, hurt… All this stuff… He just wanted to go home. But he still had to go to school. "I don't even want to go anymore…" Kai sniffed, but managed to push himself over to the closest buss stop before collapsing down and crying…

"Miyavi… You alright?" DJ asked softly as he watched Miyavi slowly walk out the alley assisted by TKYO. Yorke took a step forward but was pushed aside by Miyavi. "I… HATE… Eating that human shit!" Miyavi growled still holding his middle. Everyone flinched but Yorke and TKYO. "… Miyavi… You cant keep doing this. Your hurting yourself…" Yorke said softly. Miyavi's frown slowly melted and he brought a hand up to cover his eye as his face contorted. "… But, I LOVE him…" There was silence until Shige cleared his throat. "… But, Miyavi. Think about it… Kai is going to find out.. Might as well tell him." Miyavi glared up to Shige, though Shige didn't flinch. "… Tell me. Theres more too it isnt't there…" When no answer came everyone turned their gazes over to Miyavi who seemed frozen with… Fear? "Tell me Miyavi… Why els hide it… Because this didn't start with Kai… It started much earlier than him… So why do this? What is the REAL reason?"

Miyavi's breath started to pick up as he glared to Sahige. "You, you BASTARD! DON'T QUESTION ME!" Miyavi yelled moving to attack Shige, but TKYO had a strong grip on him. "Miyavi! Calm down! He's just trying to help!" Miyavi tried struggling. "I DON'T WANT HELP! I DON'T NEED IT!" Shige slowly shook his head. "He's ill… We should take him home." Rene suggested quietly but no one seemed to had heard him. Shige and Miyavi just continued to stare eachother down until Miyavi snapped his head over to Yorke. "Please… Find me some real food. I wont be able to do it myself now…" Yorke nodded his understanding before running off through the alleyway. There was his running footsteps before something sounding as if it were ripping then a loud howl.

It went quiet then. TKYO still holding Miyavi up. "…… I want to be normal…" Every one looked up at the sudden break of silence by Miyavi, who kept his gaze down. "… I, for the longest time I… I have always wanted to be, 'normal' I thought. If, I tried to eat regular food… Then, I can become normal again…" Shige looked to Miyavi before sighing and crossing his arms. "… Miyavi. You ARE human you know that right?" Miyavi shook his head and covered his ears. "No! I'm not! I'm a monster!" Shige frowned before taking a step forward. "Your not a monster Miyavi! Your confused! You're a human being! Yorke is a monster! TKYO is a monster! I'M A MONSTER!" Every one looked to Shige with wide eyes since Shige has never raised his voice before, and never to the leader…

Miyavi just stood there limply as he looked to the ground with wide eyes, TKYO still holding him up. It went silent again for a long while until there was some noise as something was being dragged on the rough ground. Yorke soon came into view, dragging a trashcan behind him, his breath coming out in short pants. "The bitch tried to run from me." He sighed, placing the can infront of Miyavi. Miyavi just stared glumly to it since it was put in his line of vision. Shige had been watching Miyavi closely but soon shook his head and turned to look to everyone, seeing they were starring intently at Miyavi. Waiting to see what he would do. "… C'mon you guys. Lets leave him alone now." Everyone seemed to snap into attention before slowly moving out and away. Shige nodded to TKYO who let Miyavi go and started walking away. Yorke moved to go, but then stopped to look to Miyavi. "… U, um… I, I didn't kill her… So, well… She's just paralyzed is all… Yeah."

With that, Yorke moved away and out leaving Shige and Miyavi alone. "… We'll be waiting in the car for you Miyavi…" Miyavi just sniffed as Shige started moving away. "… I'm not going back…" Shige stopped to look back to Miyavi, watching as he stabled himself against the trashcan. "… I'm, not going back tonight…" Shige looked to Miyavi long and hard for a minute before nodding. "Miyavi, I think, you should tell Kai… Yet, that's just me… You do what you want… Maybe I'm wrong… Maybe it's not a good idea to tell him… All I know. Is if he really loves you… You should tell him the truth… But if this is just puppy love like all the others… Then. I don't know Miyavi." When Miyavi didn't answer Shige sighed and started walking away.

