Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note ar any of the Death note characters. I DO own Grey Swan and Valor.

Twilight Misery

My life is a joke God made to please others and make them feel better about their own poor miserable lives. How dare Him. What am I saying? I deserve…nothing. You know why? Because I'm a worthless waste of skin that only can think about me while there are so many people who I've caused such damned pain. So much death is because of me. Before you finish reading, you'll know why I want to be called the Grimm Reaper instead of everyone else's name for me: Grey Swan...

Chapter 1- Whammy Good-byes

"Good bye, Valor!" the girl hugged her best girl friend at the orphanage.

"Melhores desejos, meu anjo de neblina(1)." They released, but they still held each others' hands at arm length. "Best wishes, my haze angel. I hope you have a happy life with no big obstacles from here on out."

"Thank you, Val. I…I want to never leave you but…me…" A tear trickled down the girl's cheek.

"Come on now, meu anjo(2)! You FINALLY have your family up and running to be with and love! That's more than most here can ask for!" Valor put her index finger under her friend's chin to make her look up at her. "You go and have a happy life! I do not want you to go, but I want you to! You know?"

They let go of each others hands.

"Y-yeah," she said wiping her eyes with a sleeve. "I guess…"

"Good! Now then, do you have all your friends' info?"

"Yeah. Yours too, but Valor you said you'd get—"

"I'm sorry. It's just too exclusive to get. But you know what? It's not a TOTAL loss."

"How so?"

"Well, um, to find him, you can go on cool quest and I think I heard Roger talking with Mr. Wammy himself about where our boy is going next!"

"Really? 'Cause Valor, these better not has been freakin' Mel-Mel trying to play it of like he's on the "inside" or some stupid crap."

"It's not! I heard it myself when I was going by Roger's office! He said L was in…" She whispered into the girl's ear. "…where you're headed!"

"OH. MY. EFFIN'. GOD! This is SO great! Only one problem…"

"What?"

"Where in…" whispered "where I'm going are I going to find him?"

"Start with the police. Do some snooping…"

"Right…Always with the SNOOPING, Val! ALWAYS!"

"Ha! Fine! Just ignore me! You're too good for my bad ways anyway!"

"Right! I'm the good girl of our group!"

They hugged again.

"Hey, are Mel-Mel, Nae, and Mattail coming to say good bye?" the girl asked.

"No, they had to study. I'm sorry anjo de neblina. I--"

"It's okay. I understand. L's always more important…"

Valor opened the car door for her friend and her friend got in. She closed the door and waved good bye before backing away a little from the car. She went inside. The car's engine started. It was about to pull away from Wammy's House, when…

"HEY! DON'T LEAVE YET!" a boy's voice yelled. "HEY! WAIT!"

"Hm?" the girl in the car said while rolling down the window. "What? Is that…?"

The boy was running towards the car. He stopped at the girl's window. His red brown hair was all messy from the wind. He hung onto the car's window part of her door.

"H-hey G-grey Swan…" he said winded from under messy bangs.

"Mattail, you came! Mattail! I'm…I'm so happy!"

"Yeah, but I'm sad. You're leaving!"

"But we'll keep in touch, right?"

"Yeah! Oh wait! I got you a going away present!"

"What? Really? Thanks!"

He handed her a bundle wrapped in red tissue paper and tied with a black satin ribbon. It was small, but heavy. She set it on her lap.

"Don't open it until you get to where you're gonna be staying, 'kay?"

"And why NOT?"

"It's a surprise, Grey. Geez, have some fun!"

"It must be a good one for you to wrap it like this! I absolutely LOVE the ribbon, Mattail!"

"I knew you would! Mello helped me pick it out."

"Ah, Mel-Mel… Is there a specific reason he's not here?"

"Studying," they said together. They both laughed.

"Oh yeah, speaking of Mello, he said to give you this!"

He handed her what looked like a big golden foil wrapped Rubix cube. It was stamped on top "Belgium Dark." She took it and held it to the light.

"Wow! He gave me some chocolate from his Secret Stash? How thoughtful! Give him my thanks and a good bye. What about Nae?"

"Near? He sent you this…thing…"

Matt handed her what looked like a shoebox wrapped in white and light blue tissue paper and tied with a white satin ribbon. It had a card. She put it on the seat beside her.

"Um…cool? At least he…cares…sort of…"

"Yeah, I know…"

"Hey Mattail?"

"Yes?"

"Your goggles…"

"Huh?"

She snapped the band that connected them between his eyes. He gave out a small yelp of pain. She then tousled his hair with her hand.

"You need exercise or you'll never get used to physical activity. You know why?"

"Why? Because you're my mom now?"

"No silly! Next time we meet, I don't know when or where. Maybe 2 or even 10 years from now, I'm going to be running. I'll be crying though. Don't worry. I'll run straight to you, where ever you are. But I'll knock you down (by accident, of course). You'll be running too. But you have to be fast, or I'll run to another…"

They were silent for a few minutes.

"…So…I'll train hard. To run…fast. I'll be like a cheetah."

"No. A tiger. A Bengal tiger. You have to be stealthy, fast, and agile, and…" She reached out her hand and touched hid face. "…cool…"

Matt turned red a little. He took off his goggles and rested them on his chest.

"Um… y-yeah… We're still gonna be friends right?"

"Yes. You shouldn't ask questions you already know the answers to. But about Mel-Mel and Nae…"

"Yeah? What about them?"

She grabbed him by his shirt collar and pulled him right to the window.

"Don't you EVER let either of them control you, hear me? They'll just use you and you'll get killed for some stupid reason that was NEVER supposed to happen."

"Don't worry about me." Matt gave her a reassuring smile. "I'll be fine."

The girl sighed and let go.

"I just hope you're right. Good bye Mattail…"

The car started to pull away slowly. Matt walked along side it. The car sped up and Matt stopped walking along side it. It went faster. The girl stuck her head out the window and called to Matt.

"Oh WAIT! One thing! Next time we meet, I'LL HAVE A DIFFERENT APPEARANCE AND NAME!"

"GOOD BYE! I DON'T CARE! YOU'LL--"

The car drove out of earshot, taking one of Matt's few friends with it.

"You'll always be my Grey Swan…"

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Translations (there WILL be some in the story):

(1) Melhores desejos, meu anjo de neblina. - Best wishes, my haze angel.

(2) - meu anjo - my angel

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With that said, Valor is not a lesbian! She talks that way to all her close friends, which isn't very many, and gives them those kind of pet names. She even gives guys names like that.

Grey mixes some of her friends' names up and makes nicknames out of them.

Mel-Mel = Mello

Mattail = Matt/Mail

Nae = Near/Nate

Val = Valor