Author's Note: Hey ya'll. So this is my first Twilight fan fiction and I know it starts off pretty bad and hurried but it will get better next chapter when I really sit down and go through it. I started writing this last year and I'm looking forward to finally publishing it for you guys. For everyone reading my fic 'Gentle Motions' the last chapter should be up really soon and I'm sorry about the wait. Anyway, let me know what you think of this chapter and if you want me to continue. Enjoy.

Darkwolf.

CH 1 – Blood

Bella's POV

Bella sat on the cold, tiled floor of her bathroom. They were gone. HE was gone. SHE was gone. How did they expect her to survive without them? It had been almost five weeks and still there was nothing, no word, no call, no letter. She's finally cracked. She couldn't take being alone anymore. If he was able to just up-and-leave like that then obviously what they'd had wasn't really love. But that left her confused. If she didn't have Edward, what did she have? At the moment all she had was a razor blade and a number of scars from her attempts to give physical evidence of her emotional pain. And it still didn't compare. She'd built her life around him. Him and Her.

Alice.

Now there was an even more confusing matter. Originally Bella's nightmares consisted of Edward leaving her. About three weeks ago though, the figure that shattered her heart had morphed into Alice Cullen. This had, to begin with, confused and scared her. Now it just seemed pathetically typical. Couldn't she even miss her boyfriend (no, ex-boyfriend) in peace without realizing she was in love with his sister all along? His sister, who had a husband.

Arrg! Her life was so damn, fucking complicated!

Well, it didn't matter now anyway. That was why she had the razor blade. It was time to stop with small cuts and just do what Edward and Alice did, time to finish what they started. A clean break.

Bella took a deep breath.

"This is it. Goodbye dad. Goodbye Edward. Goodbye… Alice." She murmured.

The last name came out no higher than a whisper.

She slowly brought the blade across her wrist diagonally before switching to the next wrist.

Two cuts to match two painful goodbyes.

Yes, it would all be over soon.

Just before she passed out, Bella could have sworn she saw the bathroom door fly open and could see Alice standing in the doorway with a horror struck look on her face.

'At least fate was nice enough to give me a pleasant delusion before I died.' She thought, a happy smile coming to her features.

Alice's POV

She was running. Not just running but running.

'I knew it was a bad idea to leave. I told them. "We leave and she'll die." I said. But no, I'm just being emotional. She'll get over us. Bullshit. This isn't over us.' Alice thought angrily.

She and Jasper hadn't survived a week once Alice could no longer hide behind Bella's normally overwhelming emotions. It had only taken a few days for Jasper to pick up on her feelings of loss, her heartache. At first they screamed. They yelled till they didn't even know what they were arguing about. Then they through insults. After that it all came to a head. Jasper admitted that he knew the moment the two meet that they were soul mates. That Alice and he were over. Alice had known by the visions. No matter what decisions were made it didn't change much. The time or place would change but the result was always the same.

Alice and Bella fell in love.

She tried to ignore it, to play the best friend. But it didn't work. So instead she settled into the knowledge that one day, Bella would love her. That Bella would be hers.

But then they left.

Then the vision changed.

At first the visions were the same. Then they altered slightly. Things being more tense then they once were as Bella became angry. Then she'd be more clingy and scared of rejection as she became more desperate.

Alice hadn't expected this.

She'd been with Jasper, resting in a field, talking about (what else?) Bella. She'd just lapsed into a thoughtful silence after an intense argument where Jasper kept telling her to go back to Bella, to be happy, when she'd had the vision.

Blood was everywhere. Crimson staining the pristine white of the bathroom tiles. Charlie, standing in the doorway in shock. A look of horror and anguish on his worn face. Bella's body. Cold and unmoving on the ground. The blood was pouring from twin cuts on her wrists. Or at least it had been. She'd bleed out by the point Charlie came home. A scream. "BELLA!!!"

Jasper had roughly shaken her. She'd screamed Bella's name at the same time Charlie had and Jasper had gotten worried. She'd stared at him a moment before screaming out.

"Bella's going to kill herself! Don't tell Edward!"

Then she was running.

She hadn't stopped since.

Now she was back in Forks and running harder than ever to reach Bella in time. She'd never forgive herself if Bella died. It would be her fault. She knew she had to return to Bella, to help her, but had let family ties keep her in place. She hadn't wanted to start a fight with Edward and now it might be too late to save Bella. The one thing in her life that still made sense. Bella understood her, and she understood Bella.