When Miyavi was left alone he snatched the lid off the garbage can, seeing the lady inside. Yorke always picked the pretty ones…

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Kai, didn't get into his dorm until late. It was past 12 and was almost 1 in the morning. He collapsed onto his couch, looking over to the clock on the VCR before checking his cell phone. When he saw he had no calls he pursed his lips and tossed his phone to the other side of the couch. "Of course he wont call…. Not at 1 in the morning…" Kai soon noticed the lack of noise through the dorm and sat up to look around. The kitchen was empty… He looked towards the halls seeing it was dark. Uruhally Uruha would be studying in the kitchen, and Ruki would be taking a long shower… But no one was there. Kai sighed, slowly getting up and walking over to the dark bathroom, not wanting to turn on the lights. He just peeked in, smelling Uruha's shampoo, and could still feel the damp warmth. "… They must have washed up and gone somewhere…" Kai mumbled before walking away towards the bedroom. Since they were in collage, it was a one bedroom dorm. They were lucky to even have a hallway. But since Aoi worked there, he was able to pull afew strings for them, and got them what seemed like a nice one room apartment…. Witch was just perfect for the three. Kai walked into the room, turning on the light and seeing the bunk bed, then looked over to the waterbed. Ruki slept on the top bunk while Kai on the bottom. Uruha slept on the bed against the door, witch was a water bed… Something Uruha purchased with his own money…

Kai stiffly walked over to his bed before sinking down and giving a groan. Forsome reason… Today was a real bitch… It started off just fine… But it was still a load of crap…. "… I doubt Miyavi will even call tonight…" Kai groaned again before rolling over onto his side, feeling his shoulders ache. He suddenly froze when he heard a knock on the front door. He held still and strained his ears to try and listen and see if it was just his mind playing tricks on him. When he heard the heavy knocking again he sighed and pushed himself up. "That has to be Ruki… He's the only one who knocks like he owns the place… Probably forgot his key…"

When Kai swung open the door he let a small gasp leave his lips, witch Miyavi quickly moved to swallow up. "Sorry I'm late… I didn't mean to leave so suddenly…" Kai blinked up to Miyavi, speechless. "… M, m, m, Miya…" Miyavi smiled slowly moving his arms around Kai's waist and kissed his open mouth. "You look like a fish out of water." Kai quickly closed his mouth before looking away. Miyavi noticed and cocked his head. "Whats wrong?" Kai frowned and wriggled out of Miyavi's grasp and walked back towards his room. Miyavi moved to close the door and run after him, his question still hanging in the air. Kai, though, stayed silent, and just fell back onto his bottom bunk. Miyavi slowly walked up to the door, stopping there, it wasn't just Kai's room…

"….. Kai, whats wrong?" When Kai didn't answer Miyavi shifted onto his other foot and leaned against the door frame. "… Kai… Please tell me whats wrong… I want to know." Miyavi asked softly as he watched Kai on his bed. Kai moved his arms under his head as he looked up to the underside of the top bunk. "…….. No." Miyavi blinked at that. "…. No?" Kai frowned. "No… I wont tell you anything… Till you tell me whats wrong." Miyavi stood there before scratching behind his ear and taking a step into the room. "… Can I come in?" Kai, didn't seem to answer at first. "… Are you going to tell me whats wrong?" Miyavi bit his lip wring before just letting himself in. "… Kai… Please look at me." When Kai didn't move his gaze from the top of the bunk Miyavi sighed and moved to crawl over Kai. Kai shifted under him and just looked away when Miyavi got in his line of vision. "… Please Kai? I, I'm sorry… I didn't want to leave you… Honest."

When Kai still didn't look to him Miyavi bit his lip before slowly moving to gently kiss Kai's exposed throat. Kai took in a sharp breath, moving his hands from behind his head to push Miyavi off, but Miyavi grabbed his wrist and gently laid them on either side of Kai's head as he continued to kiss him. "M., Miyavi… S, stop it." Kai strained, his voice starting to come out in fast pants. Miyavi just shook his head as he started nuzzling Kai's collar out the way to gently nibble the pale skin. "Miyavi!" Miyavi smiled against Kai's skin a t the small gasp and moved his head up to gently kiss under Kai's chin. When he finally looked up and made eyecontact with Kai, Kai looked angry, but at the same time seduced. "… You know, I'm still angry with you Miyavi…" Miyavi just pulled away from Kai's chin to kiss his lips. "…. I know… But I still love you…" There was silence until Kai finally spoke up. "… But not as much as I love you…"

Miyavi, couldn't help but smile.

KP IS NOT DEAD!!!!! :O