Edward had hated that. That's why he forced her to leave as well; on the off chance that Alice's visions came true, that Bella fell in love with her.

Now Alice was running to save the only girl who ever really cared about her. The only person who ever really cared about her.

Bella's house came in to view, and Charlie's police cruiser wasn't there. Alice felt a sigh of relief surge through her. She'd done it. She reached the house and took a deep breath.

No.

She took another deep breath, smelling.

NO!

Throwing open the door she ran up the stairs and through open the bathroom door.

There, on the white tiled floor, was Bella. Twin slash's across her wrists. Blood pouring onto the floor. Bella looked at her for a second, smiled, and fell unconscious.

This snapped Alice out of her daze.

"BELLA!" she screamed.

Flashing to the other girl's side she slid to a stop on the floor beside Bella and cradled the brunette's body close to her own.

"Oh, Bella. It's gonna be okay. I'll look after you. I promise." Alice swore.

Alice carefully moved Bella's body into an upright position before grabbing the first aid kit and hurrying to clean and bandage Bella's cuts. She noticed more scars covering Bella's wrists and realized that this wasn't the first time Bella had cut, but it was intended to be the last, it would be the last.

Picking up the still unconscious girl, Alice moved them into Bella's bedroom and lay Bella down on the bed. She hesitated a second before sighing and giving into her desires. She needed to feel Bella's body next to hers. Needed to feel her warmth. Alice climbed into the bed and pulled Bella against her body, wrapping an arm around the younger girl's waist. She fished her cell phone out of her pocket and hit speed dial.

"Hello? Alice?" came Jasper's worried voice.

"Yeah Jazz, it's me." Alice replied quietly, not wishing to chance Bella waking up quiet yet.

"How's Bella? Is she okay?" Jasper asked.

"She's going to be. I got here just in time. She passed out right as I opened the door. She hasn't lost too much blood. She'll be okay soon." Alice sighed.

"How are you?" Jasper asked.

"I'm okay. I've just… I've never been that scared before Jazz. I really thought I was going to lose her. When I got to the house and saw Charlie wasn't home yet, I was relived. I thought it hadn't happened. When I got to the door I took a deep breath and… I smelled it. Her blood. It was there and it was so… strong. I got so scared." Alice said, chocking slightly at the remembrance.

Jasper was silent for a minute.

"I'm going to tell Edward that you've gone looking for info about your past. I want you to stay there, with Bella. You need each other. I'll keep Edward away as long as possible. Please Alice, be happy. That's all I've ever wanted for you." Jasper whispered.

Alice was stunned, but she new he was right.

"Thank you Jasper. That means a lot to me. Be careful around Edward." she warned.

"Will do. Look after my new little sis. Can't wait to see her again." Jasper laughed.

Alice joined in, knowing that she would turn Bella, and soon.

"Bye Jasper." She whispered.

"Bye Alice." He replied.

Alice hung up and turned her attention to the girl lying beside her.

"Never again, Bella. I'll never leave you again." She whispered.

Bella's POV

She woke up disoriented.

'Aren't I meant to be dead?' she thought.

She was in a warm bed with a cold body next to her own.

'Great. Even in hell I can't avoid them. This sucks. They get to leave me in life and in death.' She thought bitterly.

No matter how much it hurt that they had left her, she still felt anger at them for doing it.

'And Alice didn't even say goodbye.' She thought sadly.

She kept her eyes shut just a little longer, letting her last memories wash over her. She'd slit her wrists to finally escape the pain. Just before she'd passed out shed seen Alice.

'My favorite delusion. Guess I should see which one I'm stuck with in hell. Probably Edward since it would be just typical now I know I love his sister.' She thought with a sigh.

Opening her eyes she was greeted with the sight of warm, worried, golden eyes.

"Hey. I was starting to worry that you wouldn't wake up."

"Alice." Bella breathed, her voice caught in her throat.

Alice smiled sadly at her.

"I had a vision of Charlie finding you and came as fast as I could. Jasper and I have been arguing for weeks if I should return or not. I'm so sorry Bella. I let my desire to not have conflict with Edward rule over you. I won't let it happen again. You're my main priority, forever." Alice whispered sadly, head bowed.

Bella just stared in shock at the pixy like girl who had always been so bubbly and active. Now she was sad and serious. It was unnerving to say the least. Still, Bella was pissed.

"You left." She snarled.

"Yes." Alice replied sadly.

"You left. No note, no call, no goodbye."

"Yes."

"Now you're here."

"Yes."

"Why?"

The last was said incredulously. Alice had left, now she was in Bella's room, in Bella's bed, acting like they could just get over it in a couple of seconds!

"Because… because Edward doesn't deserve you. And because I'd like the chance to try." Alice whispered.

Bella stopped breathing.

Did Alice really say what Bella thought she just said?

"Alice?" Bella asked cautiously.

"Yes Bella." Alice sighed. "I love you."

Bella was stunned.

"Jasper?" she whispered.

"Accepts that I'm no longer in love with him. He's more like a brother now. He's happy for me and just wants me to be happy. We've talked about it a lot as of late." Alice explained.

"Oh, I see." Bella murmured.

Alice waited for a while but became nervous.

"Don't worry Bella. I'd never force you into something you don't want." She sighed.

"No, no. It's not that at all. I realized about three weeks ago that I was in love with you all along. It's just… what about your family. They all left so I think it's safe to say their on Edwards side in the 'Leave Bella' campaign." Bella said softly, her hurt coming through.

"Bella. No one wanted to leave but Edward. We all begged him to see reason but he was insistent that it was in your best interest that we leave. The others left because they felt that since you agreed there was nothing they could do." Alice explained.

Bella was confused.

"Agreed? I never agreed." She said.

Alice stared at her, uncomprehending.

"Yeah, you did. Edward said he talked to you about it and you agreed after a while that some time apart may be a good idea." Alice said slowly, carefully.

Bella felt her anger swell.

"WHAT!? Alice, I collapsed on the forest floor unable to move from shock. It was all Edward's decision to leave. My best interests and "It'll be like I never existed." crap. I never agreed to anything!" Bella hissed.

Alice was shocked.

"That lying BASTED! None of us would have agreed to go otherwise. I didn't agree anyway. I got dragged into the car by Emmett on Edward's orders!" Alice yelled, pissed.

Bella was a little amused by Alice's outburst, but mostly she was pissed. So Edward had forced everyone away and had taken Alice from her. He obviously knew that Bella would relies she loved Alice soon so he had forced them all out under the guise of it being in Bella's best interests. Bullshit. It was in his best interest. So they didn't ruin his pride.

Fucking male.

Alice was still fuming over Edward's betrayal. Bella sighed. As much as she'd love to see Alice kick his ass, it was better for everyone if she didn't.

"Calm down, tink." She murmured in Alice's ear.

Alice had always reminded Bella of Tinkerbelle from Peter Pan. Now seemed as good a time as any to use the new nickname.

Alice gave her a confused look before understanding lit her eyes. She smiled happily. Forgetting about Edward for the moment.

"I love you too." Bella murmured.

Alice's grin grew as she hummed happily before leaning in to kiss Bella softly. It was in that second that any fears Bella may have had that she was just using Alice to replace Edward disappeared. Fire shot along her veins, mixing with the feeling of electricity. There was a connection with Alice that just hadn't been there with Edward. It was obvious to Bella that all they'd had was a sad mix of lust and desire. With Alice it was different. She just knew that they were right together. That she loved Alice completely, no matter what. Alice felt the same.

The two broke apart, panting lightly, and smiled at each other.

"Suddenly glad I'm alive." Bella whispered.

"We will be talking about that serious lapse in judgment in the near future." Alice said seriously.

She wasn't going to let Bella out of her mistake quiet that easily.

Bella sighed but nodded, knowing she deserved whatever she got.

"Not one of my better idea's." she sighed.

"You got that right." Alice muttered, causing Bella to flinch.

Alice wrapped her arms securely around Bella's waist.

"I'm sorry. I just… the thought of losing you… it hurts." Alice explained quietly.

"I'm sorry Alice. You have nothing to be apologizing for. It was a huge error on my part and I am so, so sorry." Bella said.

"Why, Bella? I don't understand why." Alice asked.

"Cause you were both gone. Especially you. You didn't even say goodbye. It hurt. So much. I was… so lost. It felt like I was being torn apart from the inside out." Bella whispered brokenly as she silently cried.

Alice's arms tightened almost painfully but Bella didn't care.

"I'll never leave you again, my Bella. Never again." Alice promised.

Bella smiled at the endearment before slowly drifting off to sleep. Content for the first time in five weeks. The future was looking up.